Stress and Fruity Pebbles

This week of work has been just.. ridiculous. I've been working at least 12 hours every day plus doing kung fu - except for today because I have a concert. But.. food wise I've been pretty great. Eaten around 1200 calories every day, except for today was probably 1400. Whew. Here's to more relaxed times. I'm going to Houston with Alex next week for work - let's hope I can still lose while I'm there.

Week 1, Day 3

Yesterday during the day was super good -- Ran in the morning (crappy run, I'm lazy, but I ran nonetheless), ate well all day for a total of 1260 calories, and then Kung Fu 2 at night. I was hideously hungry after kung fu though, and when I got home I was resolved not to eat anything because.. it's a good idea not to eat before bed. I decided to take a shower before I went to sleep and ended up eating 2 english muffins and a pint of ice cream though. Damn. Well, there's my one uncounted meal for the week.  Here's to the rest of the week! :)

Post Day

So Pilates went well this morning, and I didn't get to Kung Fu until half way through the beginner adult class, but I worked out with them for a half hour or so and then Kung Fu 3 for about an hour and a half. It went.. okay. I felt pretty crappy the whole time, but it was a work-out nonetheless.

Succeeded in a 1200 calorie, six meal day. I'm exhausted, stressed out, and tired to the max, and it's only Monday. I drank enough water. I ate little and well. I worked out for probably about 3 hours. I worked 10 hours. Tomorrow's another day, here's to that.

Day 1

It seems life is a continuous Day 1, you know. Like in Trainspotting, "When you are a heroin addict, there are final hits and final hits."

Anyway, I'm tired of being who I'm being - I need to push myself out of my box. I'm going to Houston next week. I'm going to Rome in the fall to study. I want a new me.

Did Pilates this morning for 40 minutes, and now I'm smelly like carpet and need a shower. Here's to a "Perfect On Plan" day, as those provida people say.

Hoy!

So, here I am.

About me, you ask?

I teach and practice kung fu 6-7 days a week, in addition to being a full time student at University and holding a job teaching children how to use video editing software.

I've always been active but always had a problem with food. I finally overcame bulimia about three years ago, but that left me with the stark of binging -- just no purge. I've never been overweight, but always always had my few extra pounds and my detestable mentality. Binging, self-loathing, lack of self-esteem, the inability to feel proud of myself, it goes on. This mindset bleeds into everything - martial arts, school, friends - and I need to kill it. So here I am.

And here I go.