loosing wt finally!!

Dear All

I have lost more than 8kg and keep loosing wtnow , I have got new figures and I have dropped almost 2 sizes! I look younger and am more active than before. I wish I could joing the group in Iran. I will arrive 13th of September.

love from newfigured khanomgol

I am ready to move on

Hi everybody

I came back because my friends made me realise that writing is helpful for me . Special thank you for all my friends who put a comment for me. You know , I was struggling to deal with the fact that it is not possible to create love when the other person doesnot want you and it took me years of my valuable life. the years that will not come back again.It took also my hope and most importantly affected my daughter.BUT , I am going to put an end to this miserable life. I will never ever with any condition go back to that hell. 

Beleive me, nothing should prevent you to have a healthy life , nobody shouuld let you feel down.

I learnt this things from the voilence prevention websites and I came through them and found out how the abuse is not only physical . I am going to love myself Rokhy jan and I am going to pay attention to that lonely inner child who has been neglected for years. 

Dear Jeerjeerak , the book you recommended Rokhy seems very interesting and I am going to find it. 

You know , the comments you left for me helped me alot at that though situation . I remember my face was full of tears  when I read the Anar's comment and other friends comments.

Love from ready to move khanomgol

I say bye

The night before last night, my husband attacked me and bruised my eye.He also hitted himself and finally , we came to this conclusion that we have to live seperately specially for safety of my duaghter and me. He brought a knife and threated me that he is going to kill my daughter who was sleeping and put it under my throat. All started when we discuss some issue. now he has lots of bruised in his body and I have on my face . So dear friends you see , there is not any eagerness and encourgement to come and write about my situation, I will keep including healthy diet an exercise in my life and be happy, but I am going to  close this weblog forever,because , I think my sad mood is not something desirable and I dont want my friends to get depressed by reading from me,
 

Wish you all a happy life, I may come back in another time.

Love from khanomgol

Dont be worried about me , I will take care of my daughter and me.will come to yor blogs and put comments my freinds

I am on track

Dear Friends

I am on track and doing my best. Just wanted to tell you that I will be very busy for the next couple of months so I will probably update my blog once a week. I will try to put my weekly activity here with my calori count records.meanwhile , I will keep coming to your blogs and see what you are doing.

Take care

I am trying

Hi

I couldnot go to gym for five days . I only went there for 3days but I am happy because I am showing some improvement.will back to you soon.

I changed the title of my blog to some more relevant ones!

My plan

 I got the idea from Diana who wrote a proposal for her intervention.My plan is as follows:

Title:Loosing 16 kg during a period of 4 month for the purpose of being more happy and have a better life

Outline:

Khanomgol is a 36 years old person , 168 cm with the wt 74 kg at this time

Waist line: 86 cm

Main goal:

1.To be more happy and be in thebest possible shape

2.Being more energetic and be in better health condition

3.Get better feeling about self and improve the slef esteem

4.Using wt loss plan as a first step towards personal development.

Other goals:

1.wt loss about 16Kg

2.Changin lifestyle by including more veg and fruits in everyday meal

3.Including excercise in every weekday for 45 minutes in the beginning of day(6:30am-7:45 am every weekday)

4.Showing the personal abilities mostly to myself

5.Being an example to my daughter and acting as a rule model for her

6.Proving to myself that I can be successful and getting courage to start my next big project(job improvement)

7.Spending the extra energy in a useful and calming plan

8.Fighting with depression through exercise

9.Using this plan as a tool to get busy and get more distracted from my current personal problems for short time and continuing it through my whole life as a permanent lifetime  change.

Method

Communication with other group members in order to exchange the information and get more encouragement and help.Eliminating the fattenin foods from the house environments and removing rice from my me menu for an experimental short period (one week)and continue for five months.

Changing the way I eat (Including more fruits in my food and using wholegrain bread instead of white one.)

I will consider the periodical hormonal changes and will foresee them and plan ahead for them.

Recording and counting the daily food intake and exercise and try to stick to the everyday updating my blog in order to get a more clear idea and establish a more permanent and successful change. I also want to get more encouragement and help from my friends through this blog.

Thats it.

Just lets get started

Why and when it happened?

I have got marreid for more than 12 years. I was only 62kg at that time.Gradually I gained wt and after giving birth to my daughter(9years ago), my wt increased to 70 from68kg.It was steady for 3years and then went up to 75kg.I have thyroid problem (hypothyroid) and do check up at least each year. Am on medication and according to lab data and my doctor, it has been controlled by current drugs.

When I look back and analyse my wt gain , I think that mainly my disease caused it and secondly, I am an emotional eater.I start eating whenever I get nervouse or angry. In that way, I eat and eat and calm down by that.

Another thing I should mention is that I have the least contact with my husband, I mean he has been avoiding me for more than 4 years. He seperated his bed and even doesnot hug me or ....

we just talk a few times per day . He prefers to watch TV and/or doing exercise rather than talking to me. I must say this way of living makes me feel very depressed .

To be fair, I think I do frequent eating  habitually and sometimes even when I am full, I find myself try to find something to eat , I keep looking in kitchen cabinets for some foods and specially sweet foods.

so you can see that there are many causes for my wt gain.

I know that I gain wt simply because my consumed calories are more than the spent ones and think that mainly it is because of over eating.

Dear Diana

Thank you for your suggestion. Your idea made me to think and seek the causes of my wt gain.

I also am preparing one proposal the same as yours and will put it on my blog soon.

Ok , lets get more honest

I want to talk about my life as it somehow, has affected my wt  loss programm. Right now, I feel completely miserable. My  husband  recently has announced  that he wants   to leave  me.He also   complains  about my extra weight. Obviously ,this is not the case.Our main  issue is not my  wt  problem, However,he says that if I loose wt, maybe he will become  interested in me!

I personally, wish to loose wt because I beleive in health benefits.I  can get . I want to loose wt to feel better about my self.Look great and enjoy my life and above all be a better mum for my kid.

But, loosing wt    has turned to a mentally challenging matter for me.Because,in one hand, I really want it and the other hand, it makes me very angry to think I doing it because of seeking more attention from my husband.

I didn not  share my personal life with my freinds.Now, I see it will help me to overcome the hidden resistance inside me.Oh man , it is an issue!

Dear reader I know that I should love myself and respect my body .I know that I should not allow anybody's opinion ruin my self image and my self esteem.But it is very though to observe and being ciritisised  for my body.I know many men do this to their partner and I know i shouldnot be sensitive about it.I just cant take it easy

Right now , we discussing divorce and thinking to go for it in around 2 months.is a destructive relationship.Because ,my partner doesnot like my personality and just thinks loosing wt might help to keep our relationship

 i  have refused to go through seperation utill now because inside me , I beleive that I have some unfinished jobs and I havenot tried my best.  But I think it will happen wether I like it or not.

last night, we brought up the issue again and we decided to try one more ime ( for 1 -2 month)

I just trying to be more strong.I  just want to concentrate on my fittness programme and dont talk with him very much. I dont want to regret later for what I could done and I didnot . So I try again.I found wonderfull friends by this weblog and think that being in contact with some friend is very helpfull.

If I have to accept my faith , at least , I have to accept it with a smile and with the best possible shape,

The most important person in my life, my daughter will suffer from the consequensesof this seperation but sometimes , it is the best possible choice 

I will go through this wt loss programme once again at least to help my daughter to have more happy mother and also see how it works.

So you can see that loosing wt is a very important matter for me now.I havenot been so determind about this subject in my life before.

Wish me luck!

I am back

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I am full of anger!

I should loos wt as I always just have talked about it and havenot got any results! I know that should be something wrong that I have already put on wt and it is the difference between people.I am going to try harder and at the same time try to be kind to myself .It is very difficult to make a balance between everything but if you do it , I think it would be some amazing feeling as I heard and read from other team members.You know? I have set the wt loss goal as a priority and then I will go for other goals till that time I will not follow my other amazing dreams .It sounds silly, but I have made this conditioning and first I need to reach my wt loss goal .I have one other major goal in my mind but I am soooooooooo tired and frustrated and dont have a good feeling about myself at all .So I need to first sort my extra wt problem out.I will tell you about other goal after I reach my ideal wt .

Till that time

Love from the angry lady