06/03/2011 20:06
Flake
I know I've been such a flake and I'm sorry. I feel like I've let you guys down and failed to support you as I would like to be supported. I've just felt so bad for so long now that I've gotten to the point where I'm ready to crawl under a rock. I'm so hoping the treatment will help get me back to my "old self" and soon.
Please keep on keepin' on and just know that eventhough I'm not blogging, I am thinking about all of you.
06/03/2011 01:02
Time for Change
I hope things are going to get better soon.
I've been on this weight loss journey for a long time now and I have been so frustrated with the results. Or lack thereof, actually.
Writing down every bite I take into a note book, watching my calories and carbs and fat, exercising, joining the gym and even hiring a personal trainer to help me reach my goals. It's hard work and it takes planning and effort and time and money. I've been doing all the right things for months now and I haven't budged on the scales. My clothes are a bit looser, but that's about the extent of it.
I've been so dang tired I can hardly hold my head up past 8 o'clock at night! I finally got fed up and went to the doctor to see what she had to say and it turns out I've got some stuff going on inside my body. First of all, I'm really low on B12 vitamin. This vitamin helps red blood cells carry oxygen and nutrients throughout the body as well as has a critical role in the brain and central nervous system functioning. So what does that mean?
It means the food I've been eating hasn't been getting to the right places to "feed" me, and I've been low on oxygen. Both are vital to weight loss goals. More tests are being called for, but ultimately, I am hoping that treatment will help 'fix' a lot of things for me.
Weight loss is hard enough without having other problems, too.
05/04/2011 01:03
Don't ScrEaM!!!!!
It's frustrating to me that the place where I want to lose the weight from the most will be the last place it will come off of. My pants are huge in the thighs and behind, but because my belly is where I gain it first and lose it last from, my pants pretty much fit through there. It is keeping me from going down a size and right now, I could scream.
But I'm doing everything I need to do to remind me of these facts:
1.) I just got truly serious about this one and a half weeks ago. I joined the gym, I hired a trainer, I've completely overhauled my diet. I'm hitting this head on.
2.) Not enough time has passed to make a big difference alll over my body. I must exercise patience. I keep telling myself to wait for the results at 4 weeks. With all the things I'm doing, I should be in a smaller size by then, easy.
3.) I'm keeping a food journal so I can keep myself honest about what I'm putting in my mouth. It's much harder to eat snacks and junk and what have you if I'm writing it all down. It's time consuming, but it keeps me from lying to myself and keeps me focused. And helps my memory. Sometimes after I eat, I find myself hungry within 15-20 minutes of eating and by looking at my journal, I can say, "hold on... give it another 15 minutes to reach the brain that I've eaten." It helps.
4.) I'm also keeping an exercise journal. To prove to myself that I'm dedicated and I'm doing something productive towards my weight loss goals. This way, I don't think that I'm being a lazy slob, because eventhough I'm working out and doing all this, some days, I feel like I'm not doing enough. But I am. I'm doing enough. It just takes time. And patience.
So for this passing moment, I won't scream. I will take what I can get and be happy for he small changes that are taking place in my body. I will be patient and I will see results. I must stay the course.... I can do this!!! I know I can do this!!!!
04/28/2011 18:39
8 Days
Today, I'm tired. Anytime I've began a workout regimine in my life, I get a boost of energy --- just as they say it will do. Problem is, it takes my body a while to catch up and I feel tired, eventhough I cannot sleep. And today I'm feeling the effects!! I could take a nice, long nap right now.
I got on the elliptical this morning and pedalled for 45 minutes!!! It was a bit easier than the other type of elliptical I was on last week, so I stuck with it. I burned a lot of calories on that thing.
8 days in a row of working out. Trying to keep it real. Tracking and realizing I'm not going to have "magic" happen overnight. Long term goals here...
04/26/2011 01:03
Miss You....
My goodness, it's been a while since I've been on here. I got a full time job and have been working Monday through Friday. I get an hour for lunch, so that's 9 hours at work and then it takes me one hour to drive each way so I'm "busy" with work for at least 11 hours each day.... great, eh? Then of course, there's the time it takes to shower, dress, hair & make-up, so needless to say, I don't have a lot of time to get on the computer and blog anymore. I miss it.
On a good note, I joined a gym that is close to my house and I've been getting up at 5:00 in the morning to drive there, workout, return home to shower and eat, let the dogs out and then head into work. I also splurged and bought sessions with a personal trainer and she's got me on a plan...
I'm hoping to lose at least 2 pounds each week and so far, I'm feeling longer and leaner already! With a touch of soreness here and there
But it's all good and soon I hope to report really good news... But in the meantime, I've got to run and fix dinner!!!
02/27/2011 16:35
A BIG DIFFERENCE
In my years of struggling with weight, when I've been motivated to lose, I've always wanted to "hurry up" and get the weight off, as if THAT was the goal. The big difference this time is that yes, I want the weight off, and yes, if it could happen overnight, I think I would be pleased, but the difference this time is that I'm living my life like a healthy person should (I think. I hope.)
I eat like any other person does. Some of this. Some of that. Sometimes I indulge in junk food or ice cream, but I'm not OBSSESSING over everything I put in my mouth. I don't know about you, but I don't want to live my life that way. I want to be able to ENJOY eating and ENJOY life. Not avoid all restuarants that have tempting foods or stay away from parties because there'll be food everywhere. That's no way to live.
I want this plan to work and in order for that to happen, I must be reasonable in my food choices as well as live it as "normally" as possible.
If I were in a race to get the weight off, I think I would rebound AGAIN and gain it back. If I were to cut back my calories so drastically that I lose quickly, I would rebound AGAIN for good food that tastes good and to feel my tummy full again. Sure, I could eat lettuce every day for lunch and chicken every night for dinner, but what kind of life would that be? B-O-R-I-N-G!!!!!
THIS TIME, I'm going to lose the weight and KEEP it off. I'm going to experiment with my foods and learn what I can have to help maintain what I've lost so far, but keep me losing in a safe, slow manner that won't leave me feeling deprived in 3-6 months. I don't want to be binging and not be able to stop.... slow is definitely better when it comes to weight loss.
It's funny the things you learn in life as you get older.... experience really IS a good teacher...
Y'all have a fabulous Saturday!!!!
02/25/2011 19:33
Stairs! Stairs! STAIRS!
So... here I am at lunch again. Sliced ham, Triscuit crackers, water, and grapes. It doesn't sound like much, but it's filling and my portions are where they should be. :-) I have had more exercise today than planned.
Where I'm working, the parking lot is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay out there. They have to have room for all the customer parking up close to the building, so I park out on the last row and figure, I have to walk anyway, might as well make it worth my while.
It's probably the equivalent to walking about half-way around my block at home. And.... it's uphill. Not a steep hill, but enough of an incline that it gets my heart pumping pretty good. Once I reach the building, I have to climb about 12-14 steps to get to the door, then, I walk all the way to the other end of the building, where I actually sit. WHEW! I work on the 4th floor, but because I'm hauling a bag on wheels with my lunch, shoes, purse, etc., I take the elevator up.
So after I got here this morning, I realized, I'd left something in my car and had to go back and get it but this time, when I came back into the building.... I climbed the stairs to the fourth floor!!! I've had my workout for the day!!! LOL!!!
About every hour, I go into one of the stairwells and go down one or two flights of stairs and turnaround and come back up again. Better than a stair-climber at the gym... cuz it's free!
I'm already thinking about dinner... I have thoughts of Dickey's BBQ dancing in my head...
02/24/2011 20:01
OH! I left something out
I also wanted to say in my post that I am working on building muscle, and therefore am not going to weigh myself for a while. The last time I began to build muscle, I gained one pound EVERY DAY and I got so discouraged that I nearly quit!!! So I decided that I'll work on gaining the muscle and not focus on the scales. In three months, I'll weigh and see where I am then.
I hope this is a good plan... I'll keep you posted.
02/24/2011 19:44
My Time @ The Gaylord
It's lunchtime again and I'm at my desk eating what I brought from home. The cafeteria downstairs is too expensive for my budget, and if I go out, I'll just be spending money on food someone else has prepared. So, I figure why not save some cash and bring my own. And heaven forbid I should "just go out to get out" because that means I'll end up shopping! LOL!! Besides, I think this is the healthiest choice. I have sliced turkey breast, Triscuits and sugar free Jell-O pudding. This afternoon, I'll snack on grapes. Drinking water.
I'm on the fourth floor and have been climbing the stairs several times a day. Not all four flights at once, but one or two here and there. I feel the muscles in my hips getting the most workout and of course, it gets my heart pumping. It's quite a workout, climbing stairs. %-)
I spent last weekend at the Gaylord hotel with friends and I have to admit... it wasn't pretty...
We met for lunch on Saturday and I had a sandwich on wheat with a few fries and diet coke. Not so bad. But wait... that evening, when the event started, I had a 7&7 (adult beverage), then at dinner, I had a chicken breast, salad, and a couple of bites of mashed potatoes. Not so bad either... Wait for it... then we went to the dessert buffet and me and my friend had the BRILLIANT idea to TASTE one of everything!!! Except, we didn't JUST taste. We ended up splitting one of everything and went back for SECONDS on some things!!!!!! I don't even want to consider how many calories I had that night, not to mention the additional adult beverages I drank (open bar!!) and all THOSE empty calories... *sigh* So we stayed up until four in the morning jabbering and catching up then went down for brunch at 11:00. I attempted to show restraint and ate 1/4 of a belgiun waffle and 4 slices of bacon. Went back for tomatoes, cucumbers and red onions with balsamic vinegar on top, a roll smeared with butter (let's just say I had a little roll with my butter!!!) and something else but now I can't remember what - I just know there were three things on my plate! THEN as if we hadn't had enough sweets from the night before, me and my friend split a slice of chocolate mouse cheesecake, another dessert and chocolate covered strawberries!!!!!
Lord have mercy on my fat butt (and hips and arms and thighs)!!!!
We had so much fun and it was a great time away from home, but mercy me!!! From the lack of sleep and all that sugar.... it has taken me four days to get back to normal again! sheesh!!!!
So how's everybody doing???
I slithered off the thing and went to the treadmill and walked for roughly 35-40 minutes. That night, my DH and I went and swam laps (I did 8 laps total). 