-1 lb
i weighed myself this morning before i ate my peanut butter and banana sandwich and i was 221. anyway, i wanted to share with you guys some healthy recipes from this website http://www.tlcfitness.net/html/recipes.htm . ive been wanting to make these, but right now i am pretty broke and don't have time to go grocery shopping.
last night was bad. i felt depressed and stressed out because i really want to have a better life. i feel stuck in comparison to my friends who are living their dream lives. i felt so miserable and started to hate my life again and blaming my father for being such an alcoholic asshole. and i started to think that if only this or that, i may have been a better person, a healthier and happier person like my friends who always seem to have everything. when will i see the light of day? when will my life be at a point that i no longer wish to be someone else? i feel like i have so many problems to deal with. i want to move out and be on my own. do things for myself without relying on the help of others. i dont want to want anymore. i just want to be self-sustaining and satisfied with my life.
anyway today is a better day. i have to remind myself that a healthy life is not just eating healthy, but also having a positive outlook on life. im just starting to feel overwhelmed because i have to start paying back my student loans and i dont even have a job yet. i havent started looking for one because i need to take care of the little one. hopefully her father will be able to send more money.
