Do you ever look back and reflect on your life? Did you accomplish everything you wanted to accomplish for the year? Are the resolutions you made last year the same ones you are making this year? Did you just stop making resolutions, for the sake of breaking them?
I know that every year I make a resolution to lose weight and every year I'm heavier than the year before. What am I doing to change that cycle? How will this new year be different from this last year?
It used to be I wanted to be thin for vanity purposes...to fit into that cute little dress or make every head turn, but now that I'm getting older it's all about health. My blood pressure is elevated and I'm a borderline diabetic. Food to me is like a drug....I know that what I'm doing to myself is killing me, but yet I still do it. It's a disease and I'm searching for the cure!
About 2 weeks ago I had a breakdown...I was driving home eating fast food and I just started crying. What am I doing to myself? I have 2 beautiful daughters at home who love their mommy very much and if I keep treating my body like this I won't be around to watch them grow up. It's like I'm choosing the temporary satisfaction of that fast food meal over my own children....What is wrong with me?
I bought a book yesterday "You On A Diet" I've heard a lot of good things about it. I plan to start reading it tomorrow. I'm also going to start a 150 day challenge on another message board that I'm on. This time next year I will no longer be worried about my health and my weight. I will be healthy! I will be around to watch my children grow up.
My mind is made up....I have a lot of weight to lose, but I plan on breaking it down into small steps. My first goal is 230 pounds. I will be back tomorrow to lay out my plan and how I will lose 100 pounds in 2008.
Until tomorrow.....
Kristy
Posted By: kb2bfit
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12/30/2007 22:28
cheers!
Welcome to EP! Very smart to set smaller goals at a time. One big number can be hard to face. It is a journey for all of us! So welcome and Happy New Year!
Hey Kristy, you're doing a brave thing. You did a particularly brave thing looking into a 3-way mirror!! I really hate shopping, and refuse to go into shops where I have to look into more than one mirror (which lets face it, is bad enough by itself).
Like you, I seem to have no 'off' switch when it comes to food - and I'm far too heavy for my height. I have tried so many diets, and lost and gained weight - but I've been the same for a year or so. My tactic now is to think more about healthy living, rather than trying to follow a diet. I have a very stressful and busy life for a different reason (no kids but crazy job), and it's so hard to eat what you're supposed to. So, I figure that stopping drinking will help (I eat like crazy the day after) and fitting in more exercise is a good start. After that, I need to choose healthy options instead of sweet, sticky things when I go to the shop!
Anyhoo - good luck with your journey, and happy 2008!
Thank you for your kind words and encouragment. This site is GREAT! it's not the 6 lbs this week it's the last 6 months that really had me down but everyone ha lifted me up and i diffanitly have my head right going into 2008. I can accomplish my goal and i will.
You can do it! I know you can, cause i doin it right now. Can i give you a hint??? Something that worked well for me when the scale wasn't working to my liking, have goals that are not tied to the scale, things that you want to accomplish, things that are proof you are living a more healthy life. Silly as it is on my list i had "cross my legs" and i can dot it! it feels amazing and i feel like a girl instead of a slob... i also had shop at a regular store and not always at the plus size stores, now i still buy most of my clothes at the plus size stores but i am also buying some things other places and it feels great. This year i want to do Portland to Coast witch is a walk relay from downtown Portland to the Oregon Coast. I know it's a lot to take on but i'm gonna do it. Set goals that have nothing to do with the scale it helps i promise. I wish you all the luck and please keep in touch!
Kristy