My daughter was born with some birth defects involving her bladder and kidney’s. After countless surgeries from birth to age seven, the problems she was born with are some what fixed. 
I got a letter from my daughter’s urologist Sept 3rd. It was sent out to all patients who are on intermittent catheterization or who have had a procedure to enlarge their bladder using bowel segments. Well my daughter has both. The letter goes on to say, “we have begun seeing a few cases of cancer developing in patients with bladders like yours, as have doctors at other institutions. It is important to understand, how ever that not all patients will develop cancer. At this time we do not know what caused these cancers to develop, or why they developed in some patients and not others. We understand that this new information about the possibility of cancer might make our patients uncomfortable. We want to reassure you again that we have only seen a few cases of cancer so far, but feel that it is important to watch all of our patients closely.” WHAT? What do you mean CANCER? WHAT else can go wrong? My daughter’s medical condition is very complex; I worry about her being in another country. What if she gets sick? Will the doctors there know what to do? I don’t even know if her medical condition is covered under his medical insurance. I am so worried about her. 
I don’t know how much more stress I can take.
As far as my weight, I am pretty much maintaining. But here in the last few days, I just want to eat eat eat. I am so afraid of sliding back into my old habits.

My daughter arrived to her destination at 12:47 am this morning. I was so relieved!!! Plus all of her luggage arrived! I was so worried that they would get lost.

I talk to her briefly when she got to the airport; she was very tired as she didn’t sleep much since she left Wednesday. And I spoke with her today; they had a very busy day, with all the last minute planning for the wedding coming up this Sunday.

As for my weight and exercise for this week. Staying pretty much on track, except for 2 days . My daughter and I went to a great greek restaurant the day before she left, (that was yummy) and hubby and I went out to eat right after we took her to the airport (yummy also)!!
Have only gotten 4 of my 5 walks in this week. I weigh in tomorrow afternoon, so I will probably get the last one in before I go weigh in.
Have a great weekend!!!

I am not good at blogging… I am not good with words… So when I am feeling overwhelmed, worried, stressed and anxious my thougths and feelings run wildly through my head and I can't seem to organize them enough to get them out on paper or on this blog. It becomes one big jumbled and scattered mess. I then get overwhelmed and I tell myself "oh just forget it" and sweep it under the run. But right now I am about to bust, so I am going to do my best. Here goes...

I had mentioned in a previous post that my daughter is getting married in Aug. I am happy for them, but also concerned. I'm not going to get into a lot of details, but let me explain a little bit. She... They...  He...   Oh gosh, I don't even know where to start… Aug 1st she is going to get on an airplane (for the first time) and she is going to fly to another country, and that is where the wedding will take place. Of course we won’t be able to attend, for one it's in another country, for another we can't afford to go. I will get to see pictures and videos of the wedding. My heart is heavy and broken because I can't be there with my baby girl.  I can't really talk a whole lot about it with her dad, because he doesn't support her relationship with this guy.

I got to go… I can’t do this right now. Maybe later.

Oh boy, it’s been so long I don’t even know where to begin.

Well… we went on our trip. We had a fantastic time! The scenery was absolutely breath taking. We got a lot of pictures, but pictures can’t do god’s beauty justice!

I mentioned in my last entry that I had another challenge and I never said what it was!!

Well of course it has all to do with FOOD! I was worried I would over eat and or all the wrong stuff and then I would come back to find out I had gained a huge amount of weight! Well, I gained 3 pounds, not as much as I had thought I had. Every since our trip I have been struggling to stay on track!! The last few weeks have been a big challenge; I seem to be very focused on any and all food. It’s slowly getting better. I have been slacking on my exercise as well, so I have been trying to get motivated for that as well. *sigh*.  For this week I did get six 30 min walks done! Yayyyyy My daughter has been a big help in getting me out and walking.

She is also trying to slim down and get in shape, as she is getting married in Aug!! WOW, my baby girl is getting married in less than a month!! I am so very happy for them, but sad, because my baby girl is all grown up!

As I stated in previous post, I was very unhappy at the job I was at. I didn’t think the job was for me. So I let go of it and am currently looking for a new job. Haven’t had much luck yet, but I am still looking. I am sure when I start working; my mind will not be on food 24/7!

Sorry it has taken me so long to post any updates, I just have had a lot going on lately.

Leave me a comment sometime, let me know you’re here and how you’re doing!

Got to get to bed its 5:24 am (I haven’t been to bed yet), and I have my weight in at Jenny Craig at 12:30 pm today!!!