09/19/2007 20:20
Much Craziness
This past week has just been beyond crazy! Have you ever had one of those days/weeks/months where EVERYTHING went wrong? Where you think, "Things can't POSSIBLY get any worse," then, not only do they get worse, but they get worse in ways you never dreamed possible? Yeah, it's been like that. Unfortunately, I'm an emotional eater. When I get stressed, I eat. Not only that, but with things being so hectic, I just haven't had time to eat properly. Food is either not eaten, or eaten on the run, which has meant WAY more fast food than necessary. (Okay, when is fast food EVER necessary? lol)
I am happy to report, however, that I managed to lose 2 pounds this past week! Go me! *shakes her extremely ample booty* I really need to make some time to exercise. Ick. Yes, I said it. Exercise. It's good for me...it's good for me...it's good for me. I just need to keep telling myself that. lol
09/12/2007 17:44
Biggest Loser Day 1
I'm participating in a "Biggest Loser" contest on Friends and Families and today was the first weigh in. I was just guessing on my posted weight of...gulp...235. Today I actually weighed myself. 237. Ugh. Gross. (Not that I think you are gross if you are 237 or above, but I think I am gross.
So anyways, I want to kick butt at this challenge. We have to post our measurements today. I'm really not looking forward to it. I need to find my tape measure. Ick. Reality really sucks sometimes. lol
I need to get off my ass and shake it a little. We have a challenge of exercising at least 5 days this week. I've already used my two free days. Oops.
09/10/2007 15:05
Meatloaf Beetloaf
Have you ever seen that movie, "A Christmas Story." You know the one..."You'll shoot your eye out!" Well, do you remember that part where the kid is sitting there, poking at his dinner, saying, "Meatloaf, beetloaf. I HATE meatloaf!!!" That's how I feel right now as I sit and eat the salad I prepared for lunch. It's not that I HATE salad. It's that I'd SO much rather be eating the cheesecake that is beckoning me to make it. I wish I didn't enjoy baking so much. I wish I didn't enjoy making the thing I bake so much even more LOL
The salad is decent...refried beans, romaine lettuce, diced tomatoes, salsa...I call it a mocko salad because it doesn't have taco meat or corn chips, but it's similar. For dinner I'm doing a fruit/veggie combo salad. That will be better. I have this amazing champagne/blood orange vinegarette that I'm going to drizzle over a bed of baby greens, thinly sliced asian pears, raspberries and some sort of nut..I'm not sure which. Probably pecans. I'd like to add some blue cheese to it, but I'm really trying to avoid the cheese. I'm afraid I'll go off the deep end if I have even the tiniest nibble.
I love cheese. *sigh*
09/10/2007 04:23
My gift to you (unless you're on Atkins)
I love fruit. Seriously, if it was healthy, I could live on fruit. (Then again, if it was healthy, I could live on doughnuts, so don't listen to me. lol) I try out as many fruits as possible. I rarely find one that I like more than others. (Except pineapple...I LOOOOVE LOOOOOOOOVE LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE pineapple) That being said, I found a new fruit. It's called a pluot. It's a plum/apricot hybrid...hence the name pluot...get it? It's DELICIOUS!!!! Even better, it's not all juicy, so I can eat them on the go without a napkin, which is nice!
So, if you see this fruit in the store and are thinking, "Hmmmm, I wonder if I'd like that." TRY IT! They're yummy. I've eaten two of them since starting this post. lol
09/06/2007 17:53
Now that's just wrong
So, I'm looking at my blog, thinking, "Time to get serious!" I was also thinking, "Hmmmm, that last post was really boring. You should try to be more witty...fatass." I had to throw the fatass in for good measure. Self flagellation is good for the soul.
Anyways, I'm staring at my blog, trying to avoid shaking my heiny (aka the dreaded E word...you know it...you hate it as much as I do...okay, probably not as much, but still...you hate it...EXERCISE) and lo and behold, what do I see above my blog? Why, it's an ad. Harmless, right? It's just a silly little ad. Ads can't hurt you. In fact, you usually just overlook them. Then it jumps out at me and tries to shove it down my throat. It's an ad for CHEESE!!!!! It's my kryptonite!!! Oh holy hell, sweet Jesus take me now....CHEESE!!!! I know I have some Stilton in the fridge. Just a tiny nibble won't hurt, right? Must....Not.....Give....In!!!!!!!
09/06/2007 08:59
Eek!
Baby's here. In fact, she's two months old. So, I should be right on the weight loss wagon, watching those pounds go down, right? Ummmm...yeah...that hasn't happened. You can see from my graph that I BALLOONED during this pregnancy. I have been able to rely on pregnancy to help me LOSE weight my last three pregnancy. Not this one. :( I had horrible morning sickness with my previous three pregnancies, resulting in me weighing LESS at 9 months pregnant than I did before I got pregnant. No such luck this time. Darn morning sickness stayed away. Seems like a funny thing to be bummed about, eh?
Oh well, it's a new day fatass (I'm talking to myself...not to you!) Time to get on the elliptical, stop eating the gummy worms and pull out the salad. Ummmm....yum...I guess. lol
Today I put on the dress I'm wearing to a friend's wedding on Saturday. I look hideous in it. I'd like to use the excuse, "I just had a baby!" but sadly, even if I hadn't, at this weight, I'd still look hideous in it. I HATE HATE HATE that I carry so much of my weight around my waist (and my ass, and my thighs and my arms and my calves and my chins...yes, I said chinS.) My stomach is almost the same size as my boobs (and as a nursing mama, I have HUGE tatas! LOL Which, sadly, are always the first thing to go when I lose weight :( ) I looked in the mirror and wanted to cry. My hubby (who I swear must be blind as a bat) looked at me and said, "You look incredible." I could have just punched him. lol I wanted to cry and tell him, "No I don't, I look hideous. How can you possibly want to be seen with me? How can you possibly stand looking at me everyday, let alone want to have sex with me?!?!?" But, I looked at him and I could see in his eyes that he meant every word that he said. He thinks I'm beautiful. He thinks I'm amazing. I want to feel and look the way he thinks I do.
My little brother is getting married on May 10th. The families of the bride and groom always have to be in no less than a gazillion pictures, so I REALLY want to lose a good amount of weight before then. Oooh, this would be a good time to quote one of my favorite lines from "Friends." "The camera adds ten pounds!" "How many camera's were on you??!!?!?!?" It cracks me up just thinking about it. I look at pictures and try to remind myself, "The camera adds ten pounds." Well, take away ten pounds and I still look like I ate 10 gajillion too many donuts. So, yeah...not helping.
Hi, I'm Katie, and I;m a fatass.
11/12/2006 21:02
So long weight loss, HELLO BABY!
So, I'm off the weight loss wagon. This time it's not because I've cheated (although, I have). It's because I'm PREGNANT!!! Yep, you read that right. Baby number six is on his/her way and should be making an appearance sometime around the fourth of July! So, no more weight loss for me, but hopefully not a lot of weight gain. I tend to view pregnancy as a reason to eat whatever, whenever I want. (As is evident by the fact that I ate nothing but Halloween candy for three days straight...it was all I could hold down though. lol) So, I need to change that mindset and hopefully not gain too much weight this pregnancy so it can come right back off after the baby and I can renew my resolve to get down to a healthy weight!
10/17/2006 03:53
Complete 180
So, I've changed my way of eating. I felt like I just wasn't losing weight the way I wanted to, and if I wasn't losing weight, what was the point of staying on Atkins? I physically felt fine doing it, but with all that fat and protein...I just didn't feel like my body was fine. So, I made the decision to go strict vegetarian. When most people think vegetarian, they think they still eat dairy and eggs. I've cut those out. I don't consider myself vegan because vegan is a lifestyle, more than a way of eating.
I'm LOVING it!!! I cannot tell you how much fun it is to find new recipes, try new vegetables, try to convince my kids that you DON'T need meat for a meal to be good and filling, etc. I'm cooking more than ever, making everything from scratch and just overall feeling really good about my decision to switch to veg.
With that in mind, I got the results back from my cholesterol screening. Let's just say I'm a heart atack waiting to happen. So, under 200 is desirable, 200-239 is borderline high risk, 240 and above is high risk. Wanna know mine? 287!!!! OMG, I nearly fell out of my seat!!!
I called my mom and she said that while she doesn't know if high cholesterol runs in our family, she does remember thinking that hers was pretty high the one time she got it checked, my paternal grandmother died of a heart attack, my maternal grandmother had a heart attack, my uncle had a heart attack, and so on and so forth.
So, in eight weeks I get it checked again and we'll see if going veg has had any impact on it. I'm hoping to see things improve dramatically.
10/12/2006 02:49
Frustrated
I realize that slow and steady wins the race. Everything in me tells me not to get upset that the scale isn't moving as quickly as I'd like it to, but it still doesn't make me happy :(
I'm just feeling defeated today. I want this weight off NOW! lol Really, who doesn't though? I want OUT of the 200's. I want them behind me for good this time!
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!! I'm so frustrated with all of this that I could just scream. Why the hell did I let myself gain all of this weight back? I was doing SO good at the beginning of the year!!! 65 pounds GONE! I was heading in the perfect direction. Then...what? I have no idea. I stopped. I gained it all back. I'm just so upset with myself right now. :(
10/09/2006 19:10
Results of my cheat
So, up two pounds from yesterday. Ugh. Like I said though, I'm not going to let it get me down! Back on track today!
At about four this morning, I did the Start it Up video with my husband. It totally kicked his ass. I finished the video...he didn't. I got a good laugh out of that. 
