Eek!
Baby's here. In fact, she's two months old. So, I should be right on the weight loss wagon, watching those pounds go down, right? Ummmm...yeah...that hasn't happened. You can see from my graph that I BALLOONED during this pregnancy. I have been able to rely on pregnancy to help me LOSE weight my last three pregnancy. Not this one. :( I had horrible morning sickness with my previous three pregnancies, resulting in me weighing LESS at 9 months pregnant than I did before I got pregnant. No such luck this time. Darn morning sickness stayed away. Seems like a funny thing to be bummed about, eh?
Oh well, it's a new day fatass (I'm talking to myself...not to you!) Time to get on the elliptical, stop eating the gummy worms and pull out the salad. Ummmm....yum...I guess. lol
Today I put on the dress I'm wearing to a friend's wedding on Saturday. I look hideous in it. I'd like to use the excuse, "I just had a baby!" but sadly, even if I hadn't, at this weight, I'd still look hideous in it. I HATE HATE HATE that I carry so much of my weight around my waist (and my ass, and my thighs and my arms and my calves and my chins...yes, I said chinS.) My stomach is almost the same size as my boobs (and as a nursing mama, I have HUGE tatas! LOL Which, sadly, are always the first thing to go when I lose weight :( ) I looked in the mirror and wanted to cry. My hubby (who I swear must be blind as a bat) looked at me and said, "You look incredible." I could have just punched him. lol I wanted to cry and tell him, "No I don't, I look hideous. How can you possibly want to be seen with me? How can you possibly stand looking at me everyday, let alone want to have sex with me?!?!?" But, I looked at him and I could see in his eyes that he meant every word that he said. He thinks I'm beautiful. He thinks I'm amazing. I want to feel and look the way he thinks I do.
My little brother is getting married on May 10th. The families of the bride and groom always have to be in no less than a gazillion pictures, so I REALLY want to lose a good amount of weight before then. Oooh, this would be a good time to quote one of my favorite lines from "Friends." "The camera adds ten pounds!" "How many camera's were on you??!!?!?!?" It cracks me up just thinking about it. I look at pictures and try to remind myself, "The camera adds ten pounds." Well, take away ten pounds and I still look like I ate 10 gajillion too many donuts. So, yeah...not helping.
Hi, I'm Katie, and I;m a fatass.