I hit 149.8 ! I've not been here in OVER 14 YEARS
OH MY GOD <~~That was my reaction when I stepped on the scales this morning and after waiting for the "beep" I looked down and just could not believe the number I was seeing.
I think I'm a little shell shocked still, but it feels FANTASTIC! I've not been under 150 pounds in 14 years. I was 150 pounds when my dad died 9 years ago this month and right after he died I gained a lot of weight. It's been up and down on the scales for me, for the last 14 years, a ride I don't care to take again. Most of you know what I mean. I'd start a new "diet" and exercise program lose some weight and then for some unknown reason, I'd just stop it all and go back to my mindless eating. I have cried so many times trying to figure out what was wrong with me. What was really wrong with me was that I didn't have the courage to lose the weight and keep it off. I'm learning every single day about what it means to truly be aware of what I'm eating and why I'm eating it. I have moments where I want to grab a handfull of baked chips and scarf them down, but I stop before I grab them and think to myself, "Am I really hungry?" or " Why chips, why not carrots or something healthy?" I think I've figured it out, for myself anyway. I have a HABIT of eating bad things, habits are hard to break, but they can be broken. I just have to really be aware of my eating at all times. Last night before I went to bed I was thinking, "A couple of cookies and a small glass of milk would be nice." Then I went to the kitchen and looked at my refrigerator and all the pics I have on it when I weighed 236, 224, 210, 200, 198, and so on. I thought about it and decided I didn't really want or need that cookie, so I poured me a small glass of 1% milk. Then I was off to bed. 
I feel like I'm getting the hang of this eating/mind thing that we all go through. I'm sure there will be a time where it's harder to say no, but I'll be more alert about why I am eating and what I am eating and how much. I'm the one who has all the control not the food. 
Highest weight ever : 236 pounds on 11-25-05
Weight lost by doing a diabetic diet 81 pounds
Starting weight for Phen was 155.4 on 2-23-07
Current weight on Phen 149.9 on 2-26-07
GRAND Total for My personal loss added to Phen loss 86.2
Feeling like I got my life back: Priceless 
Until then-
Wishing you all the very best,
~Tink~