Getting Tougher
I'm only 16 days into WW, and it's starting to get tough. Every time I start a diet, I realize how much I depend on food to stuff my emotions. I was home a month ago visiting my parents, and my mom was feeling under the weather, but there was no concern. When she continued to feel this way 2 weeks later they began to run tests, and low and behold they have found two masses. I'm freaking out (to say the least) and I'm finding it increasingly more difficult to keep myself from eating my way through it. In the midst of a move, my husband trying to find a job, a sick baby, I feel like I'm going to lose my handle on my weight loss. At the same time, it feels good to have control over SOMETHING in my life when everything else feels like it is so out of my hands. My mom is going into surgery in the next several days. I just have to keep a level head, and know that what's absolutely best is to keep myself healthy and well taken care of. It's going to get me nowhere to let go at this point and give up. I'll only feel guilty, tired and worn out (and have to lose MORE weight later on when I try again!?) I had my husband hide the scale. I'm sick of stepping on it and obsessing over what it tells me. I'm sticking to my eating plan and working out as much as I can, and that's all I can do. Thanks again to those that continue to encourage and hold me accountable.