Everything has been sooo chaotic lately with the holidays and such, but I do have a progress report!
It's been 3 months and I've reached my 40 lb mark! (I had lost a few lbs before starting back up here, so I'm counting those ;) ) ... now on to the next 40... LOL. I have been taking Phentermine, but really haven't taken it but a few times these past 2 months, and it's SO great! I think that being on it for about a month (except for weekends and the occasional off day) and I think that by not eating as much during that time my stomach has either actually shrunk, or my body just got used to not eating as much. It's great not to have that constant hunger anymore, and be able to say "no thanks, I'm not hungry"... I eat when I am hungry, and don't eat when I'm not, it's great! I get looks from my husband when I skip dinner once in a while, but I'm not hungry, so I'm not going to force myself to eat...
I am just so excited... I'm less than 1/2 way to the weight I was at when I got married 7 years ago, and 1/2 way to where I was when I was 17. That's the goal I'm shooting for now, those next 40 lbs... After that I will probably go for those last 20 lbs, but when looking at the whole picture, I'll be so happy to get to where I *only* have 20 lbs to go.. lol
I just wanted to wish every a Happy Thanksgiving! Have a great day with friends and family, and make wise choices! All of the food is sooo good, but I'm planning on finding out around how many calories each food is per serving, and then trying to stick to a set amount... but we'll see!
Also, I'm a third of the way to my ultimate goal! yaay! so... if I never hit a plateau again and keep losin gat the rate I am, I'll be there in another 5 months... What would be great would be to be at it by my birthday, which gives me an extra month or two (I'll be turning 26 next June!).. oh, I hope I hope I hope!!!
I don't know for how long... my stress level is at it's max right now, and I just can't seem to handle it... we have stupid *stupid* tenants that are trying to screw us out of money and say that they wanna go to court... but they'd lose miserably (I know the landlord/tenant laws front and back, and they don't have a freakin leg to stand on) but I seriously just can't handle the stress that comes along with it. I'd rather they just leave and disappear forever, but evidentally they don't want to do that (they're supposed to be out at the end of the month anyhow)... I'm calling tonight to see if they're just gonna leave, and if not, then I get to drag the kiddos down to the court house in the am and get the paperwork to kick their sorry asses out... but mentally I just feel like I'm about ot lose it. This, along with the stresses of Christmas and all the $ problems that are unavoidable, especially during this time of year, I just can't handle it.. and DH doesn't want to deal with it, says he'll see em in court... that I stress too much.. but he doesn't stress at all, which adds even MORE stress to me, since it then feels like I am shouldering everything.... I just want to curl up in a ball and wish the world away.....
I'm a slacker and I need to be held accountable! I suck! :(
I have been slacking, majorly! While I haven't drifted too far off of the food I've been eating, I *did* have a fast food burger the other day... and it made me SOOO sick! It was all the grease and fat in it that, evidentally, my body wasn't used to anymore (a good way to find out! lol) and I had major "somach issues" that night... kinda how I expect alli (sp?) works, getting rid of fat your body doesn't absor... but UGH! I felt like such crap afterwards, just so sick! But I also haven't been working out like I should, or taking my phen like I should be... the good news, is that during htis slacking, while I haven't lost anything really, I haven't gained a single pound back! Yaaay! Now, if only I could get rid of this extra 80 lbs hanging around, and *then* be able to live "normally" without gaining any back....
But, just thought I'd own up to slacking.... I need someone to kick my butt into gear! I am getting a promotion at work, which means going from one night of work a week (thursday 6pm-2am) I am going to be working M, W and th 5pm-about 1:30 am... add that to 4 kids and homeschooling, and I really need to get into gear and get organized enough so I can pull it off... I *really* need to get on top of things, I can feel myself slipping back into a place I don't want to be, fast food, laziness.... I NEDD to work out! I'm going to take my phen a little later today, so I can go to the gym after work tonight, and then hopefully hit the gym afterwards, and then come home and clean the house... I don't work tomorrow, so I don't mind pulling an all-nighter since I know I can sleep tomorrow night at a decent hour.... but I really need some energy to do all I want to tonight... so pray for me and send me your energy vibes while you're sleeping! ;)
Part of it may be from TOM, but seriously, I'm just in a bad mood! The needle on my stupid cheap sewing machine broke, so I can't finish the bag I was working on or start any of the stuff I need to for Christmas, the kids are driving me nutso with their loudness, my watch broke and I can't find my other one, the house is a mess, but I don't feel like straightening it, but it being a mess is contributing to my foul mood, too... GRRRRR... I just want to go take a nice hot bath... but I Can't, because Matt isn't back from work yet, and I have to go to work in about 2 hours... GRRR! it sucks being in such a foul mood!
So, in a 2 day period I gain 3 lbs, and now I'm down 3.5.... damn you TOM! LOL... he just came to visit today, and hopefully will be gone in a few days, taking with him more water weight... ugh... And it always starts on the day I go in to work (I usually just work one night a week) so I get to deal with a heavy TOM... double Ugh... (and a little TMI, maybe? LOL)
Anyhow, hope everyone reading has a great rest of the week! The weekend is almost upon us, and I have SO MUCH to do... I'm in charge of the Harvest Party at church, and there's still so much to get ready! ahhhhh!
I just need to say that I HATE those dang security numbers you have to enter to post on someones blog... Yeah, I know they're there for a reason, but I enter the RIGHT number in, so DON'T tell me that I didn't! and then I enter the right one in AGAIN, but the stupid thing still lies and says I didn't... FINALLY after 3 attempts it goes through and posts my comment, but COME ON! GRRRRRRR
So, everyone but me and one of my kids got the stomach bug... so far (really keeping my fingers crossed). I also seem to be stalled a little at the weight I am at... I know one of the reasons is that I need to start working out more... I have been slacking in that dept.... I just hate going to the gym alone, and working out at home is hard with the 4 kids running around, though I really just need to *do* it and stop making excuses.... argh....
So, for the past month and a bit I have been drinking nothing but water, with a few glasses of unsweetened iced tea here and there... and I have to say, water now makes me gag! I have been drinking it like a good girl, but still... ugh! I have used a few of those Crystal Light to go pouches (I only use 1/2 a pouch / bottle of water, instead of a whole one) but I don't really liek it that much, and it's not really all that good for you, so I limit it, but at least it adds a different flavor than just plain H2O....
Also, 2 of my kiddos are sick... well, sort of. The little one (15 mos) had a fever 2 days ago and was just feeling yucky, slept most of the day, yesterday was fine if a little cranky, and last night kept waking up crying, like maybe his stomach was hurting... And then this morning my other boy (4.5) told me he threw up twice in bed last night... which I went to check and found part of his bed covered in it... (ewww!). I'm not sure if they're related illnesses or what, but I am hoping that it stops with the 2 of them and that my 2 girls, my husband and I stay healthy! I don't mind feeling bad, but the throwing up part would have me... It is the WORST thing in the world to me, and it freaks me out (if it's me doing it, I have no problem taking care of other people who are sick) so, pray for us, and keep your fingers crossed!
I have to work tonight, so I'm thinking about hitting hte gym afterwards (would be around 2am or so). I SO need to get going again and exercising. I've been slacking majorly in that department, and I think it will help give me a kick start again... So here's to hoping that I have enough energy to go!
No, not to my ultimate goal (I wish!) but I am 1.5 lbs away from the 20 lbs mark! AND, if I can lose that 1.5 lbs by next wed. then I'll have lost 20 lbs in the first month of doing this! I am so proud of myself for actually sticking to it this time! Although, technically I *have* lost more than 20 lbs... if you count those few mornings I woke up to a 2 lbs gain from pizza and blue cheese the night before, or a birthday party with yuuummmmyyy cake... or a night out with the girls.... but, even with those gains, I didn't give up, and am almost to 20 lbs! And then it's just another 4 until I get to my 10% loss! I am SOOOO hoping this rate of loss keeps up... just think, I could be 70 lbs lighter than my starting weight by Christmas if it does! But hey, I'm happy just to BE below my starting weight! I was (am) unhappy being so overweight, I decided to change that, and I am actually doing it, instead of just sitting on my butt complaining about it... go me! LOL
(plus, it also helps that when I see a gain, I do *not* add it to my weight graph... seeing the upslope would depress me a bit, and when I get depressed I eat... not good! So, I only post a weight update when it's good news... is that cheating? LOL)
Has anyone heard of or tried the Dieters tea (or something similar?) I've heard that when drinking it you want to stay close to a bathroom, because it helps clear you out (if you catch my drift) but I'm a bit nervous about trying it, since I don't know how long it lasts, or how long it takes to work, or how much you should drink to get that result a bit quicker... (can you tell I have a small problem now? tmi! LOL) I have some sitting in my cupboard.. but I'm scare! lol
