I'm too scared to get on the scales. I did something this weekend I haven't done in a long time. I binged and I drank... a lot. So I think I'm gonna skip the scales until Friday. Hopefully all the damage I know I done will be lessened by then. Hopefully.
Well my mom was supposed to have breast surgery Friday @ 1:45, but now we aren't sure what's going on. The nurse called yesterday and said the doctor wanted to look at more X-ray panels and talk with my mom.
I haven't done either of those on that magnitude in a long time. I think I was using the excuse that it was a holiday weekend, coupled with the fact that I'm under a tremendous amount of stress with all that's going on here. I've been too scared to even step foot on the scale. But if I had to guess it'd be up at least 9 pounds, and I'm not exaggerating. I wish I was.
But I know that when I use to drink beer a lot I could hold on to all that water weight gain and it is depressing,-- not to mention I ate enough food this weekend to feed a small village in a 3rd world country for a couple of days... But I'm just gonna stay away from the scales until Friday and see how much damage I've still got to undo.
I've posted a couple of new pics in my EP photo album, the one in the white capri pants is what I wore to the registration/orientation. I took a pic of the label on the pants, they say a size 4 but I'm not buying that, I think it's vanity sizing because there's no way in hell my ass fits into a 4. So I'm not excited about the number at all, I feel like it's a lie- and now that I think about it I don't think my Levi jeans that are labeled a 5 is really a 5 either. I think I'm more like a size 8 or 10 in real life clothes. Just thought I'd share that with y'all.
If my criminal background check gets back by Thursday or Friday I should start work Monday night on the 4th. I'm glad, I need to keep busy and get my big ass moving again.
Ok y'all that's it for now. I'm not in a real talkative mood today, and I'm not really feeling all that great. I've got an eye appointment today @ 2;00 and I'll hopefully be able to pick out some new glasses I like. I always wear contacts unless I'm staying at home. So I'll try an holler at y'uns later. I hope you are all having a great day.
~Tink~
Posted By: TinkerBellSmiles
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05/30/2007 11:22
You're amazing.
Don't beat up on yourself, sometimes you just need to let go and say "so what" -- go back and look at your albums, and your graph, see what you've accomplished and don't let one weekend ruin you -- you ROCK and you are tremendously inspirational -- you're amazing inside and out, keep true to YOU :)
You did it, it's over, move on. You know that, I'm sure. I think it's good for you to stay away from the scale.....for now. Because what you would see now wouldn't be the "true" gain. You're back on track and that's all that matters. Oh, I saw the new pics. You look really cute in that outfit.
You call that a fat ass? I'll give you a gander at mine sometime!
Looks like both of us went a little crazy last weekend. No biggie - we had a good time, didn't we? I still weigh every day, it keeps me in line even though I don't like the number at the moment.
I trust your criminal record will come back clean, or is there something you're not telling us? You're not an axe-murderere or anything, are you? I'm thinking you've got that job in the bag!
Hey there! Look at you!!!! GO LOOK RIGHT NOW!!!! You look so awesome!!!!! You are looking soooo good!!!!! HOT! I love your new outfit its soooo pretty! I want those capris! Can we share? haha! Anyways im glad that you had a fun time during the holiday weekend. You know what I used to be the same way saying its the holiday its okay to give in. Guess what?! Its okay to give in, once in awhile our bodies get so used to the normal routine and having a binge is okay! Im glad that enjoyed yourself! That is what matters!
Im so excited for you to start your new job, I hate waiting for confirmation to work, but don't you worry it will be here soon and you will soon be working!
Im sorry to hear about your mom, she is in my prayers along with your family. Please keep us in touch with what is going on. Everything is going to go fine, she is in good hands.
You look thinner in that white capri pant than the jean pictures you have there. You look awesome and it's okay to binge once in a while. I did it 2 weeks ago in TX and now getting back on track. You can do it too!
Hope your mom's surgery goes well and you guys will be in my thoughts and prayers.
I've been busy and haven't had a chance to stop by your blog and respond till now.
Don't beat yourself up over the weekend. It's over and done with...I can't get over how skinny you are in the white pants!! I think you might need a size 1 -2 though. :) Skinny thing!