Back and Pregnant!

So, I realize this isn't really what this site is for, but I want to hold myself accountable during my pregnancy.  I am now 15.5 weeks along, and due February 15, 2009.

My last pregnancy started at 171 pounds, and I delivered at 206.  While the weight gain was at the top of the 'healthy range', I didn't feel healthy - at all.  I lost 30 pounds in the first 6 weeks postpartum, and managed to put it all back on plus 6 pounds 4 months postpartum.  

As of May of this year, I lost 28 pounds and was down to a fabulous 150 lbs.  I want to continue my healthy lifestyle and would love to get my body back right after this baby.

When I found out I was pregnant, I was 152.  I have gained 6 pounds in 15.5 weeks, which is less then 1/2 of what I gained at this point last time.  I believe I was 180 by now - and didn't workout once during that pregnancy.  So, I'm going to journal my food and my exercize daily.  I will also chart my weight gain and we'll see how it all goes!!

Emerging

 I keep leaving for long periods of time, but this time I'm returning with big accomplishments.  Though it seems to have taken me forever, I have lost 25.1 pounds.  I didn't think this would happen.  I never thought I would be a reasonable size again, and I've done it.  I have another 7 pounds to go, so I'm using this blog as my final push.

I made myself a calendar to track my food and exercize so I can look back and remind myself of how far I have come.  I have allowed myself to make mistakes, to splurge - but then return to my weightloss journey.  I have been far less hard on myself and refuse to take a perfectionist view because it's never gotten me where I want to go.

I know these next 7 pounds will probably be the hardest so far, but I'm committed this time and I'm ready to reach my goal and learn how to maintain!

Day 4

Man, one crummy dinner and I feel lethargic, tired and bummed out. I have such high expectations for food, and it seems to let me down every time! I expect it to fix my anxiety, calm me and make me happy. It never does. Weird. (sarcastic) Too bad I can't hold onto that truth when food is yelling at me to EAT, EAT, EAT! A positive attitude is the only thing that's going to get me to my goal. B: 1 hb egg, 1/2 cutie orange (my daughter stole the other half) S: strawberries, spoon peanut butter L: 1/2 veggie sandwich (lettuce, tomato, avocado) & fruit bowl S: 98% ff popcorn D: homemade pizza (oops....), can of coke (oops, but it was good) Exercise: 30 minute walk/run Water: I don't really remember. At least 7 glasses. Should be 9 by the time I'm in bed. Tomorrow morning at 8am I take the CBEST exam (4 hours in a stuffy classroom in a desk to small for my toosh..haha)- it will give me an emergency substitute teaching credential. I hate tests, they just stress me out. Everything in me tonight was 'plotting' to just give in tomorrow, not exercise and bring junky snacks. So, cross your fingers, tomorrow I'll be able to report getting out and being active, and eating well!! It's date night tomorrow for the hubby and I; We're going to Olive Garden. Gotta figure out what I can eat there and still enjoy myself. CAn't wait to go out with him, it's been too long.

Day 3

I was reading other's blogs and was encouraged today with the idea that our success is often based on our own attitude about ourselves. A negative attitude doesn't translate into weight loss. It's not until we love ourselves enough, and truly accept ourselves the way we are (regardless of our weight) that we can really stick to this all. I have to continue to remind myself of this. B: 1 hardboiled egg S1: cutie orange L: LC mac&cheese, apple S2: 1 minibag of 98& ff popcorn, cutie orange D: it was SO good! Rice with green curry sauce, sm. chx breast w/ red currry and tons of cauliflower and asperagus. S3: ~8 raspberries and 8 oz streamed soy milk Water: not so good. Only 6 glasses so far. I will drink another 2 tonight before bed Exersize: 30 min. walk (brisk w/ elevation) & 20 min. leisurly walk with stroller/groceries I realize I'm going to have to be patient. I'm a working mom. I don't have a hour to get to the gym. Well, that's not true, I just choose to spend the time my daughter is awake with her instead of working out. Tomorrow we'll go for a run together since I'm off. She has started to LOVE the strolller which is a welcome change :) Thanks so much to all that blog. It is an encouragment and powerful to learn from others.

Back with my tail bewteen my legs

I was doing so well this summer, I was down 14 pounds in 4 weeks. I threw the towel in and just 'had fun' for the rest of summer. Big bummer. At least I'm back. Just in time for Christmas. I figure it's only going to get harder the longer I wait to jump back on. I've gained 10 pounds back. Ugh. I've exercized 4 times in the last 5 months. Yikes. Food Journal (11.27) Breakfast: 1 hard boiled egg Snack: cutie orange Lunch: 1/2 instant lentil/curry soup Snack: big apple Dinner: homemade chili, 1/2 piece corn bread, salad Water: 8 glasses Food Journal (11.28) Breakfast: 1 hard boiled egg Snack: cutie orange Lunch: 1/2 LC Mac&Cheese Snack: cutie orange, apple, spoon of peanut butter Dinner: 3/4 of baked potatoe, 1 scoop chili, salad Water: 9 glasses Exercize: 30 minutes (20 running, 10 walking)

Been too long

I'm finally settled, well, for the next 3 days anyways. I've been on the move from L.A. to the Bay Area and it's been crazy. First stayed with the in-laws, then moved to my parents, and my husband moved up to WA on Monday and I'll be meeting him on Saturday. In the midst of it all, however, I somehow managed to lose 3.8 pounds. It's beyond me, I have no idea how it happened. I was moving boxes and whatnot, but there was no official exercize that happened that week. I ate some pizza, some icecream and fast food, but I was extremely careful with portion control. Guess it worked?! I've now lost a little over 14 pounds. I have 3 more to go until I've lost my 10%....if I'm really lucky, maybe by next week!! I'm trying to find a Weight Watchers near the town I'm living in in Washington, but its looking like I'm going to have to go into Canada for meetings. No biggy except I don't want to deal with border traffic for one 30 minute meeting, but I know it will be worth it to stay on track. I'm trying not to look at summer as a vacation, because that's exactly when I start giving in to temptation. Anyways, I'm exhausted, I'm going to take nap now that my baby is in bed. OH! And anyone (if anyone) remembers me talking about my mom's surgery....the restults are CANCER FREE!!! I'm over the moon, and just so thankful for my mom's health!

Admit it and move on

Yesterday evening I was so revenous I went and bought a KFC chicken sandwhich. That was legit, only 6 points and I had 8 left. Then I went on to eat about 10 pts worth of garlic bread and probably another 10 pts worth of some INCREDIBLE brownie torte thing I made for a friend...mistake number one, making some for my hubby and leaving it in the house. DUH?! I just have to get it out in the open, admit it and start fresh today! Hope you're all having a great tuesday!

Drum roll please.....

down 3.8lbs at the official WI today!!! Then I came home and ate 4 reese's peanut butter cups...YAwell. I haven't had any real treats in 2 weeks, and I will still make my points for the day. HA! What a reward?!

Slowly...and maybe not so surely?

Tomorrow is WI. If I lose one pound, I'll be lucky. I have stuck to my points, and haven't used any flex points, but I only exercized twice this week. It was a week of big accomplishments even if it probably won't show up on the scale. On several occassions I had to eat 'junk', we were with friends, or out and had not choice. In every other circumstance I used to throw in the towel as soon as something bad hit my mouth and gave my self liberty to continue to fork in junk for the rest of the day.. a LOT of junk. I realize yesterday after I ate a polish dog, that I wasn't tempted to get soda, or fries or dessert. I was more then satisfied with my dog and walked away within my points range. I'm realizing that I (at times) have the ability to welcome moderation into my lifestyle and not constantly throw in the towel and say 'I'll start fresh tomorrow' Now that I have my baby, I realize the weight isn't going to fall off, so I need to be satisified with any loss, and not give up with a gain. Ultimately, no matter how bad I do OP, it will be better then going off plan where I can pack on the pounds like you wouldn't believe. Next week is going to be hard. We move on Friday morning. I'm so incredibly sad about leaving our friends, and was looking forward to spending time with them this weekend until I got a raging case of pink eye. We are going to be crazy busy packing up and hopefully, hopefully spending time with friends. Once we get to the Bay Area we are staying with my in-laws for 3 nights, and then my husband moves the rest of our stuff up to WA while I stay in the Bay to take care of my mom for the week because she is having major surgery. I don't know how much time I'll have to exercize because I'll be doing the cooking/cleaning/shopping/caretaking ontop of taking care of my baby. I'll keep bloggin to keep myself on track. I think I'm gearing up to just maintain at this point for the next 2 weeks until I'm settled in WA with my family and can get back on track. I hope everyone has had an enjoyable weekend, and I'm looking forward to reading all about them!

Getting Tougher

I'm only 16 days into WW, and it's starting to get tough. Every time I start a diet, I realize how much I depend on food to stuff my emotions. I was home a month ago visiting my parents, and my mom was feeling under the weather, but there was no concern. When she continued to feel this way 2 weeks later they began to run tests, and low and behold they have found two masses. I'm freaking out (to say the least) and I'm finding it increasingly more difficult to keep myself from eating my way through it. In the midst of a move, my husband trying to find a job, a sick baby, I feel like I'm going to lose my handle on my weight loss. At the same time, it feels good to have control over SOMETHING in my life when everything else feels like it is so out of my hands. My mom is going into surgery in the next several days. I just have to keep a level head, and know that what's absolutely best is to keep myself healthy and well taken care of. It's going to get me nowhere to let go at this point and give up. I'll only feel guilty, tired and worn out (and have to lose MORE weight later on when I try again!?) I had my husband hide the scale. I'm sick of stepping on it and obsessing over what it tells me. I'm sticking to my eating plan and working out as much as I can, and that's all I can do. Thanks again to those that continue to encourage and hold me accountable.