The reason I was feeling blurgh..........

became clear when I was up half the night and am full of cold - courtesy of my darling hubby

Have had a good day today - came in under points.  X-weighted was inspirational tonight as always - also "Fat men can't hunt" on BBC3. It really gives you the motivation to get on with it and achieve your goals. 

I want to be a success story - I want to be able to look at my photos and see how far I've come.

I had a big "happy" today when I managed to get into a Size 22 pair of jeans. To me that means I'm finally going again in the right direction.  Plus I did my measurements and even though I've gained a bit of weight I've lost inches

Right now I can't wait for WI on Tuesday - it can't come soon enough.

xxx

One of those days

when your feeling blurgh.

I'd like to be one of those skinny-minnies who can eat what they want and not gain weight. I'd love to go out for a meal at my favourite restaurant and pig out on all the delicious food that I love and crave - but I can't do that.

I  keep having to remind myself that this is my life, this is how it has to be. 

I don't want to go back to that person who weighed 301 lbs. I know I'm much healthier at 228 lbs - and it will be even better when I'm less!

Another good day

xxx

Definitely another good day

Managed x2 sessions of 30 minutes on the exercise bike tonight  - feeling energised and in control.

This week I've been watching a programme on TV called "X-Weighted" and it's set in Canada and it's about normal woman like me and you who have a few pounds to lose. 

It's programmes like this that keep me motivated and prove that it can be done.

xxx

3rd good day and hopefully my 4th as well..............

Well I had a good 3rd day diet wise but I felt terrible. I had a headache and I felt sick.  I was thinking it was probably due to my body detoxing - not having the amount of junk I normally shove down my throat.

Today hasn't gone as well so far - I have 6.5pts left and still need to have my tea - but thought I'd go on the exercise bike for 30 minutes so I can get some extra points that way.

I'm obsessive about the scales - I jump on them every single day - maybe more than once :-(  

But they haven't really changed this week so far - but I'm looking forward to my weekend and to WI next Tuesday. 

I feel in control for the first time in ages - I know I can do this.

xxx

2nd good day in a row

I know that doesn't mean much to some - but to me it's a life line at the moment.

I have been struggling/messing about at this, if I'm honest, since 8 November 2006.  I know the date exactly as since then I've gained 1st.

I know I shouldn't dwell on this - but it's hard not to at times.  Sometimes you just feel like a complete and utter failure - like I do right now.

So I'm grasping my two good days with both hands and I'm determined tomorrow to make it three good days in a row.

I will have a loss this week - that's a promise.

xxx

Been away for the weekend

Well I went away for the weekend with a friend and had a fantastic time    I even managed 45 minutes in the gym. Unfortunately I also went out for four meals and drank like a fish.

It was WI day today and I only gained 2lbs - so I'm happy with this.

Although I'm kicking myself up the butt from today as I seriously want to be in the 15's for my birthday and that's in another four weeks . I know that's only 5lbs to lose - but the way I've been going it's going to be hard.

I'm going to try and get some exercise back into my regime - as now that our office has moved I no longer have to walk the 10 minutes too and from work and I've become a bit of a slug.

xxx

WI Day

Well I went back to WW at lunchtime and weighed in at 16st 2lbs.

I thought it would be worse - so I'm not too unhappy about that.

Hoping to have a good week and hoping I don't blow it on my weekend away.

xxx

New WI day for me - Tuesday

Well I can think of one hundred and one excuses not to go and join my new Weight Watchers Class tomorrow but I know I have to take the bull by the horns and do it now - before I do anymore damage.

I'm away for the weekend - but that doesn't mean I can't be good the other 5 days and take it easy this weekend.

Shitting a brick would be an accurate description

xxx

Well it all went tit's up...........

What a week   - when I fall off the wagon I generally do it with a big bang. 

My f-i-l was admitted to hospital this week after a fall at work (he broke his kneecap and it had to be reattached) and visiting every night etc I found no time for me or time for coming onto the computer. Which meant my diet went tit's up too. Although you didn't hear any complaining from me  

In came the take-aways and the snacks   as we just didn't have the time to cook and we were knackered. 

We are just on our way out to visit f-i-l in hospital - but I'm hoping that they will send him home tomorrow as it will be easier on everyone.

Needless to say I've decided I need to go back to a Weight Watchers class and I know there is one on aTuesday so that's where I will be heading.  I haven't been for 4 weeks and I know I will be in for a gain as WW Scales are usually 4 - 7lbs heavier than my home one.

I need to stop messing about and take the bull by the horns and just get on with it.

xxx

WI - but I binged............

Well I lost 1lb yesterday and was very disappointed.

What made it worse was that I went on an all day binge that I feel physically sick from today.  Day 12 (yesterday) of my fresh start was a complete and utter disaster

I have six days before my next WI, but I'm not going to cut back this week. I'm going to try and eat all my points daily and just increase my exercise.

I'm not going to fall off the wagon just because I had one bad day.  It's going to happen as I have a long journey ahead of me.

Today I'm back on track and raring to go.  I can do this and I will

xxx