15 of 90

Well I'm so sleepy. I have to get use to waking up early again. That is the only problem with vacations. I'm about to pp. 

Yesterday God was truly dealing with me and this food issue. He wants me to give up my fear of being without my favorite foods. After dieting for years it is hard for me to believe that I can loose weight and be healthy  eating what I like. I have to trust Him and know that He can provide for me. Lord thank you for touching me and showing me that you care about me even when I don't care about myself.

Lafay

14 of 90

Today is my rest day. I have to grade papers and prepare my lessons for this week. It's back to work for me. In three more weeks it will time for my winter break.

I really miss my family. But I will see them in time. My friend was nice but I think he was disappointed that I didn't give him any. What did he think? I'm am not easy and I don't know him well enough to give him my goodies like that. Sure he is handsome and can sweet talk me to dealth. But my daddy's the same way. Actions speak louder than words. There is no way this man is in love with me and we have only known each other for two weeks.

Well today I am going to work on drinking fluids with my meals and eating slowly. This is really difficult for me. I know it sounds simple to others but trust me, when you are eating your favorite foods it is not that simple. Especially when you are in the habit of eating as much as you can as fast as you can.

Enjoy your healthy lifestyle!

Lafay

13 of 90

I am procrastinating. I should be pp right now. But instead I am posting another blog. I decided to do a liquid fast for several reasons. One is to give my body back to God because I need His help with this weight loss journey. Two I need to find my true hunger and embrace it. I don't want my head hunger controling me. And finally I need to spend some time in my word and not focusing on food.

I don't know if I mentioned this but I really want a belly ring. I think  only people with sexy abs should have one. When I reach my goal weight I will definitly get one. I won't show it off all of the time. Only when I where a bathing suit and for my private sessions with my man.

I'm still trying to get that Rubean CD. I wish I was 199lbs already! . I will get there in time. I just need patience. If I want this weight loss to be permenant it has to come off slowly with changes that I can keep for a life time.

Well I'm about to pp for real now. Incline push-ups here I come!

Lafay

12 of 90

I have decided to go back to posting everything that I eat. I didn't like some of the comments I got before so I had stop. I don't deal well with negativity. I can be extremely sensitive some times.

Well I pp today. I didn't workout yesterday because my friend's remote is missing in action. Great excuse. I don't like doing 3-4 Scuplt any way. The incline push ups are killer.

It is more difficult for me to eat slowly during the holidays. It has to be mental. But I know that if I keep praying and waiting until the next hunger to eat that I will eventally learn to stop when I am full.  The waiting for hunger is easy. Its the eating slowly that's killer. I know that if I eat slower less food will get me full. So my goal for this week is to make myself drink water/juice/soda between every bite. This will be extremly difficult for me because I don't drink while I am eating. We discussed this in my WD group. Jill said that we learn very early that the quicker we eat and the less we drink the more food we can eat. I have to stop lusting for the food. It can't love me. It can't hold me. It doesn't talk back. It doesn't even make me feel better. The food is not worth me feeling like this. I must show love for myself by taking care of my temple. And that is through exercising and not overeating. I can do ALL things through Christ that gives me strength.

Sorry for the preachie moment. I really needed that. The Thanksgiving's Day food is calling my name. Here is what I ate today:

Brunch: Table spoon of dressing, two table spoons of potato salad, a slice of pecan pie, and a slice of apple pie.

Dinner: 5 doritos with cheese sauce, A chicken patty with a half bun ranch dressing and pickle,  1/4 apple pie, and one chocolate chip cookie.

The pie was a bit much but I could not stop. I am really feeling it now in my tummy. That means it will take a while for me to get hungry tomorrow. That's ok. I am going to start drinking more fluids while I eat to help me with self control. I also need to pray before every meal. I do that about once every other day.

I am still a work in progress. But I am better today than I was on yesterday.

Lafay

10 out of 90

What a great work out. When I woke up this morning my body was so stiff. Talk about feeling every move that you make. That just means that my body is reshaping itself.

In WD, although I can eat whatever I want, I have to weigh myself everyday to help me make sure I am listening to my body's full and hunger mechanisms. It can be nerve wrecking but it really does make you think about your portion sizes more. Also when the scale goes down waiting for the next hunger is so worth it. So this morning my home scale said 200.4 lbs. Only 1.4lbs to loose to reach my November goal.

I went to the Ob Gyn yesterday. She told me I am doing an awesome job with the weight lost. I have lost 17 lbs since my last visit which was in June. Those who know me know that I was complaining about it not being more. She told me that thats just right and that slow results are lasting results. That really made my day.

I saw my soon to be ex. He has gained more weight. It is hard to even see the man that I fell in love with. He has gained at least 80lbs since we have been seperated.  He claims that once we get this insurance info taken care of that he will sign the papers. I won't get excited until he actually signs them.

Have a healthy day!

Lafay

Day 9 of 90

I hate push ups. I forgot that Sculpt 3-4 makes me do incline push ups. I can only do 8 but hopefully by the end of next week I'll be doing 15.

I have to meet with my soon to be ex-husband today. Hopefully we can come to an agreement today. We shall see.

Lafay

Day 8 of 90

Well the scale is moving down. Waiting for true hunger is so worth it. I'm still working on stopping once I am full. This is truly going to take some effort from my part. I'm just going to keep on praying and eating slowly. I will definitly get there with time.

Doing P90's Sweat 3-4 really kicked my but. I loved it. I could just feel my body reshaping itself. Well I have two more weeks to meet my goal. I think one lb a week is so doable.

Lafay

Day 7 of 90

Well I did not push play yesterday. I woke up late and I had only 15 minutes to go to my weigh down meeting.

I had to start from scratch. Since I am off this week it will be easier for me to wait for my hunger and fullness mechanism. I had lost the pound I gain but I know that this week more will come off if I listen to my body and feed it only when it is hungry. And my thoughts of food have come back to hunt me. I had a dream about coconut cream pie. The pie is not bad. What is bad is that I am allowing it to consume my thoughts.

Lord, I know that you love me. Help me to devote more time to you and to plan more time with you instead of dwelling on the food. The food will be there and can not give me comfort or show me love. Jesus you have brought me thus far and I know you will keep me. Thank you for your perfect peace.

Sorry I needed that little prayer. Have a great weekend.

Lafay

Day 5 of 90

Well I've pp all week. My portions are getting smaller and I'm learning to eat slowly.

The most important thing is my Thanksgiving holiday officially begins now.  I'm still trying to decide if I want to cook or not. One of my riends wants me to. If he really wants me to do it he is going to have to buy everything that he wants me to cook. He'll probably do it.

Well I was just making sure I checked in. Have a great weekend!

Lafay

Day 2 of 90

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! Boy did I have a horrible day. My students are paying me back for being absent last week.

Inspite of the stresss I did not over eat. I didn't eatunch because I was too upset and my stomache didn't growl until lunch was over with. My tummy didn't growl again until I was driving home.

I'm trying to make it until the end of the week. Next week is Thanksgiving break. Lord give me the strenght. I miss teach elementary students so much. I hate teaching middle school.

On a better note, I pp and I was able to do 8 male push ups and the triceps dips with my legs stretched out.  I am making leaps and bounds with my work outs. I am slowly getting the body that I always wanted and knew that I can have.

Lafay