I Hit It! I Hit it! I FINALLY Hit It!

WHOOOO-HOOOOOO!!! I finally reached goal! Of course, now I would love to keep going to move the needle down another 5 pounds, but for now I think I will bask in the moment! YAY ME!!!!!

Oh my Goodness, Has it Been a Month Already?

Well, I suck. I am a sucky blogger buddy. I am so sorry everyone.  But apparently my brain has been elsewhere. Things are about the same. The weight is the same. Everything is the same and it's pissing me off! LOL

I have been on and off this "I have to finish what I started" wagon too many times to count. But, as God is my witness, this is the LAST of them! I swear it. I mean, this is wayyyyy too distracting and what does that say about me if I can't even get to the goal line? If I get literally inches from the goal line adn can't flippin' cross it? ... I tell you what it says... NOT MUCH.

The main point of all of this butt-kicking I am giving myself is that I am HAPPIER, really TRULY happy, when I am eating right and exercising. So I am going to devote the next 6 weeks to getting it reight. Getting my mojo back. Crossing the frickin-frackin finish line! And then, I can relax and maintain. But if I don't get the habit back into my system, I will be right back where I was in a few years. I know it and that scares the ever-lovin-snot out of me.

So onward I crawl.

Um Yeah...

Just saw some pictures of myself from the weekend. Why do I still feel like I look like a whale? Could it be that at 5'11" I will never be that petite little thing that blends into the crowd? I just stand out like a big, foreboding, giant.

So the main thing is the tummy, which is unfortunately where I gain first, and is my main problem area. It is icky flabby and needs some major lovin'. And the best thing for me to do to deflate it quickly is to avoid the carbs. Which I struggle with doing for longer than 1-2 days. 

On Plan Perfection!

I finally did it. After days of *almost* getting there, I ate perfectly yesterday.... And then mucked it up today.

I have got to get a grip on my self-control. But it is so hard when I have no time and lunch is being offered to me by my work. Oh yeah, I am also working thru lunch and dinner too. In fact, it is almost 9 PM my time here and I am STILL AT THE OFFICE.

So even though I brought my nice healthy lunch, I don't have the time to prepare it so what do I do? Accept the handouts of pizza. Blech. And then of course, that snowballs into many handfuls of M&Ms at the assistant's desk. Evil I tell you. And WHY must I be an all-or-nothing girl?

I really need to get some control on this before it really becomes a problem. I am home to go run and think of a solution...

It's Monday, and That's All I Have to Say About That

I am sooooo tired. TY-RED.  Just dragging and my muscles are a wee sore from all the weights I did this weekend. I ran every day and logged 15 miles between Friday and Monday. Work is killing me too, and esp. since I didn't go to bed until late last nite, all I want to do is go home and sleep for 3 days!

Everything else is pretty good. The working out is fabulous, and the eating is way improved. It's not perfect though, and I unfortunately, am a huge perfectionist during my challenges. Heck, I am a perfectionist anytime!!  But for my 6 weeks to count, my eating has to really be on point. All my pistons have to be firing. I think I need to make sure I am eating enough. Because I will be fine, but you can put any food in my face, and all of a sudden, my brain is telling me that I am starving!!! Uh-oh. So I am going to work on eating more over the next few days. I am also removing the starchy carbs for the next 2 days. To detox from the baptism cake I enjoyed yesterday.  Then I will be back to my usual eating pattern and trying to fit more protein into my diet.

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

Aha, Vindication!

FINALLY dragged my sorry self to the gym yesterday to go for a run. I did 5 miles and it was so wonderful to be back. I haven't gone for a run in 8 days and it felt like forever! And then even though I was dripping with exhaustion I went this morning. Whoo-hoo! I am on my way.

This weekend I am really going to have to be hard-core about my time-management so I can get my exercise in. Tonite, hubby and I are taking my eldest daughter to the baseball game (I won free tickets from work.) Then tomorrow, my middle daughter was supposed to go to a birthday party, but I think we are going to ditch it because I still need to get a baptismal gift for my new niece--and goddaughter!!! --plus 2 betta fishies for my girlies who are beyond thrilled to get their first pet! LOL And don't even get me started on Father's Day. I have nothing for my hubby nor my dad or brother. So I think they will all just be getting cards this year!

And of course, I must find time to psych myself up to say no to the munchies at the ballpark PLUS the BBQ that my brother is serving up on Sunday after the baptism.

Hope your weekend is shaping up nicely!

I'm Losing Already...

... and no, I don't mean weight!  I am way too damn busy for my own good. Work is killing me. Once again, can't get off early to go home and work out. ARGH! And too exhausted to go in the morning because I am up late working. This nasty, vicious cycle must stop I tell you.

I am getting ready to head home now and I think I am going to leave the laptop here at work, which is something I haven't done in over a year.  But I am not going to work tonite. I am going to go get my kids, and then put on my gym clothes and go for a run. Let the hubby feed them! LOL I NEED to go run. I deserve a run darnit!!! My 6-week journey is never going to start unless I actually START it for freak's sake. I even brought a salad for lunch. But did I eat that? Noooooooooo. I had to eat the Panera that my manager bought for everyone.

I seriously can't let life get in the way of this goal, and so far I am letting it. I just can't. This has to be my number 1 priority. So work is busy. Well then I just can't stay up late any more surfing the Web or doing a project. I *must* be in bed, the other stuff can wait. That way, I know I can get out of bed and get to the gym in the morning. During these 6 weeks, I am challenging myself to go to the gym EVERY DAY! Whether it's weights or cardio, I can do something there every day. Even if it's a nice walk.

Because for me, if the exercise is solid and on-track, then my eating is too.

Hope everyone else's day was better than mine!!

47 Days

That is how long I have on this next leg of my journey. I am going to update my tracker to put in August 1 as my end date.

Today was another frustrating day. I set my alarm as I usually do to get up at 4:45 to go for my run. But... my little peanut--who is 22 months and LOVES to play with my alarm by turning on the music and dancing--turned the volume all the way down. So needless to say, I did not hear a peep at 4:45 this morning and did NOT get up.

And of course, trying to squeeze exercise in at the end of the day for me is futile. Work was way too busy so I couldn't leave early like I was hoping to. Argh! So no cardio today, but did some arm and leg exercises at home tonite, so the day wasn't a total wash. LOL

Why isn't there more time in the day?

P.S. Today's post originally had a title of "50 Days." Um, apparently I cannot count. D'oh!

Back from Vacation!

Man, I love the mountains. Something about the air and the exhilaration of it all. The family took a trip to Golden for my cousin's wedding and we had a fabulous time!! I did a little biking with my brother, but what I was ready to do was some hiking and some white water rafting! Wheeeee! Cold creek runs right thru Golden, and right by the Coors brewing plant , it is a gorgeous river full of kayakers. I was ready to jump in! My girls loved Colorado and seeing the mountains, and are ready to go back. I tell you, *THAT* is somewhere where I could happily move to. I am a midwestern girl, so Colorado would still be true to my roots! LOL

Even though I was active all week long, we won't mention the delish, but not so hot for me, food I had while there. I am not even going to jump on the scale until this weekend, until I have had time to flush all this stuff out of my system.

I've also decided that in order to buckle down and get serious, I have to stop looking at this whole thing as "the last 2 pounds." When that's not *really* my goal. My goal is to be consistent and to take my body to the next level. I figure if I concentrate on that, those pesky 2 pounds will be but a memory.

So I am giving myself 6 weeks--actually I decided to make it 7 so it takes me to August 1, which is a nice clean number.  I am scheduling my body fat composition follow-up for August 1, and I am going to devote the next 7 weeks to training. Training for the rest of my life. Training for the long term. Just training.  (I love that word and what it represents!)

Anyone want to join me for 7 weeks, and challenge yourself to see what you can accomplish?

Still Chasing Those 2 Pounds! ARGH!

Of course, all the crappy eating I did over the Memorial Day weekend *might* have something to do with it. Just maybe... Oh I am sure it did. Plus. I still haven't stopped. It is amazing how easy it is to get off-track while life just happens. Seriously! It was so easy for me to drop all that weight but I did it with a total and complete 100% focus. I mean, I had no outside life. I didn't meet up with friends too often because then I might be tempted. My time outside work and kids was spent at the gym. Well, now that I am not going so balls-to-the-wall, chasing that goal hardcore, it's easy to get off-track.

Well, considering that this is the beginning of the month, I am setting myself back up again. The must-eat-healthy mantra needs to be center in my mind. It should be the loudest voice I hear in my head. Because I *know* I can do it. I KNOW I CAN! I just have to commit to it and then deliver.

So my mission this month will be to get back to working out in the morning. I just don't enjoy it as much, nor have as much motivation for it, in the afternoon or evening. So that means early bedtime. Like pretty much when the girls go to bed. Which will take some getting used to!  My other motivational thing is to make an appt with the health center to have my body fat tested at the end of the month. It that deadline is looming over my head, I know I will be ON it! And I haven't had it done since over a year ago, when I first started this journey. Hopefully it will be down from my previous reading of 39% BODY FAT!  ICK!

Hey besides, how cool will it be to see my lovely self up there in lights, at the top of the page, in the EXP banner!! LOL!

Have a great weekend girlies! And stay strong!!!