Uncovering Me

Working my way to discovering myself.

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  • Name: kssfate
  • City: San Jose
  • State: CA
  • Country: US

My Weight Loss

Height:
Start weight: 217.00lb
Current weight: 200.80lb
Goal weight: 140.00lb
Lost to date: 16.20lb
Remaining: 60.80lb

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Before After

If you have a Trader Joes near you

Pick up some of the spicy egg white salad! It is not really spicy, but it is really yummy and super low in calories!!!

Plan for today... and a chance to recover from the weekend!

Last night was mad crazy... we had a recruitment night for supper club and told all the new folks not to worry about food. But they almost all brought food.... so I used a small plate and would take some and sit down and then think before going back. I know I wasn't OP but I think that is still a huge success!

Plan for today.... first a warning... today is D's aunt's funeral. If you haven't been reading my blog for long, you should know that all of D's immediate family is deceased. His mom, dad, and both siblings. And his aunt was the identical twin of his mother. So it has been a high level of stress. You should also know that D asked me to go to work and not to the funeral. It was his one big request because he wants to be strong and hard as a rock and can't do that when I am there supporting him (I guess to each their own... but I will honor it). So I am going to sit at work all day and try not to think about it. Yeah right.

Brekkie: Matcha Green Tea Shot (1), Berry Fulfilling Smoothie (5)
Snack: Pirate's Booty (3)
Snack: Vitatop (1)
Lunch: Spicy Egg White Sammie (2), Lentil Soup (3), Raspberries (1)
Snack: Carrots (0), Apple Slices (1)
Dinner: TJ Veggie Enchiladas (5)
Snack: Popcorn (2) and Olive Oil (2)

Dinner and Evening Snack may become sushi...

Sweet treat!

2 ladyfingers (40 calories total if you get them at Trader Joes)
8 fresh raspberries
1 small squirt of whip cream from the can
6 extra dark chocolate morsels (like chocolate chips)

Yum!

Woohoo!

First... yay for having internet on the last day of the conference.

Second... I am sitting through a bunch of sessions instead of going to sit in the advisor lounge. There are bagels and other empty calories calling my name and I refuse to answer them!!!!

Breakfast was changed a bit. I had a 4 point breakfast sandwich of canadian bacon, ff sharp cheddar, eggbeaters and bread. I also had a two point fruit and almond milk smoothie.

I have a vitatop (1), turkey sandwich (4), apple slices (1), and carrots (0) in my bag for munching and lunching :o)

I think I may dress up like a pig for Halloween...

because that is how I acted yesterday around food!

It started out bad when I was running late and forgot breakfast. So I started out eating some of the processed snacks out of one of the snack bags. Potato chips and a nutrigrain bar. Then a half a donut. Then some Lorna Doone cookies in a 100 calorie packet. Then three Hershey kisses. I am sure I am forgetting things here. I know I also had a berry fulfilling Jamba (look one part of my plan accomplished!)

Lunch I had an eggplant sandiwch which was unfortunately quite oily. And I split a ricotta rice torta thing that was probably healthier than the sandwich (it was all grilled veggies and some pesto and the pesto was more oil that basil!).

I snacks a bunch more. Ate three slices of pizza for dinner. Drank half a bottle of cherry coke (I don't even normally drink soda!!!!!).

In the end it was like I was never full (except after lunch I was full for awhile). I know it was because I made lousy choices and I will take full responsibility.

I did buy a book called the Entreprenuers Diet which is supposed to help folks who travel a ton and have no time lose weight. Eh it was on clearance so even if it sucks I will not be out much money. But I am going to try some of it's suggestions!

Plan today is kind of crazy but I am forcing myself to bring my meals. Even if I do have a meal plan, I just can't allow myself that freedom right now:

Brekkie: Homemade fruit smoothie (2), Vitatop (1)
Snack: Apple slices (1), Carrots (1)
Lunch: Turkey (1) and Havarti (2) Sandwich (1), 100 calorie pack (1)
Snack: Fiber One Bar (2)
Dinner: Supper Club so I don't know. I am bringing a dessert of strawberries, angel food cake, whip cream (light) and chocolate shavings.

Plan for today

This may be my only internet access for the day... so unless I blog via cell phone, here is my plan.

Brekkie: Starbucks nf chai latte, vitatop (4)
Snack: Jamba berry fulfilling (3)
Lunch: Salad and Sandwich at Stanford (7)
Dinner: 2 slices of pizza (12)

Walking will earn some APs so I might get to snack as well.

Masking tape is my new best friend

See what a girl has to do to keep from eating jelly bellys.

Stress = Overeating

Brekkie? Three steamed bbq pork buns from the local chinese deli.

Lunch? Fries, a couple bites of pastrami and gruyere on sourdough, a couple pieces of inari, hummus and chips, the icing off a brownie

Oh and I had a caramel kiss.

I promise I will have some fruit or veggie this evening.

One more mini-vent

I really want something sweet but I am definitely full.

If I still feel this way in an hour I think I will make myself some tea with a sprinkle of german rock sugar.

Grrrr to my brain and mouth and stomach being at war with each other!

Gotta love the Genova! And other ramblings!

So the italian deli... still fabulous. I ate the sandwich and I am full again.

I probably should have only eaten half the sandwich now that I think about it. I think once I have gotten this "not eating when you are not hungry" thing down I will work on "you don't have to eat everything in front of you."

Yup, I like that next goal!

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A friend laughed at me earlier and said I blog like I talk. That I don't try to write like a writer or a narrator. That sometimes my blog entries are as frantic as my mind is and are difficult to understand. I figure "why shouldn't I blog like I talk/think?" Isn't a blog whatever you want it to be?

I used to work in the newspaper industry. I also used to work for a literary magazine. I know what it is like to write for publication. For customers who pay to receive information.

But if you are reading my blog, I am assuming it is because you like how I write (or you are like me some nights and just avoiding bingeing by not moving from the laptop!). I don't need an audience to blog... I blog for myself. I blog to hold myself accountable because even if I am not counting points/counting calories/eating foods that are SBD or Core approved.... I am changing my outlook on food. Food and I are in need of couples counseling and blogging is cheaper than a therapist. And until blogging is discovered to not be helping... I think I like it :o) And I like it in my voice!

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