Week 3

Week 2

Lost: 4.5

Total loss: 10.5

Goals met this weeek: Goal 2 (10 pounds lost!)

Next Goal: Goal 3 (10% towards goal!) - 9 pounds away

WW and Exercise: OP all week, Earned 53 Activity Points

Very bad movie!

For the love of little green apples, don't ever watch Domino. Very, very bad movie.

There was one line, however, that stuck in my mind and (sadly) echoed my twisted reasoning to my beleaguered on-again-off-again boyfriend.

In the movie, two guys are discussing whether or not to hire a young woman (played by the very svelte and gorgeous Keira Knightly) into their bounty hunting business. One man is against it, the other man wants to hire her. The argument that wins (paraphrased): "Look at us. When people see us walking down the street, they see a couple of nobody losers. When they see us walking down the street with HER, they'll say 'Look at those two cool mother f**kers'."

My boyfriend did not care what I looked like. He loved me for who I was inside. But I wouldn’t go to his work events with him, because I was so sure that he would be judged to some extent (by his male co-workers) because of the size of the woman that hung on his arm. I always felt that my fatness made him look bad. Like he couldn't do better, like he 'settled' for a fat chick. I was embarrassed for him.

When I told him the real reason I wouldn't go with him, he was shocked, and said that he was sure that no one would think any worse of him or me, and even if they did, who cared what other people thought?

He was right to say that. But I still say (and so did this very bad movie): For better or worse, you are sometimes judged by the appearance of your significant other.

Is that an unhealthy motive to lose weight? Probably. But I am going to work on fixing myself on the inside, too, while I work on the outside. I’m going to learn to love myself - to not sabotage a good thing - and not care what other people think.

Week 1

Week 1

Lost: 6

Total Loss: 6

Goals met this week: Goal 1 (lose first 5 pounds)

Next Goal: Goal 2 (lose first 10 pounds) - 4 pounds away

WW and Exercise: OP all week, Exercised 2 days.

My mini-goals for a mini-me

Goal 1: 5 pounds lost (337)

Goal 2: 10 pounds lost (332)

Goal 3: 10% towards goal! (323)

Goal 4: 20 pounds lost (322)

Goal 5: WW 10% (10% of my beginning body weight) (308)

Goal 6: In the 200's! (299)

Goal 7: 25% towards goal! (295)

Goal 8: 50 pounds lost  (292)

Goal 9: BMI Obese II Reached (270)

Goal 10: 75 pounds lost (267)

Goal 11: 50% towards goal! (247)

Goal 12: 100 pounds lost (242)

Goal 13: BMI Obese I Reached (236)

Goal 14: BMI Overweight Reached (202)

Goal 15: In the 100's (199)

Goal 16: 75% towards goal (199)

Goal 17: 90% towards goal (189)

Goal 18: BMI Normal (168)

Goal 19: Final Goal(We'll see!)

I have set my final goal on my chart and tracker at 150, but to be honest - is that realistic? My son saw my goal weight and laughed.... He can't see how I could be the same weight as him (we are the same height). I wonder about .... you know... all those new fat cells that have come and will never really go away. They will get smaller, but they won't go away. And the skin!!  I need to do some research.

I'll re-assess my goal weight when I reach Normal BMI. 

Oh, this is day 6 on Weight Watchers and I LOVE IT!!! What a great concept, those Points. If someone had said "Okay, you are on a low-fat diet...go!" I would have said "shroo eww" (which is "screw you" around a mouthful of chocolate cake with real icing dipped in fat).

I am so intent on finding a way to make the most of my points that I am making much healthier choices without feeling like I'm deprived. I'm not looking at fat content, calories or carbs...just those easy-peasy points. 

Speaking of carbs, it is very strange to get into the mindset of "it's okay to eat carbs".  I still have not had a baked potato - and I  know that it is very acceptable to do so on WW! I think I'll plan next week's meals with at least one carby low-point item just to get in that mindset.

My first official WW Weigh In is on Monday. I'll post then!

You guys are all wonderful, thanks for being here to listen.

Eating

Thanks, Leanne - you are right!  I'm just getting started, I have to take babysteps.

Right now, it is not important if I miss an exercise session. I need to develop the eating habits that will carry me through the weight loss and into the rest of my life.

One of the things that I was asked to do with WW was to assess my hunger levels at the beginning and end of each meal, rating them on a scale of 1 to 5 (1 being very hungry, 5 being overly stuffed).

I had NEVER thought of waiting until I am hungry to eat. Even on other diets...on those I would deprive myself and be ravenous before I could eat, which of course is setting myself up for faliure.  The toughest thing I have had to do so far (in the whole 3 days I've been doing WW!) is to wait until I am hungry to eat.  Before, I would be sitting at my desk at work and suddenly think of chocolate. At that moment there was nothing that I would want more and I immediately craved it so badly that i would just get up and get something from the vending machine. And another for later on.

Today I looked at my clock on the computer and thought "oh, lunchtime!". But this time I did a quick assessment, realized I was not hungry yet, and although it was very hard, dove into work so that I would not think of food. Sure enough, about an hour later, my tummy told me it was hungry and I had my sensible meal. I am so proud of myself!!!

Tracking food intake

I joined Weight Watchers Online last Sunday, and I really like it. Tracking what I eat is a huge help, I've never done it before. This site has the same type of tracking system, though  - I'm going to try tracking my intake here as well, and if I feel the same benefits, I'm going to end the WW subscription. 

I did NOT go to the Y - either last night or this a.m. like I promised myself. A slap on the hand for me, and I will go today after work.

Beeeny joins the Blogosphere!

Hello everyone!  I've read dozens of posts and wow! What great stories and pictures.  I have quite a bit of weight to lose (nearly 200 lbs).  I'm looking forward  to getting inspiration from all your stories and pictures.  Talk to you all soon!