2lbs gone!

wahooo!!!!!!!

i'm doing a mini victory dance around my room! (not too big a one as i get of breath easily!!!)  ive lost 2lbs, dont know how but i have.  my intake of food seems to be less at the moment, which surely is good?! hey how ever i am doing it i've lost 2lbs! its given me a boost a little today. 

i'm dog sitting my dads dog this weekend, so a few walks with her will do me some good, although, she is eldery and fat too (not that i'm elderly!!) and doesnt like her walks to be too big! oh well we shall have to do as far as we both can! i have to try loose a few more lbs, i forgot what a confident boost loosing weight is!!!

lots of things to say

Richard (the finacee) was really low yestrerday and i was thinking it could be over! but no he was just low over work, he is having major issues, and i just dont know how to support him, i listen to him, and said that if he wants t go else where i will support him, but i think deep down he doesnt want to leave the place he is now. 

food wise over the weekend, i didnt do too great, well it was a treat weekend, hadnt seen my mum for months, so we went to Blackpool, bough some much needed new clothes for me and had a fab time going on a couple of rides and then on tram down the prom looking at the illuminations.  Didnt miss rich once, was having a fabulous relaxing time with me mum!!! i feel guilty for not missing him though!

anyway, i seem to be able to leave longer between eating, which means i'm having less snacks, which can only be a good thing right?!

oh yeah...even though its my week off this week, as its half term, i went into work yesterday ad got a huge presentation done ready to be sent into a competition at the national gallery, i'm sso pleased with my self,i want to show the world, but i cant!!! rraaahh!!

going to see me mum!

well today is thursday and rich cooked, quite a healthy option.  tomorrow is the last day of school, and i'm on a training course! yey! no kids! however straight afterwards i will be going up to my mums, which is approx 4hours in car, however expect to be longer as it's peak friday traffic in soome of the worst parts of britain!!! lol

oh well, at least i get to spend the weekend with me mum and even go see blackpool illuminations, which i aint done in ages! so i think its gunna be a lot of comfort food this weekend, however i will be getting a lot of looking after too! Rich keeps sayin how much he will miss me, think only coz i cook practically every meal he has! except his bowl of cereal in the morning LOL!  oh well do us good a few days apart, and especially me seeing my mum!

cant expect to loose anything this weekend, but will do my best not to put on! maybe i should take my swimming stuff just incase we get the urge?!? yes think i will! i expect we will go for a few walks too, if not i will have to insist i think!

speak to you soon, hope all is well with you all

KTxx

lacking enthusiasm

well, ive had a very bad day today, kit-kats, followed by pizza and chips for tea!! not good.  i find it hard with a slim bf, to cook something different for the both of us if he fancies something like a pizza, coz when he wants one i want one.  the problem was, i was home later than him for once, so we needed a quick tea, so he did pizza and chips, not healthy but very quick! rraahhh!!! i'm never gunna loose a pound at this rate, ive not had the motivation to go to the gym lately either!! i'm finding the bloody hard to be honest!

its Friday!!!!!!!!

well its friday! TFI Friday if you ask me! its been a long week!! only one week left til half term, Yey!!

well anyways, Rich (the t'other 'arf) took me down t local and treated me to a meal, just what we needed on the relationship wise, but not necessarily on the old diet wise! also i have a confession of buying and eating some chocolate buttons today . 

but hey on the bright side i said 'NO!' to a chocolate eclair today that a friend had brought into work.  which for me is pretty strong!  

any how, i best get on and spend a little more time with t'other 'arf.

hope you all well. KTxx

i'm trying

well i'm trying but it doesnt look like its doin much, i'm tryin little by little to change my BAD routines, i did a sneaky weigh in this morning and it looks like i have put on a pound, so i think the only way forward (although i hate to say it!!) is to go to the gym!! and regulary!! i'm wasting so much money being a member and not going.  i need to get my act together. 

Is there any enjoyable exercise out there?! i havent found it yet if there is! the only exercise i enjoy is lifting large bars of chocolate to my mouth!!! lol

changing the routine

well, the routine is changing slightly, i'm taking my purse with me to work, in case of any emergencies, as i'm always anxious of breaking down, or needing something and not having the money to get it.  However i'm only carrying my cards, so its harder to go get chocolate from any of the corner shops i would normally go to.  this seems to have worked the last 3 days, so lets hope it keeps working for me.  i've also started saving a treat for when i get home, rather than thinking about going and buying as many bars of chocolate as i can i think of the treat waiting for me at home, maybe a certain ice cram or youghurt.

i'm hoping these will start to work, for the long run, i'm really struggling, and hope to start at a local slimming world club soon, as feel i need the motivation of someone weighing me each week and a "well done" said to me as i loose the weight!

hope you all doing well! KTxx

i lost 2lbs!

well its about time i lost some weight adn look 2lbs! i'm so pleased!

i cant stop the craving for junk food and chocolate though, its really tough.  i'm trying to drink lots instead, adn make healthier choices, it doesnt seem to be curbing those cravings though!  ifinding it so hard!

oh well i guess i best just keep thinking of that dress and how i want to look in my dress!

hope you all doing well guys.

Chocoholic ...eating disorder or not?! HELP PLEASE!

Does anyone else believe that chocolate is addictive???

i am sure that i am a true chocoholic! now i dont mean to sound stupid but i believe this is a real problem, but i went to my doctor a month or two ago and explained that i go to great lengths to hide chocolate from my fiancee, that i think of nothing else of where to get my next fix, i hide chocolate around the house and find alsorts of excuses why to eat it.  now after some talk and tears to the doctor, she agreed i have a problem, but she could do nothing for me.  that i was to continue to give my purse to my fiancee and not go into a shop on my own and rid the house of chocolate, i've done this, but the problem is real and i dont feel supported and still find every opportunity to eat it!

does anyone else have this problem? or am i alone and just imagining that this is a real problem...or even eating disorder? anyone even have a solution? please help!

puttin on

well i forgot to weight myself this morning, so i've done it now, just before bed, after tea, not the best time and since i first signed up here, i have put on almost 4lbs, not good.

my fh lay in bed last night and gave me a good talking to about my weight, no one has ever really told me they disappointed in me before, he apologised for being harsh, but to be honest i think its what i needed, a good kicked up the arse to help me boost me.  he made a very valid point that "only you can do it!" and i think he is right only i can do it. so i have to take this seriously if i wanna loose weight, look and feel better on my wedding day and for th erest of my life.  so i suppose here goes again. 

i didnt take my purse with me to work today, so i couldnt go buy anything at lunch time or on my way home, think i need to keep doing this, as it worked well.  i also took a route home that ment i didnt go past any shops, so i couldnt be even be tempted!

well i shall keep this up, and look for a new slimming club i think. 

i just wish it was easy to change my whole lifestyle and thoughts on food!