08/07/2007 20:40
Old Habits die hard
My old habits reared their ugly head today. I found myself in the kitchen staring into to the fridge, not thinking about anything but what I can pop into my mouth this second. I wanted to loose myself into the oblivion of stuffing myself. To eat and eat and eat. But, a miracle happened. Usually when this particulary habit comes out it takes me forever to come back from it. I mean like months. For some reason, I was able to stop myself after a piece of french bread with butter. I forced myself to do 30 min of cardio and now I feel so much better and in control. Hopefully its another week or two before I have the urge to binge again.
08/01/2007 17:18
I just dont understand me sometimes
So I have totally slacked on my ep blog, as you can tell. I dont know what it is that goes on in my mind. I was struggling so bad for that last few weeks. Then, something just clicked in my head, or my will power came back from its vacation, because now I am totally on track. I dont understand what it is that finally makes me have some control over myself. Or what changes to make me have this drive that I have right now. I wish I could figure it out so I can use it every time I fall flat on my face.
06/23/2007 14:06
another time
I am starting over again!! A new fresh start as of today. Forget the last couple of weeks where I have gained back half of what I have lost. My new goal is to loose 20 lbs by September 12. That is my daughters 5th birthday and it seems like a good amount of time to loose the weight, but will also push me to stay on the losing side. I am also going to give me little treats for every 5lbs. The first one is going to be to have my eyebrows waxed, I need that, so maybe I will push myself so I can get it done as soon as possible. Then for the next five lbs.........hmmm I dont know, I will have to think about it. When I think of something I will post them. If anybody has some ideas on that out in EP land I would love to have some suggestions.
06/20/2007 03:08
work out
I purchased an eliptical today. It gave me the best work out I have had in years and years. It felt so good to sweat like that. It felt as if I was sweating out all my frustration and bad thoughts. I feel so good right now. 
Finally I have something that will give me a decent work out. I had such a hard time working out before because of the impact on my knees and shins. Hopefully this will get me down to a weight where I will be able to run or something that has a higher impact on my legs. I found 3 pairs of pants in my closet that are brand new, they are just one size to small for me. I have so many clothes, but they are just a size or more smaller than I am. I cant wait to fit into them. Then I wont be stuck with 1 pair of jeans and a few shirts.
06/19/2007 20:22
B S
I weighed myself today and the scale said I gained 6 lbs. It hasnt even been a week since I last weighed. How the heck could I gain 6 lbs in 4 days? WTH???? I wanted to throw the darn thing through a window. 
