The Weigh I feel
Well, I thought I'd be freaking out by not drinking my Diet Cokes but it's been 2 days so far and I'm doing just fine, 3 more days to go. I know I shouldn't be weighing every morning, I usually just weigh once a week. But since starting the Phen I can't help myself. Once the weight loss starts to slow down I'll go back to the once a week weigh-ins. So I weighed again this morning and I am now 148.4 WOW! That's 1.4 down from yesterday! 
I'm just really happy that this is working for me.
I feel like I'm going to make this happen once and for all. That it's in my reach. I feel like I've been running a race for a long, long time, with no finish line in my sights, but now I'm coming down a hill and in the distance I see the finish line. It's still a good ways off, but it's doable, I'm going to finish what I started.
I've always gotten close, but never this close, not in a long, long time. I think my 36th birthday in August is going to be a GREAT day of celebration, I'll be celebrating the fact that I'm not hiding in my house anymore, I'm not avoiding cameras like the plague, I'm not practicality running through grocery stores once a week to avoid people who might know me from school years ago, I'm not doing a lot of things I use to do. My self esteem has really started to climb.
Yesterday I took my MIL and SIL to Sams my MIL is 90% blind and my SIL ( her daughter) is physically handicapped they live together. So I drive them all the places they need to go. We finished our shopping and we got in line, when I was done I told them I'd be standing right outside where I always stand. I go out and smoke and they are out within 5 minutes of me being outside. So I'm standing there and this really nice looking man walks out and he smiles at me and says "Hi" (I'm like OMG) So I smile back and say "Hello" he kept walking (Thank God) but it just made me feel better about myself that some stranger that was very nice looking and well dressed smiled at me. Is it human nature to want to be liked or even want the approval of strangers? I don't know. I do know that I use to worry about what strangers were saying behind my back, were they laughing at me ? Was I the butt of their joke because of my size?
Now I don't feel that way, I'm on the other end of the spectrum so to speak. I have men holler at me when I walking across a parking lot with my 14 year old son. He looks at me and says "Do you know them?" **LOL** I say "No" and he says "Well why are they yelling at you?" I tell him it's because they think his mom is hot! He just rolls his eyes and says "They better shut up."
He really gets mad, I think that's sweet.
Oh and speaking of my 14 year old son, I weigh 27.8 more pounds than he does. He's taller than me I am 5'3" and he's about 3 inches taller. He doesn't have an ounce of fat on his body. He's very long and lean like my husband. I'll have to have a tummy tuck when this weight is all off of me, I have VERY bad hanging skin. Plus, I thought why not just get a new set of boobs while I'm at it, they looked deflated and the ole girls just don't sit where they use to, looks like their trying to go south for the winter. So, I'm actively looking at plastic surgeons in my area. Do I have a pile of cash just lying around? Nope, not a penny, but I'm going to find a way to make this happen. I've come too far to only do this half way.
Ok y'all I'm going to go do some chores, but I just want you all to know that we are the ones who are in control of of eating. No one makes us cram a piece of cake in our mouths if we are having a bad day, or if we are bored or lonely, or stressed. We are adults and we are accountable for what we do. We have the power to say " No"
Until then-
Wishing you all the very best,
~Tink~