Hard Work Un-Rewarded?

You know, it's really frustrating when you work so hard and your hard work isn't rewarded right away. It's always hard for me when I work so hard to stay in my calorie range and work out, and it's not automatically reflected on the scale the next day. I mean, I know it usually goes down the next day, but I'm always at first like "No way!" Then I re-weigh myself just to make sure, then there's always that temptation to give up, and then comes the resolve to work harder. I know I'll feel silly for saying this tomorrow (especially if my weight goes down) but I had to let it all out! : )

I Can't Believe It...I'm 1/3 of the Way There!

This morning is a cause for celebration, because I've lost 10 Pounds!!! I was so excited I did a happy dance...embarrassing, yet so fun! Anyway, I'm so happy I'm finally making some real progress. It's definitely been a month since I've started my weight loss journey and there have been some up's and down's, but today has made that all worth it! 10 pounds in one month is not bad at all, and I'm already 1/3 of the way to my goal!!! Just 20 more pounds to go and I can't wait. : )

Ready to Go Again!

This weekend was really hard for me. First, my dad took my whole family out to dinner to celebrate his promotion, and we went to a really nice Italian restaurant with lots and lots of really good food. Second, it was Father's Day the next day and for dinner we had his favorite mac and cheese, chicken, apple pie, and ice cream. After that, I knew I needed to get back on track. So, when Monday rolled around, I was back at 156.6 which is right where I left off. But, I still knew I had lost some time.

I know I want to lose 35 pounds this summer. I really know I do, and I can do it too! I just need to keep moving forward, and move on from my mistakes.  My best friend Haley just challenged me to lose 5 pounds with her in the next two weeks for her sister's open house, so it will be nice to do something together and have that extra motivation and encouragement! Here's to losing 5 pounds!!! : )

1st and Last Slip-Up

Alright, here it is….my first and last slip-up. I knew what I was doing last night, and I was so angry that I did it anyway. I knew when I woke up in the morning I would face the consequences, and I did.  I am owning up to my mistake, I ate way too much last night, and it's hard to admit I would fall into that trap once again. But you know what? It's over, and it's time to get back on track, and move on towards my goal.  Since it came on so quickly, it will come off quickly, but it has put me behind on my goal.  And, since time is already at a minimum, it puts me more behind than I would like.  So, I'm going to need to work extra hard this week and be a soldier girl!

Lost 9 Pounds!

Wow, I can't believe it!  I woke up this morning and I was 155.4--that puts me at exactly 9 pounds of weight loss!  I'm so happy right now, and I was looking at myself in the mirror (don't we all?) and I can really tell the difference.  It's also apparent in how I feel as well, because I also feel thinner...if that's possible. 

I'm also happy because I really feel like I can do this.  That it's possible--almost that anything's possible.  My weight has been a problem for me for so long. It will be nice when I've finally reached a place I want to be and I don't have to worry about it so much. I mean, I can move on and actually work on new things and enjoy life!

All in all, "YAY!" for good morning weigh-ins!

offically the end of the first 2 weeks! And 8 of those pounds are gone!!!

I just realized that it's been 2 weeks (or 14 days) since I've started my summer weight loss journey and I've lost almost 8 pounds! (Ok, really 7.8 but it's only rounding up .2 : )

Anyway, I think that's a pretty good start! Hopefully the weight will just keep coming off, but I know I'm bound to hit a few plateaus here and there. I know it will get harder as the weight gets stubborn(er) but that's ok, because I know it will all be worth it in the end. I have to remember my dream of ending the summer a skinner, healthier, and happier me!

Morning Encouragement

This morning was a nice suprise, I lost another pound!  I am now offically under 157! YAY! 

It was really nice too, because yesterday was just so hard and discouraging.  I gained weight, started a new job (which is always stressful), and just had some bad news. So, this morning I was very thankful for some weight loss and hopefully that means today will be a better day!

Hmm...

Hmm...I don't know what's going on, but my weight has been staying the same for the past 2 days and then went up today.  I haven't been doing anything different, so I'm not really sure why.  I think I might be eating too much bread/carbs, because that's totally my weakness...I am such a bread girl! 

I am a little dissapointed in my weight gain since I am trying so hard, but hopefully since it came on so quickly, it will come off quickly as well.  In the meantime, I'm going to try and drink a lot more water and eat a lot less bread.  Maybe then I can finally get under 157! : )

Mirror Unkindness

Even with losing seven pounds, the store mirrors are still never kind. I went shopping at Target today to get some "work clothes" since I start my new job tomorrow and it ended up being depressing.  Of course, it didn't really help that my sister (who is like 10-15 pounds lighter than me and which a much smaller chest) was trying on clothes too and looked like 100% better in everything than me.  I know I shouldn't compare with her, because I'm just not there yet, but it's still really hard.  I want to look good in clothes, and have fun finding that perfect outfit...not stare at myself from every angle and wish for something to look good on me. 

And, while we were in the dressing room, she kept saying, "Don't worry about it Kristi, you'll get there!" But, everyone's always said that too me and I've still never "gotten there!"  I know I'm making a change now, and I'm struggling, but working hard.  I know it will all be worth it, but it's such a long, hard journey.  Hopefully I'll find some encouragement soon...I need it!

Beginnings

Here it is...the start on my weight loss journey.  After finals (and gaining 10 pounds in three weeks) I knew that this lifestyle and weight wasn't what I wanted. I knew that once summer started, it was time to change. So here I am!

I've actually already started officially on May 29th, 2008 (and lost 7.4 pounds to date!) and I'm ready to really do this. I don't know what's changed, except that I know

1.        I don't want to be the "fat girl" anymore

2.        I don't want to be the "fat sister" in my family anymore

3.        I really really want to wear cute clothes and have fun with fashion

4.        I want to not have to worry about what others think of me all the time

5.        I want to be happy with myself, and happy being me so I can live and enjoy my life!

Another thing that has changed is my mind-set.  When I get stressed, I eat...I've done this ever since I was little. Now, I'm trying to break that habit, I know eating will not make everything better. No matter how good it tastes and how much of it I eat, It won't fix anything or make me happy.  I have to remember waking up in the morning and knowing I ate too much and gained a lot of weight.  I don't want that anymore. 

I've been making progress with this, and I know everyday I don't give in is another day I'm closer to breaking this horrible habit.  Someday, I know I will break free and be the girl I want to be.