4 weeks in

Well this is my fourth week into my  weight loss journey and my first blog entry. it has been very hard this week ive had so much temptation and gave in a few times. I did partake in eating a donut :(  and the odd west coast cooler:)  This week was my partner's birthday and i made him a tirimisu cake which was evil... very evil. I had one small piece , and felt bad about but at the same time i feel proud of myself for only having that piece. If that was me a month ago it would have been a differtent story.  its funny how much a few weeks on the diet has changed me. Im on the tony ferguson diet which is basically low carb and low fat with to milk shakes a day.  so its hard sometimes to find something new too eat. well last week was my sister inlaws birthday and we went to sizzlers for dinner.... I know it sounds terrible since its all you can eat ( well they changed the sign to say "All you like")  but i was really good. just had salads and i had to have 5 potato skins but that was the only naughty thing i had. And for dessert i had an apple, which was totally fine. I realised that night how much my mentality had changed towards food.... i didnt need to gorge.. I didnt want to gorge and .. I didnt gorge.  I didnt have that disgustingly full feelin while walking to my car and undoing my top pants button.  I went home and slept well nowing i didnt over do it for once... i realised that night that this may actually be the time.. ive tried dieting before but i had never shown that much integrity towards one. i really feel that this time i will lose the weight and become healthy and normal. and i wont have any more of those tiny embaressing moments that happen so frequently when you are over weight.  

well thats my little spiel for now.

kiza:)