What a beautiful day!!

Today was absolutely beautiful!  I cant believe that it's still the beginning of March and we hit 84 degrees out here today! WOW!

Too bad it ended when I had to go to work at 5. haha  ON a good note I stayed OP and I still have 5pts left for the day and it's 10pm.  I am not sure what  I will eat but I know I need to eat something, I am slightly hungry but not overly hungry - which is a good thing Huh?!

Tomorrow is cleaning day followed by a Doctor appt before I head out to Europe next Tuesday! WAHHHHHOOOOOOOOO.  When I get back from the Doctors then my plan is to go do some walking on the treadmill for an hour.  (hey even if I get in 30minutes it's all good right?)

Good night

K

long ass day!

Ok here it is, day number 2 of blogging. Hey it's only just begun right?  Anyway I stayed mostly OP today I did cheat a little (isn't that was the extra ones are for?) but I only had 1 small piece of chocolate.  It was a craving that I couldnt pass so I decided rather than gorge on a whole one later I would have a small bite and quench my hunger for chocolate.

I went to play BINGO with my brother today and WOO HOO I won!!!  I won 400bucks. I was stoked.  So that money goes into my "new clothing" fund for when I lose 25lbs.  I won't treat myself to food like I usually do, instead I will reward myself with NEW clothes!  Or even new shoes... heck I might do both. haha

Since I just got home I found myself really really hungry.  But instead of searching the cabinets looking for those goodies I opened the fridge and had a yogurt.  Yep just a small one 100 calories Light Yoplait Thick & Creamy.  I savored every single bite.  Took me 3 minutes to down it.  Hey I didn't say I took my time, just that I savored it. hahaha  And MAN it was goooooood.

Tonight at work it was soooo freaking busy that I hardly had time to take my breaks. Not once did it slow down enough for me to clean up the front area.  Oh well thats what happens when people call in sick and then those that dont show up.  It leaves the rest of us in a bind.

Tomorrows goal: Clean my room and get all the laundry put away. hahahh Ok, so I have to do it because in 8 days... YIKES... we are leaving for Europe for 3 weeks and I need to know what we have to take with us. LOL

Ohhh the one thing I still have a problem with... water. UGH No matter what I do I can't get in all my water.  Any suggestions?  I've even tried every other hour to drink a bottle of water - no can do.  I KNOW it's important.. it's KEY to losing this weight but I'm blocking it for some reason.

THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE EMAILED ME AND POSTED COMMENTS!! IT's a REAL BOOST TO HAVE THIS SUPPORT HERE!!!

I did it!

Well I did it again.  I started up back to my weight watchers meetings because IT'S TIME TO TAKE CONTROL over this body instead of letting it control me.  No more excuses no more reasonings - it's all over. Now it's time to get serious about losing this lump of lard.

Today I went to my meeting and fell flat on my face.  The scale was UP - WHOLY CRAP!  218 and I've peeked my highest level ever!!!

It's time to take a serous hold and look at myself in the mirror EVERY DAY and remind myself that I AM WORTH IT! 

My mom has been nearly on deaths door for the past year and was told she had less than 6 months to live - that was in July 2006 - she has lost over 130lbs and is now at 128lbs.  What did the Doctors say?  They said her weight loss has saved her life!  No more are they saying she is dying - she gets around now almost without a wheelchair or walker.  She has so much more energy than EVER!   She will now be here for her 50th wedding anniversary and I am ever so HAPPY.

This is another reason I have taken control of myself.  My mom.  If she can lose the weight (although her's was due to sickness) then I KNOW that I can.  I want to avoid all of those health issues that she has suffered

So today is a NEW DAY.

Ohhh I got my MOTORCYCLE PERMIT AND A NEW MOTORCYCLE!!! WOO HOOO!!!  I actually went out riding today - ON my very OWN bike!  I was soooo excited.

Anyway... there will be more of these days.  And daily blogs - at least thats a small goal.

This weeks goal... 2lbs.

K - I CAN DO IT -

New Begining

Well HELLS BELLS!!!!!! I had a whole huge post and it got LOST! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR I will repost another one later.  Took me dang near 20 minutes of my brain power to write it and I didn't do the ONE thing I always tell myself... COPY BEFORE attempting to post!!! ARGHHHHHH...

Mimy- you'da been proud of it too.  So I'll have to reconstruct it again and post later.

ughhhhh

Kathee

A new beginning!

Ok  it's that time where I make some major life decisions. That being said I have finally made it back to WW and did an official weigh in.  HA!  With all of the stress I have been under the past few months I am sooooo very happy to announce that I haven't gained MORE than I lost the first time around.  I am not letting the fact that I gained all of my lost weight back get me down.  I am thrilled at the scale believe it or not.  I know that sounds weird but it's been HELL the past few months.

So here I am climbing back on the wagon (hahah) and setting my sites on mini goals.   I think it's quite funny that when I did my WI I weighed EXACTLY what I originally started with.  This is actually encouraging to me in a strange way.  It means that I really am starting over. -=)

Now early this morning at 4:50AM I became a surrogate grandmother to one of my daughters best friends.  My new little one is Adrianna and weighed in at 6lbs 13oz.  I am so very happy for Angel and Jorge now that they have a little girl to their family.  I am also surrogate grandmother to her son.    Of course once word got out that I am a surrogate grandmother a few of my daughters friends jumped on that train. HAHHA I LOVE IT!

Now back to me for a second - This weeks GOAL = Drink Lots of water and Stay OP!!!  WOO HOOO.  So far so good.  Until next time.

Been awhile

Sorry it's been so long.  Life has had some major setbacks.

My mom has been in and out of the hospital since November last year.  This year she has been 'in' more than out of the hospital.  2 Months ago mom was sent to the ER and was in fairly critical condition. This is when the doctors advised us that she had less than 6 months to live.  She is currently on Dialysis and is diabetic and has HTCM (HyperTropic CardioMyopathy aka: enlarged heart muscles) among other factors.  She is not a candidate for any type of surgery at all so she is living on borrowed time.

July 1st my mother in law had a massive stroke and has been in the hospital since.  She shows signs of improvements but the doctors have talked to us about moving her to an acute facility.   

October 4 - 9th I will be in NYC to particpate in the Avon Walk for Breast Cancer and while I am looking forward to it, I am also not looking to be so far away from both moms during these days. 

So as you can tell my by chart I have been stable with my weight during these stressful 2 months.  I am really happy about that because I thought for sure that I had gained! WHEWWWWW. 

I have kick started myself back onto the program and will do my best to keep my blog updated as much as possible.  This will help me in keeping to my vision in weightloss.

Thanks for not giving up on me!

will it ever end?

HAHA that's the only thing I can think of right now.  It's been so crazy  - I can't wait until next week when I have a few days of peace before the big walk event.

I didn't go weigh in this week because seriously I had no time when they had meetings.  I am going on Wednesday because I NEEEEEEED To go!  I am guessing I lost this week because I stepped on the scale at home and it's lower than I have seen in 15 years and that's with my clothes on!!! (ok, I confess I am a scale addict and check it more than I should  but usually weigh in nekkid LOL)

One more cake class to go then I am taking a MUCH needed break so I can focus more on my goals to lose weight and do more walking.  This last class really was kicking my a$$.  Then in the middle of my class day we move.  ARGH This one is buggin me like crazy.  I have homework to get done and we have packing on Tuesday and Moving on Wednesday.  WHEN will I get my homework done and WHERE will I have the place to do it?   I finished all of the flowers I need for my cake but i still have to bake the cake, ice it, layer it, box it, prep it for decorations, make icing, etc...a lot to do and freaking out where I'll do it.  I can't do it tonight because by the time class comes around it will be spoiled then who will have it?  NOT ME either way! hahah

Tomorrow I'll be in SF all day preparing things for the Avon Walk.  Plus we'll have packers here.  So I am thinking maybe tomorrow afternoon I'll head over to my nieces house and finish my assignment there.  At least I'll have a place to get it done and not worry that someone is packing up my homework.

I've actually been VERY GOOD with tracking still and I am sooo very proud of myself for tackling that chore.  Everytime I log onto the internet my WW traker is the FIRST thing that i see so there are no lame excuses for me to not write stuff down.  when things settle down a bit I'll go over my food chart and see where I need help.

Thats my story and I'm stickin to it!  More on Thursday from the new place and no homework.

Stress!!!!

Ok so yesterday I had a HUGE POST and it disappeared and it pissed me off.  SO I left my computer and said screw it.  Today I sat down and put it together on a notepad so it won't disappear this time. hahaha

STRESS!!!

Ok so I know that stress releases cortisol in your body and that's has a direct link to retaining weight and my only goal for the next two weeks is to NOT GAIN ANYTHING!  I don't much care if I lose (well that's a big lie because I DO care) all I want to do is NOT GAIN!!!  Stress is overwhelming during the next two weeks because so much is happening.  Have NO time for planning a meal let alone think about it (ok, not true, I do think about it when I am hungry but then it's almost too late and I don't want to go overboard with food!)

• Cake Class homework is getting harder and as a procrastinator I usually wait til the day before class to get it done, but these next 2 weeks will be the kicker since there's so much to prepare for.
• I have a HUGE Breast Cancer fundraising event happening at Fantastic Sams in the Fremont Hub Friday Saturday and Sunday and I have to finish getting flyers out and putting my things together to make sure it all goes well.  I will be gone all day every day those days.
• My mom is back in the hospital again and wednesday is her 70th birthday and we are hoping she wont be in there on her big day.
• Thursday is our 4th anniversary and I just don't know when I will have time to celebrate with everything else going on.  We are going to try to go out to dinner - just us. 
• Next week we MOVE - again - because we just can't stand living in this apartment with the people below us on their balcony ALL the time smoking!  We can't open our windows and we feel trapped searching for air to breathe. And somehow even with the windows and doors closed there is smoke seeping into the apartment. Plus the neighbors above us are these tiny people so how come they sound like a herd of elephants when they are moving about up there?  Yeah we know that there will be some level of noise from above but wholy mackeral - It sounds like they wear lead shoes!!! So we are moving to the other side of the complex. To the third floor so at least there won't be the elephants above us and the corner that it sits on has a great breeze so it would blow any smoke that would happen to be in the area (unless it's a no breeze day - not likely since there's always a breeze here).  BUT to move again in less than 3 months... ugh!
• I also have to find time to get in my training walks because the 39.3 mile walk is just around the corner - July 7/8 and while I know I cannot do all 39 miles this year I plan on walking as much as possible.  My physical therapist says I should do 13/13 because I don't want to over work my knees (yeah did I mention that?) because if I do then I may have to have discussions of either cortizone shots OR surgery - NO THANKS! I think I'll take it easy while I walk.
• I am not stressing over my ability to walk in NYC in October - yet - because I believe that with the therapy I am getting and the time before then I'll be able to build up those muscles around my knees so that we can avoid the dreaded shots or surgery.  This is another story for another time.

Sooooo as you can see stress is enevitable.  AND these are just the things I listed - there's more.

GOAL this week: 0 GAIN, Stay OP, Try to find a peaceful moment to spend with hubby, BREATHE.

New week!

Ok so it's Monday and it's a new week and I am determined to make it happen!  Last week I weighed in and found a .4 gain and got so depressed I didn't even want to track it or anything - I just cried.  Why did I lose control over .4gain??? Geeeze.

So what did happen and why did I gain those ounces?  The only difference that I found is that I used my flex points - all of them!  So guess that won't happen again.  I will do a comparison this week and try not to use any of my flex points and see what happens.   Also I did realize that I had not been as active as I had previous weeks so that too could have an impact.

Planning is the hardest challenge I have right now. It's so difficult with our lifestyle to sit down and make a plan on what we will have the day before it happens.  I have never been the kind to sit and plan out an entire weeks worth of dinners (though I've tried believe me!)  Perhaps I should set a smaller scale of planning so that I don't sabbotage myself. hmmm Ok, so it's already 10:30am and I've had my usual breakfast (hey it's 3pts so I am good til noonish).  Now if I could figure out what to do about lunch and dinner then my first day is done right?  The trouble with planning is I often don't know what i am in the mood to eat.   Frankly my eating hasn't been too awful and I've actually stayed in my points range (ok target point).  Eating after 6pm might also add into factors of gaining.  So no more eating past 6.

Last night we went out to dinner to Marie Callenders and I really was hungry and craving something really gooy and good.  Instead I made a healthier choice with the Roasted Turkey and Basil dinner.  It was actually quite delicious.  Turkey, Broccoli and sliced tomatos with a basil tomato sauce (juice) dripped sparingly on top of the turkey.  There was only 3g of fat - though I have no idea of the caloric intake.  I guestimated according to the WW charts for turkey and gave myself 3pts.  Still not sure of the actual numbers for last night but at least I didn't eat the Chicken Fried Steak and mashed potatos! hahahah

Ok so that's my story and I'm sticking to it.

WL GOAL THIS WEEK:  2lbs
OTHER GOALS: MORE WATER - PLANNING - MORE ACTIVITY - NO FLEX POINTS!

Crazy week!

Wow What a crazy week it has been around here.  So much going on that I Haven't even thought about blogging.

Good news... I've dropped 2.4 lbs this week (YEAHHH!) and managed to steer clear of most of the cakes I've been baking.  Not so good for my husband - he hates all the cakes around here. haha  Bake and take as fast as I can.

Through Graduations and Memorial Weekend and 5 cakes this past week I made it.  Not only that but I have also finally successfully tracked my food intake the ENTIRE WEEK!!!!  I haven't missed a day in 8 days now.  Thats a  first for me since I usually give up after day 3 of tracking.  It's finally become a habit with me I think - at least I hope.

I'm still not drinking enough water - bad girl - but I do try hard.  I've just been too busy to think about it.  Today however my mouth felt like cotton... ugh... dehydration I am sure but thankfully my sister loads up on iced tea and that's where I was all day today.

Goal for next week - HYDRATE HYDRATE HYDRATE!