is that me in the picture???

not giving up this time

My Profile

  • Name: kellmerr
  • City: sacramento
  • State: CA
  • Country: US

My Weight Loss

Height:
Start weight: 245.00lb
Current weight: 263.20lb
Goal weight: 190.00lb
Lost to date: -18.20lb
Remaining: 73.20lb

My Calendar

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My Photos

Before After

busy bee

that's me.  i have been running around like a mad woman lately. i have somehow mananged to pick up a cold which always happens to me when the weather changes.  i took my kids trick or treating last friday and we walked out in the cold for three hours.  that is probably how it started.  we had a great weekend. we went to apple hill in placerville and bought tons of crafts, apples and other treats.  it is such a beautiful place.  i am doing well in the eating department. not snacking in the evenings is becoming easier and easier.  Haven't had much time to get online but am I am staying on track.  I hope all of my buds are doing well.

not mia

My darn computer is down at work and my new one will not be delivered until sometime this afternoon. I am going through some serious blog withdrawals.  As much as i would like to blog at home, it is almost impossible, my kids keep me pretty busy.  I missed a day of exercise yesterday. I was waiting for the city inspector to come and inspect my new water heater, he graciously showed up one hour late and through my whole afternoon of schedule.  I worked out on my elliptical at home on Tuesday and walked on Monday. I was moving and grooving on the elliptical until I felt a spider crawling on me.  Needless to say, I did not stay on as long as I should have.  It was so nice to have a day off Monday.  I love you Christopher Columbus!! lol.  Doing okay with food this week. Will hit the gym after work.  Happy Thursday everyone!

moving along...

I had a good day yesterday.  Didn't really feel like working out, but I walked in the morning anyway.  After work I told my kids they had to go home and do homework before we went to the gym. I expected my son to take forever (like he always does)  and did not think we would make it to workout.  Well, low and behold, he had his homework done in an hour.  Then I asked the kids if they wanted to go to Golden Corral.  They just built one in our neighborhood and I have not been there in 8 years. (they are new to California) So, I had a decision to make, go and tear some food up at the buffet or take my fat butt to the gym.  I chose the latter.  I went to the gym, rode the bike for an hour and went home.  I am feeling good.  My plan today is to hit the gym after work, head home throw something together for dinner, take kids to soocer and watch survivor.   Is it Friday yet?

is it only tuesday?

I have stayed true to my self-imposed 30 day workout challenge. 4 days down, 26 to go. lol.  I worked out twice yesterday and managed to walk again today before work.  I  will probably ride the bike at the gym today.  The new machine that I mentioned in yesterday's post was way harder than I thought it would be.  I set the timer for 30 minutes and barely made ten. lol.  I got off and rode the bike for 45 minutes and went on about my business.   Had Subway for dinner as I had no time to cook before scouts. Eating Subway when I have the urge for fast food totally worked for me when I lost weight before.    I feel so much better already.    Happy losing everyone. 

new week, off to a great start

I am on my third straight day of exercise. yay me.  I feel like I am back in the groove of things.  I dropped my kiddos off at school this morning, came home and went for a brisk walk.  there is nothing like starting your morning off with exercise.  As much as I complain about exercise, I actually enjoy it once I get going.  I am even going to the gym after I pick up the kids from school before boy scouts AND girl scouts this evening.   I tried this new machine at the gym yesterday and it kicked my butt, it is similar to the elliptical, but you are stationary and the movement is more of a running motion.  you actually run to keep it going. the elliptical is easier because you can use alot of upper body strength.   I am at work now, better get started. Have a great day everyone.

i braved the scale

I  have been avoiding the scale for quite some time now. I now know where I stand.  263.2 is the dreaded number.  I have considered writing this number on my hand in a permanent marker as a reminder for why I need  to change.   I went to the gym yesterday and had a fling with my old pal the elliptical. I am on my way to workout now. The gym is now open on Fridays too, so I am completely out of excuses.  I have to work out and I have to eat right.  I am now closer to 300 lbs than i have ever been.  That is PATHETIIC!!. No more excuses.  I can do this.    

2008 is almost over

Hello to all of my buds that are still around.  I cannot believe that this year is almost over.  I am slowly but surely getting back on track in the food department.  Exercise.... well thats a different story.  I am setting a mini goal to be  50 lbs down by April 5th which happens to be my 30th birthday.  I would like to have a birthday on record(post my two kids)  where I am not shying away from the camera.  Plus I would just like to feel good about myself again.  I am not someone that believes in being fat and happy, I am fat and I hate it.  I have been seeing a guy for a few years now. Yesterday I was bored and happened to visit his Facebook page.   Found out he has been sending romantic/passionate roses to his female "friends" online.  He was also listed as single.  Needless to say, I am pissed.  At first he was just someone to get my mind of my hubby leaving me, but I had actually begun to really care for him.  I think I will just give up on men for the time being and focus on myself and my kiddos.  I have a lot to offer the right person, and I am tired of giving all of myself and receiving nothing in return.   So today, for the trillionth time, I am starting over.  Wish me luck. lol    

9 months later...

so much has happened since my last post.  i am now a homeowner. yay me.  as much as i would like to say that i have been working out and eating right, i am afraid that that is not the case.  i have been reflecting alot lately.  wondering why i lost over 40 lbs, was so close to my goal, and just stopped trying.  i have decided that i do not know how to maintain my weight loss.  i worked so hard to lose the weight and once i did i stupidly thought that i could go back to my old ways and maintain my loss.. needless to say, i have to start over again.  i know that i can lose the weight, afterall i have done ot before.  i remember how good i felt and looked and i want to feel that way again.  so here i go again. 

fast food, laziness, fat again...

The title of my blog says it all.  That has been me lately.  Had I made a conscious decision to slack off? Yes.  Did I realize that I was inching back into my 18's? Yes.  Did I do anything about it? No.  All b.s. aside, I just stopped trying.  In short, I am right back where I starrted.  My problem has not been not knowing how to lose the weight. I have got that part down.  My issue has been my not having the willpower to keep it off.  It all began with the forbidden pizza,  then i decided that i no longer needed to work out 5 days per week.  And the rest is history.... I have made a few attempts to work out, even joined weight watchers(only went to one meeting), went to a free boot camp a few weeks ago and have not been back since.  Today I will start again, back to blogging, eating right and exercising.  Wish me luck....

i think i may

have forgotten about my newly revised exercise plan from last week. i have someow managed not to work out since sunday.  last week i kicked butt, and even finished the week out with a 5k walk.   i think i should get extra points for alternating between carrying my 50 lb son and daughter on my shoulders when they were "too tired to walk".    if i work out today tomorrow and saturday at least i can finish the week off with some dignity.   i miss all of my  blogging buddies, where are you guys?  i hope everyone is doing well.  one more day till the weekend!

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