Thank you all for the comments

I was so excited that I had comments today! Thank you all for posting! It's 1:05 a.m. here and I'm fixing to go to bed. But I just wanted to posts a quick response to the comments. Bubble, I hear ya, I feel the way about Diet Coke as you feel about tea (LOL) I have an unhealthy obsession with it  But I think I'll do pretty good this week, I've got my game face on.

SwingxSetxGirl, I got my Phen from a local "diet doctor" that's all he does is weight loss.

Jlfreund, I promise you I'm eating *lol* they don't make a pill for me that's strong enough to take all my desire to eat away (LOL)  I've just been eating very small amounts throughout the day I'm probably getting in about 1,000 calories if I had to guess. Also, thank you for the compliment on my "during" pic! That was really nice of you to say!!

Wildflower, I've never taken the pill you are on, but I took Phentermine about 6 years ago and after 3 months I was immune to it. It just stopped working one day. I hope your BP goes down and you can get to where you want to be!

Again, thank you all for commenting it made me feel like I wasn't alone here!!

*A thought before bed*

Six years ago I wanted the pill to be the magic bullet, and it was for a while, then it fell back to me to keep my weight loss going. As you can see in my "before" pic I failed miserably. I was at my highest weight ever in November 2005. This time I did the majority of the work myself, but got on a very bad plateau and I was afraid I'd slip and fall off the wagon if I didn't see the scales start to move in the down direction once again. So I went to the doctor and got back on the pills, I am very aware that I am the one who controls my food. I will no longer give in to the mindless eating I've done for the last 14 years. I know that if I eat anything I want- when I want, I'll be a size 20 again and the waistband will be cutting me in half because I was too ashamed to go buy a bigger size. It's all up to me, I'm the one who puts food in my mouth. I am responsible for my own actions. I am stronger than that  piece of fried chicken, or slice of pizza, or cake or whatever the food is. I am the one who has say over my body. That's a liberating feeling!

Ok, I've got to take my MIL to Sams tomorrow, so I'm off to bed now. I'll update when I get back and put my groceries away. Until then-

Wishing you all the very best,

~Tink~