I've been sitting here watching tv and surfing the net and decided to see how many pounds a week I need to lose to meet my mini-me goal.   I turns out to be a little over 3 lbs a week.  I think I am my own worse enemy.  I have a fiber-one bar for breakfast a healthy choice for lunch a nice dinner with my sone when I come home from work then I blow it looking for and finding goodies that blow my whole day of calorie watching.

I'm not hungry at breakfast at all so I try and force a protein bar or shake down, lunch time not too bad and the healthy choice frozen dinner work well but then it starts as soon as I walk in the door I want to eat and I want instant satisfaction.  I even went out and bought a pressure cooker...it's fantastic for working moms who have to come home a prepare dinner.  Better then the ole crockpot that you have to prepare and remember to plug in before you leave then worry  all day that your house is going to burn down.

I'll bring some sort of afternoon snack in with me tomorrow for that time between 2:30 and 4:30.  Maybe I'm waiting too long between lunch time at noon and dinner around 6pm.  Still don't know what to do between 7 and midnight.....maybe thats the time I'm suppose to exercise!!!!!  Maybe it's time to get my life back, maybe its time to get a life!

Ok OK Ok my conscience is telling me to pull the gazelle out of the corner and the little guy on the other shoulder is saying do it tomorrow it's 11pm.    I'll compromise, I'll pull it out but start working on it tomorrow.

Good night, good luck and  good love, K

Well I kept my much needed gyn appointment today, it's officially documented that i'm down 10lbs since starting on June 10.  Bad news, he wants me to schedule surgery for an endometrial ablation, I knew something was up and kept putting it off.  YUK!  Enough about that.

Bought a scale on my way home, its a weight watchers digital on sale at Boscov's for 19.99 it's pretty accurate, one pound difference from the doctors office.  Also went looking for a summer dress for an afternoon wedding tomorrow, that was a disaster that was, way tooo many mirrors.  I turned around and headed home.  I'll squeeze into something I already have.  Maybe I'll feel better when my next mini-me goal is completed which is 15lbs.

Stopped at subway, got the boys $5 footlongs for dinner, now, that that is taken care of, I will try to psych myself into an excersize program. I was thinking about turbo jam.  I know that I should work out at least 20 min. 3 times a week.  I don't work at all .... another YUK!

I've decided to do something for me.  It is another sad time....a birthday fast approaching.    For my MINI-ME goal in 7 weeks I would like to be down 14 lbs, that's 2 lbs a week.  I can do that!  As soon as I get my current weight I'll post and track it!

Took this week off of work, it's been hot and humid and I'm broke so I couldn't go anywhere and who could with the price of gas and the cost of living?  I guess I'm a little depressed because I couldn't bring the kids anywhere this summer so I'm slipping back to the comfort of food.  Bad Bad Bad.

OK now that I confessed I'm going to be a good girl again, LOL.  Well, try anyway! 

I weight myself at work and since I have been off I have no idea what damage I have done in 7 days.  I have to go and by a scale for the house I refused to have one before this.  I don't know if I should get a digital or manual  I guess I'll check the prices and get the best value for the buck.

I looked up my perfect weight and it said I should be around 150lbs, I'm still laughing, that would be almost an 100 lb weight loss......would that be possible?

I'm glad I found this site,  I get a lot of inspiration here and should vist more often especially when I'm discouraged and feeling down.

Tuesday night - July 1st - Had a bad night at work came home and ordered pizza, had 2 pieces and chips.  I can't believe I do so well and can ruin it in an instant.  Fell off the horse tonight but will get back on tomorrow.  Still not working out I'm so exhausted all the time.   Where o where is my willpower?

Sunday 

18 days on phen now,  started June 11th,  had a terrible Saturday diet wise probally due to TOM and alot of stress at work on Friday.  Hope this week goes a little better.  Have to rest today tom pretty heavy, didn't get alot of housework done but I'm keeping my spirits up. 

I think I figured this bloggy thing out, can't find spell check yet maybe it doesn't have one.  It's cool reading the other blogs I hope I find lots of motivation to continue on.  Have to get the courage up to take a recent picture so I can see my progress...I still HATE getting my picture taken even if it's from the neck down.