So it's Saturday Morning
Well, it's Saturday morning and it's very late / or very early depending on how you wanna look at it. 
I forgot to take my measurements Friday afternoon when I got back home from the doctors office, so I'll be doing that when I get back today from taking my MIL and SIL to see a family member. Then I'm gonna be cutting our grass. My husband and I will probably do my MIL's yard on Sunday while they are at church. 
I'm still kinda reeling from the WI at the doctors office. I just wasn't expecting anything to really change since Thursday morning when I had a peek at the scales. But you know what, I'll take it!.
I'm still feeling about a million different emotions right now. I just really didn't know this day would ever come. I mean - I HOPED it would get here, but in my heart of hearts I never really thought I'd be typing about my weight right now on a WL blog and how happy I was to be weighing "X" amount, ya know? I always HOPED I'd get to a size I was pretty comfortable with, but I don't think I ever really thought I'd get here. I know that's awful to say but it's true. When I was 236 I just didn't see any hope of me ever being in a single digit pair of jeans ever again. I prayed that I would be, I wished that I could be, but I don't think I ever really thought I'd make it this far.
I have lost so much weight so many times it's unreal. I've lost a little over 60 pounds once, 75 pounds once, I've lost 80 once. But all the times I've ever lost I've never- - EVER gotten under 150 pounds. No matter what I did, how I ate, how I exercised, nothing. I'd stay at 150 for 2 or 3 months and my resolve would fade away like I'd never even lost the first pound.
I broke 150 this time after a 4 MONTH PLATEAU, I've lost 97.5 .. That's just a trip! I think I'm kinda walking around right now feeling, like it's a dream. I don't want anyone to wake me up. What if I wake up tomorrow and it was all a dream and I'm still where I was almost 17 months ago? That would be a nightmare, not a dream. It feels unreal in every sense of the word.
Why did I keep going if I never thought I'd really make it? I don't know, maybe just to say "Look I tried it again and it didn't work- AGAIN." Maybe I wanted one more excuse to add to the other 3 to make it an even 4. (LOL) I have no idea. But I do thank God for giving me the courage to keep going when I didn't think I could go another day without binge eating. When I didn't think I could stop eating out of depression, anger, fear, boredom, anxiety.....
My life has changed so much over the last 17 months or so, but it's been like a roller coaster with no breaks for that last couple of months, I'm just kinda going along for the downhill ride. My face looks like this ~~~>
I'm just really shocked and surprised.
I want to thank Alexia, and Angel, Starbright and Kairi for their comments. That's all who's posted right now, so I wanted them to know I appreciate ALL of their kind words and encouragement!
I don't mean to sound overly dramatic, but the people I've met on EP have really changed my life for the better. I've met some of the sweetest people I've ever met before. And I am just so lucky to have stumbled on this website one day by accident... Maybe it wasn't by accident, maybe I was meant to come here and meet the people I've met.
((Alexia, JD, KillerHair07, GirlNextDoor, Ada, Wildflower, BigFatLooser, BubbleButt, Chibuzu, Angiegirl, jlfreund)) I know I'm leaving someone out, it's almost 4:30 in the morning an I am dead tired, so I might have left off your name- but you know who you are!! ((HUGS))
I love all you guys, you've ALL really helped me out and I hope one day I say something in a post that really helps you out when you need it the most.
I hope y'all have a great Saturday, I'll try to update tonight or Sunday morning.
Keep on rockin' it!
~Tink~