So, Amber is my right hand woman in the biggest loser contest on Friends and Families. I was going to post a challenge today, but she had beat me to it! Her challenge is definitely one I NEVER would have posed because, if I'm not willing to do it, I'm not going to make everyone else do it. LOL But, in the spirit of the challenge, I'm going to do it.
So the challenge was to post a current picture of yourself on your blog. I NEVER post pictures of myself. Most of the time, pictures of me (because, for some odd reason, my husband seems to love taking pictures of me) get deleted as soon as they're downloaded from the camera. (I'm always the one downloading them.) If at all possible, I avoid the camera. Drake (my husband) knows I hate having pictures taken of me, but that doesn't always stop him. lol Anyways, lately I've been more and more okay with having my picture taken and I actually haven't deleted them. The reason why is a bit morbid, but it's because I don't want to die and not leave my kids pictures of them with me. I don't want my kids to be looking through pictures, trying to find some of me and be upset because there aren't any. I adore the pictures I have of my dad and me. They make me so very happy. I would hate for my children to not have that as well. So, here goes nothing:
That is me this past Sunday at the fair. I'm not wearing any makeup and I look terrible, but that's how I usually look. lol As you can tell, my shirt is usually up a bit higher and I'm obviously a huge fan of v necks as my tan will attest to. LOL
So, I've been thinking about the things I've been eating lately and while I haven't been eating all that well, I've been missing a key factor in things. Well, I haven't been missing it, so much as just not noticing it. I might be eating crap, but I'm eating a WHOLE LOT LESS crap than usual. Take last night, for instance. Cole was sleeping, so I ate the hamburger I bought for him. Later, I was really upset with myself for eating that hamburger. But, really...before I started trying to lose weight (well, this time, anyways) I would have not only eaten that hamburger, but I would have had my own...and curly fries, and a large soda, before it. For lunch, I had a breaded chicken breast strip that I had made for Allie. I shouldn't have eaten it. But, I didn't have a whole plateful like I would have before.
How do you like my justifications for eating crap? Are they working for you? lol Yeah, not so much for me, either, but I still thought it was interesting.
Add to yesterday's food 12 pieces of spicy tuna roll. My goodness I love sushi. I really need to get to Mitsua (the semi local Japanese market) and get some tuna. I'm spending WAY too much on sushi these days. I need to start making my own again.
Okay, for today: I have my breakfast sitting in front of me right now...two wraps. Each are made with 1/2 an avocado, 1/4 cucumber and three slices of tomato. They don't sound very appetizing. I ran out of sprouts again. :( I'll probably have some fruit after this because I'm really feeling like I need some fruit. I think I'll have one of those black velvet apricots I bought yesterday! :D
Oooh, want to hear a funny story, completely not weight loss related? No? Too bad:
The other night I got very little sleep. (About two hours) I couldn't sleep, so I decided to start knitting the sweater I'm planning on giving my sister for Christmas. So, four hours of knitting and I'm finally ready to go to sleep. The next day I was in a complete fog all day. I was SO tired. I sat down and continued knitting on the sweater. I knit for about two more hours (so, all total, six hours) and that's when I noticed it. You know how you have two arms (well, if you don't, I'm sorry for being so incredibly insensitive as to assume you do), one on the right and one on the left? (Again, if you don't...sorry!) Well, that's how sweaters are supposed to look as well, right? Sadly, this one didn't. This one had two sleeves on the right and none on the left. You see, my sister doesn't have two right arms. In fact, she has a right AND a LEFT arm. Six hours of knitting down the drain. *sigh
When I get lazy, I eat crap food. Take yesterday, for instance. I had a Lean Cuisine for breakfast, a Lean Cuisine for...ummmm...a snack? Then I had a Hot Pocket Calzone for a late lunch. Then I had an Ultimate Chicken Grill from Wendys for dinner. The Wendys burger really isn't all that bad, but they made it with a white bun instead of the usual wheat, so not only did it not taste as good, but it was worse for me! Sucks. I also had half of my DH's Monster energy drink at dinner. Now, you read how I gave up coffee a while back, right? I've had almost ZERO caffeine since giving it up. That half of an energy drink kept me up until 4:30 this morning...this after only getting three hours of sleep the night before! Such a bad idea. Not only that, but this morning I was craving coffee something terrible. I walked past the Starbucks at our grocery store this morning and wanted to cry. I wanted it SO badly. I was good though and resisted!
So, onto today's food. Ummmm...yeah. Do you know what pan de ube is? It's yummy. I had three of them. They're not good for me. I also had some sushi, which, if it was made with brown rice would be fine, but it's not, so it's not all that good for me . I'm currently drinking a Green Machine from Naked Juice. Healthy, yet not. Fruit juice is never really good for you. This one has broccoli and spirulina and barley and stuff like that in it, so better for you than say a Juicy Juice or something, but still, it has a lot of sugar in it.
I bought a new fruit today! The grocery store had velvet black apricots. They looked very interesting, so I bought a few to try out. I'll let you know what I think of them! I also bought some organic strawberries, organic grapes, organic cucumbers and...something else I can't think of right now, but it's yummy and organic. lol
Oh, I might mention that after eating absolutely nothing raw yesterday, I felt SO sick and terrible. Yeah, my body certainly didn't like what I was putting in it.
Tonight I'm going to Dream Dinners to make some meals for my family for the next few weeks, so at least I won't have to worry about "What's for dinner?" syndrome for a while! Yay! Sounds like a good time to start the 30 day challenge, don't you think?
Yesterday was the last day the fair was open. We went. I had a couple bites of a Mexican funnel cake. What's the difference between the Mexican funnel cake and the regular one? The Mexcian funnel cake was bigger. LOL Seriously, though, the regular funnel cakes are kinda flat, like a pancake. The Mexican funnel cake was a big pile of deep fried death with strawberries and whipped cream on top. Oh, and it was literally DRIPPING with oil, which was kinda gross, but oddly enough, quite good at the same time.
I know I ate stuff other than the funnel cake, but the funnel cake is all that is stickingin my mind. Oh, I had some slurpee. Is that really all I ate at the fair? That's surprising. I must be missing something.
Anyways, when we got home, Drake and I got in a big fight and I went straight to the chips and guacomole. Katie, you're stupid. I really MUST stop going to food to make me feel better. It was really quite the eye opener. I KNEW the reason I wanted the chips and guac was because I was upset over the fight with Drake and wanted something to make me feel better. I certainly didn't NEED them. Still, I ate them anyways...and it made me feel better.
Oh, and I had Arby's for dinner. I'm trying to remember what I had...oh crap, I just remember what I had to eat before we went to the fair and it wasn't good. lol Man, I'd really like to be able to report eating healthy foods. lol I had two slices of pizza from Z Pizza. I had the Provence pizza: Organic tomato sauce, homemade roasted garlic sauce, mozzarella, artichoke hearts, capers, tomatoes and basil. It was SO good! Should I not be mentioning delicious pizza on a website full of people trying to lose weight? LOL
Today has been good. I haven't eaten anything. Then again, it's not even nine in the morning and I rarely eat before noon. I should really change that. I'm trying to change my thinking to where lunch is my large meal of the day instead of dinner. It's SO much healthier than the rushed lunches and huge dinners we American's tend to have. I should really start eating breakfast as well. Is it any wonder I'm so hungry by dinner time and scarf down everything I can get my chubby little fingers on?
So, yeah...today is a new day and I'm not going to the fair. lol
Again, with not having west coast time. It's still the fifth, not the sixth. :)
I went to the fair today. I watched an eco friendly fashion show, featuring some local retailers, which was a lot of fun. After that, we (AllieGayle...she's one) and I walked around the flower and garden section for a bit, then got front and center seats to see Sarah Snow. I was dispappointed at how few people showed up to see her. Many of those in the audience, I heard talking to eachother, asking if they've ever heard of her and most of them said no. HELLO.....people! Do you not watch the Discovery Channel religiously? LOL Seriously, I love the Discovery Channel. I think I have like six of them or something. My most frequently watched one is Discovery Health and Living, which has recently changed it's name to "Planet Green." Awesome!
I was also really surprised at how few (okay, so I was the only one who raised my hand...maybe others knew but didn't want to be that student in the front row with their hand up high "Oooh, me...pick me!!!! I know, I know!!!!" LOL) people knew what a CSA is. Do you know what a CSA is? If not, go look it up and see if you have one in your area. They're pretty cool!
Here is where my blog on my diet comes in. LOL After her show, AllieGayle FINALLY fell asleep. I was THRILLED because she had been SUCH a pain during the show. I was ecstatic at the thought of being able to walk around all of the exhibits and the vendors without a crying baby and (since the other five kids were at home with Daddy) without kids saying, "This is boooooooring, do we have to look at all of this stuff? I'm huuuuuuungry. Can we have deep fried death? When can we go on the rides? This is booooooooooring. Didn't we come here to have fun? This is booooooooooooooooooooooooring!!!!!!" So, I went to the vendor I had REALLY wanted to try the last time we were at the fair, but they closed before we got around to it...deep fried, Austrailian battered potatoes. Yes....deep fried death. LOL I sat down, feeling guilty about eating it, but I REALLY wanted it. Anyways, after two of them, I felt so sick to my stomach that I had to throw the rest away. I started walking around some of the exhibits, but I just felt so sick that I couldn't do it. I had to go home. I guess that's what I get for eating that. lol
It's now 10:30 at night and I still feel sick. I haven't been able to eat anything since getting home, so all I've had to eat today are those two potato things. Ugh. What a waste of money...and time, since I wasn't even able to stay at the fair for everything I wanted to do. Sarah Snow was speaking again about two hours after I ate those potatoes. I really wanted to see it, but I was just too sick to stick around. :(
Weighed in today. Not good, but not bad. I lost a pound. While I would have liked to have lost more, I'm still a pound less than I was last week! I can't exactly be bummed about not losing a lot of weight when I splurge and go crazy during the week. Now, if I had been good all week and still only lost a pound, I might be bummed. I DID get my ten pound star today! Go Katie! It is proudly stuck next to my five pound star on my Weight Watchers bookmark. Next week...15 pound star! A girl can dream, right? lol
I ate (well, drank) something else today. (Still the fourth...well, technically, it is now the fifth, but it's 1:30 in the morning, so I'm counting it as the fourth) I had a Tsunami from the juice bar at Jimbos. Here is what it has in it:
Organic banana, organic strawberries, organic papaya, organic dates, oat bran, bee pollen, wheat germ, vitamin C, protein powder, and organic apple juice.
OMG, SOOOOOOOOOO yummy! Seriously....yummy! I do NOT like bananas in my drinks. HATE it, really, but this was still SOOOO good!
It's actually still the fourth of July here, but I guess Extrapounds isn't West Coast, so it says the fifth.
I did really well today! I think it helps that we weren't invited to any bbq's or celebrations or anything. *sniffle* It's okay if no one loves us, I have enough love to go around. lol
So, this morning, I went to make myself a nori wrap and realized that the avocados I bought that weren't ripe, figuring they would be ripe by the time I made it through all the ripe ones, STILL weren't ripe. So, I decided to use some guacomole that I had in the fridge in them instead. REALLY REALLY REALLY bad idea. They were gross. What a waste of good guacomole...not to mention a good heirloom tomato, the rest of my sprouts, and some awesome olives. Oooh, did I mention that I found some AWESOME organic, raw olives? I did! They're awesome! They're SO much stronger than those canned pasturized crap that I usually have. My kids hate them though, which is good for me because I have little olive thieves in my house!
A quick trip to Jimbos this afternoon solved the avocodo crisis. Yay! I also bought more sprouts and some yummy smelling white nectarines, pluots (which weren't as soft as the other ones I'm bought, so I'm hoping not as juicy). I got a few "Go Raw" bars, which are SOOOOOOOO good! The spirulina one is HEAVENLY! Yummo! Then, I bought this raw, organic Kombucha tea. Ewwwww, it was GROSS. It tasted like vinegar, which I suppose isn't all that surprising. It is this fermented probiotic blah blah blah, really yucky drink. If you like drinking vinegar though, I highly recommend it!
For dinner tonight, I had half a nori wrap (I have a canker sore on my tongue and it hurts like heck to chew. :( ) and some fruit...cantelope, honeydew, green and red grapes.
Tomorrow is weigh in day. The beginning through middle of this week were really bad. I don't think making up for it today is going to cause this huge rush of weight loss...unfortunately. lol Last Saturday, I was all hyped to not only get my ten pound sticker this Saturday (I was .6 pound away) but to also get my 15 pound sticker. That was my goal. I know I failed miserably. I'm just hoping not to gain! However, I have decided that no matter how poorly I did during the week, I'm not going to miss a meeting. I can't just stop showing up when I have a bad week. That's how I start my downward spiral. If I'm not held accountable, I just let all hell break loose. If I stop blogging, no one knows the crap I'm eating, so it's "okay" to eat it. If I don't go to my meeting, no one knows I gained weight this week, so it's "okay" and I can just miss next week if I have another bad week. It's all a vicious cycle that I'm determined to break. No matter how poorly I do, I want to be held accountable. I want to have that weight gain recorded. I want everyone to know I had a nacho bell grande from Taco Bell. (I didn't...I'm just saying if. lol)
Tomrrow I'm going to the fair with AllieGayle. Drake wasn't too fond of the thought of having the baby all day, so I agreed to take her with me. Lots of good info on sustainable living, some great vendors and some "alone" time. It should be good. I just need to decide ahead of time that funnel cake does NOT make a good lunch...or dinner for that matter. I think I'll bring along some fruit and lots of water just so I don't get hungry. Lots of walking though, so that's excellent. Hopefully Allie will cooperate and let me have a nice day.
Oooh, I totally forgot to mention...I got a webcam! Yes, I'm like the last person on the planet to get a webcam, but whatever. I've been wanting to start a vlog (video log), so this will enable me to do just that. I think I'm going to start with my 30 day raw challenge. I'm just about set mentally to do that. Today, I was at Jimbos, looking at their deli section and their veggie sandwiches sounded SO good! The meat actually sounded revolting. Is that weird? I'm such a meat and potatoes kind of gal, but lately, meat has not only been unappealing to me, but really kinda gross. Drake had some chicken strips for dinner tonight and it was really quite gross watching him eat them. Not only that, but about half way through one, he realized it wasn't cooked well. EWWWWWWWWW. You don't have to worry about that with raw!
So, I made the mistake of not eating before we went to the fair last night. Like the fair was going to have something healthy to eat or something. LOL I mean, don't get me wrong...they had zucchini...deep fried. They had potatoes...deep fried. They had corn...I don't think it was deep fried, but there was something VERY unhealthy looking about it. lol They had turkey legs, that while not deep fried, are still 32 points from Weight Watchers, so you KNOW there's something terrible about them.
So, I ended up with some fudge (just a little, I swear!) some beef jerky and some orange julius. Not too bad. I didn't get the deep fried twinkie! On the way home, I was SO tired (it was past midnight) but I was SO hungry. The thought of having to make myself somethig was very unappealing, so I stopped off at Jack in the Box and Drake and I split some chicken breast pieces and some egg rolls. Yeah, deep fried death. I may as well have eaten at the fair! I did a tremendous amount of walking though and drank a lot of water, so that's good.
I think we're going back to the fair on Friday and I'm planning on going by myself on Saturday. One of my favorite tv personalities, Sara Snow, is going to be speaking there on Saturday and I'm dying to go see! Plus, it's the day of the "envirofair." I'm really excited to go and learn more about sustainable living and other things of the sort.
From the fair website:
Among the attractions will be:
Exhibitors with environmentally friendly products
Eco-Fashion Show with great-looking clothes made from easily renewable fibers such as bamboo
Non-profit organizations helping us learn new ways to take better care of our world
Informative speakers Please scroll down for the schedule.
Sara Snow, star of "Living Fresh" and "Get Fresh with Sara Snow" on the Discovery Channel, will be our special guest speaker. Sara was born into a family that has always been environmentally conscious, so for her, a solar-energy-powered home and organic food was just the normal way of life in Ann Arbor, Michigan.
After graduating from Butler University with a degree in theater performance and another in telecommunications, she planned a career in television news. Or sports.
But after a few years in the hectic world of television news, she was ready to get back to the simpler life she lived as a child. In 2005, she created the concept for a lifestyle TV series about the things she learned growing up — eating organics, composting, recycling, natural cleaning and more. She signed with Discovery Communications, and the rest is, as they say, history.
Anyone want to come join me? :D
Today, food wise, I've done...ummmm....yeah. I didn't eat breakfast, I didn't eat lunch. I had a Skinny Cow ice cream and a Weight watchers ice cream bar for a snack, then two chimichangas for dinner. Yeah, at this rate, I'll have GAINED weight by my next weigh in. Ugh. I need to be better and be less lazy. lol
Sara Snow, star of "Living Fresh" and "Get Fresh with Sara Snow" on the Discovery Channel, will be our special guest speaker. Sara was born into a family that has always been environmentally conscious, so for her, a solar-energy-powered home and organic food was just the normal way of life in Ann Arbor, Michigan.