Since I've started my journey (for lack of a better word...) I've considered counting my calories. It seems so daunting. I even joined calorieking.com.au with the express intention of entering everything that goes into my mouth. I started doing it, but as soon as I ate something I couldn't find on the list, I just didn't enter it. Now all I seem to use that site for is checking in. Another place to post my disappointing weight loss to date. I don't get it. I just really do not want to count my calories. It feels so... restricting. I know it's supposed to feel that way, to get you eat better, but it freaks me out! I want to feel as free as possible while I do this. Or am I just trying to sabotage myself?
Another thing, I was in the pharmacy the other day, getting all my sinus medication, and they had a floor stack of Optifast boxes. I couldn't help myself, and I went and had a look. One box, 21 sachets, $39.95. I thought "oh, that's ok, you replace one meal a day with the shake, and you eat controlled portions the rest of the time." Well, no. You have 3 shakes a day, plus their desserts and bars or whatever. That big box? One week's worth of shakes. I hate to say it, but I was tempted to get it. I mean, really tempted. I thought maybe it would give me a bit of a boost. Just writing this down is making me want to give it a go. But then I think back to January last year, where I tried doing the Tony Ferguson shakes (those in Australia know all too well about this program), and I only lasted a week and a half on it, but went on to lose 8kg on my own in about 10 weeks. That's the most weight I've ever lost on my own... and in hindsight, I was oh-so-close to Onederland...
I know, I know. Replacing all my meals is bad. Going on the shakes alone would make me drop heaps of weight, yes, but it wouldn't teach me how to eat properly. So, although I'm having a miserable time, and not really making any great headway, I know I'm going the right way about it...
If I had one week where I dropped like, 2kg, that would be fantastic. It would get me going again. I'm just so sick of stalling. I mean, 3kg in 6 months? That makes me feel so pathetic, and to some, those figures make it seem like I'm not even trying.
I took Tuesday off work, because I was way too out of it to go anywhere. I basically stayed in bed all day and slept. I'm back at work, and I look, feel, and sound a lot better, but I'm still not fully over it. I think I'm about 70%, which is the best I've felt in about 6 weeks!
I'm glad to be back at work, and I'll be glad when I can start driving again, hopefully tomorrow. All these pills are throwing me out. I'm still so incredibly tired...
DF got his act together, and did his best to cheer me up. In fact, he went out and got me some stuff to perk me up a bit. Granted, the "stuff" was a can of coke (normal, not sugar-free), a packet of Twisties and a triple pack TimeOut. Naughty, yes. I scoffed down the TimeOuts, the can of coke, and half a packet of Twisties, and I thought "hang on... oops!" That was the first time in ages that I've eaten Twisties... and I actually felt a bit sick after eating all that chocolate, which is good. I won't go near it for quite awhile now. I've got my resolve back!
I want to go to the gym, but I don't want to wear myself out again just as I'm starting to pick up. I'm going to wait until Sunday, weigh in as usual, and then maybe do some light weights, and a bit of cardio, and ease myself back into things slowly.
...Very happy, because I went to the doctor, and he gave me more pills, and now... I'm as high as a kite. Seriously. I am now on penicillin, prednisone, nurofen, sudafed, and ventolin. WHEEEEEEEEE!!!
I'm feeling very sleepy, and very silly, but for now, my nose has stopped running, and that's very good. I'm really tired at the moment too, so that's why I'm posting. Bright lights. Keep me awake for a little longer...
I'm scanning some photos and putting them on a USB drive so I can get them printed, and then I can do more scrapbooking. I had plans to go to a friend's scrapbooking workshop this weekend, but I don't know if I'm going to be well enough to go now... DF isn't too keen on me going because my friend's boyfriend is a bit freaky, and he doesn't want me around him. For those who have been reading for awhile... this friend's boyfriend is the one that got me the can of soup as "motivation". Yeah.
You know, I was only joking when I said I'd probably lose weight by just blowing my nose. Seems like it worked, huh? DF brought me back down to earth though and said that it could be dehydration. Party pooper!
Anyhoo, wheeeee...
PS. I'm not going to work tomorrow. They all ignored me today... meanies!
Yes, that's right. The sinuses are still in control. Unfortunately. My asthma has kicked in too... so I've got another few weeks of hell...
But I haven't gained!!!
And I am one of these people that always wants to eat when they're sick. I don't get how I can't taste anything, and yet I still want to eat. I think it's a comfort thing. Anyway, I've been wanting to eat non-stop, but I've had some sort of self control through, and stayed out of the fridge.
And this weigh-in, I lost that 300g. It's a miracle!
This is Kelly's Sinuses speaking... we're holding her captive and we don't intend to let her go!
I'm still in no condition to work out, but I went down to the gym and weighed myself, and I'm back to being 99kg exactly. A lost of 3oog this week. Which is good. I can't wait until I can start working out again and see that number start heading further south. 9kg to go until Onderland!
I just thought I'd jump on and update my figures, and then head back to bed. I feel like I'm getting even sicker!
Talk to you all later... hope everyone's having a fantastic weekend!
I had to come to work with a bare face this morning (except for tinted moisturiser). My sinuses must still be under TONS of pressure because it feels like I've got goo coming out of every facial orifice (well, just my eyes and nose, but I just wanted to use the word 'orifice'). I was laying in bed last night, and had to keep rubbing my eyes, because so much stuff was coming out I was afraid of waking up in the morning and having my eyes glued together. I know, that's a wonderful image, isn't it?
Anyway. Headache = easing. Sinuses = easing. Throat = giving me hell. Stupid throat. I don't need this! I'm finally starting to feel better!!!
The one thing that's bugging me at the moment? My headache is being aided by the fact I need to wear my glasses at work. And of course, my glasses sit on my nose, and then my face swells, and it hurts. It's a Catch 22 though, because I have a headache from wearing my glasses, but I'll also have a headache if I don't wear them. Meh.
I'm currently deciding on a gym schedule that I can stick to. I'm thinking about going 5 days a week, and having Saturdays and Mondays off. I usually have my hair appointments on Saturday, and I really don't wanna work out on a Monday. Yick.
Hey, I'm still going on Sunday, to weigh in, and maybe do some weights. Who knows, I might have lost some weight from doing nothing else but blowing my nose!!!
For those in Oz, I bought one of those Lean Cuisine/Healthy Choice frozen meal twin packs, where you just break it in half and you've got a meal ready to chuck in the microwave. Well, if I can describe my feelings in a word, it would be "pfft". I broke it in half, took the cardboard off, and had a look. Seriously, the portion was so small, I would have considered it to be a small snack, not lunch. It was ridiculous! I'd had the idea of taking it to work for lunch, but I just threw it back in the freezer. I'll go to the cafe and have some chicken pide and a hot choccy. I'll have to walk in the freezing cold, but at least I'll get a decent feed!
I'm jumping on the bandwagon too, and I'm going to write a list of reasons for me to get healthy! I won't do it this post, because I still have heaps of work to do... le sigh... but I'll be back sometime today!
No, I haven't weighed in yet, and no, I don't think I've lost anything...
But my nose is starting to run.
I have never been so happy to have a runny nose in all my life. Seriously! My headache feels like it's starting to clear (finally!) and my eyes aren't as puffy this morning (although I put on as little makeup as possible, because my eyes are sore too). I still got driven to work to be safe though.
I will post again soon, I'm snowed under with invoices!!!
Today is Wednesday, which still feels like Tuesday, which felt like Monday. Which is all bad.
When I realised I hadn't worn this shirt for so long (due to fatness) I started examining my face in the mirror to see if there was any difference there too. What I forgot was, my face is so swollen from this infection, my face actually looks a lot fatter. It's so swollen, in fact, that this morning I had trouble keeping my eyes open, and it wasn't because I was still sleepy. I'm all puffy under the eyes, and I've had constant dark circles since this headache started... so I don't look very good...
Unfortunately, since I'm having so much trouble concentrating at work (put it this way, everything I'm doing at the moment is about 90% certainly wrong) I think I'm going to have to bypass the gym for a week or so... even though I only just started going again... I can't even sit still without a pounding headache, let alone run on a bloody treadmill.
Yes, I do feel horribly sick, and yes, I'm at work, but there's no way I'm going to be able to leave early, after the reaction I got from my boss on Monday. I think it's just best to try and struggle through for the next 2 hours, and then go straight to bed. That's if I can drive home...
Well, ladies (and gents, if any read this) I am pleased to announce that today, I am wearing (and rocking) a shirt that I haven't worn for about 18 months. The last time I wore it, someone asked me if I was pregnant, so I threw it in the back of the wardrobe. I pulled it out about 8 weeks ago to try it on, and it was all tight and gross. Today though, it sits just where it's supposed to. Yay!
I'm a bit stressed at the moment, because of stuff that happened on the weekend. All I'll say here is, DF and I are still living with my parents, and my parents don't approve of DF, and every now and then it comes up in an argument... anyhoo, that's the stress. Hopefully we'll be moving out soon. DF's thisclose to moving out on his own... which I really don't want to happen...
I didn't go to the gym yesterday. I was all hyped up to go, and then my head started pounding, and I was so incredibly hungry it was almost like I hadn't eaten all day. So, we posted the mail and then I shouted us Red Rooster, our big.. what's the word? It lures us!!!
On a side note, DF just dropped into my work and gave me his small fan heater, because I said I'd take it into work today, but I forgot. How cute.
I'm driving today, my headache isn't too bad. I think the antibiotics are starting to kick in, because stuff is starting to ooze out of my eyes (yeah, that's gross, I'm sorry!)... why the hell can't it just start making my nose runny instead?
Anyhoo, back to work for me... I'll be back posting probably in the next hour or so... lol!
