So, the next 12 days are crutial to me. Crutial to my plan. You see, there are only 12 days left in my challenge and I can't wait to see what I end up with as my 45 day total.
For the next 12 days, I plan on only eating within my points every day (yes...this includes Saturday where I may add some flexies but will not have the feast that I usually have). I will get all my dairy....all my water....my vitamin....I will have 12 perfect days. I know I can do this. The final result will be sweet. I believe I am at a 5 pound loss at this time in 33 days. That is totally a miracle for me. lol. But these next 12 days will be the final part of this road. After that, I will take some time off from having a specific challenge and just do my normal thing (still OP of course) and then see what I want to do starting on May 1. :)
I hope you are all having a beautiful day like we are today in So Cal. I think it is about 78 and purdy!!
So I just realized that I have not blogged in almost 5 days!! Since WI, I think. lol. Well, that is not like me!!
Reality is that nothing exciting is going on in my life that I want to share!! KIDDING.
I had 2 smileyfaceless days on my chart on Saturday and Sunday. Sunday was my 2 year anniversary with my boyfriend , Mr. BoBerry. We spent the entire day with another couple we are friends with who share the same anniversary date. We had lunch in Laguna at a great Mexican restaurant called Coyote Grill in South Laguna. What a great meal!! I had chicken tacos and chips and salsa!! Soooooooo good. :) Our friends made us a great meal for dinner and it was just a great day all around. Even though I did not journal those two days, hence the NO smiley faces, I walked around the mall for hours on Friday with Brat and Smokin, ran on Saturday morning to make up for not getting my run on Friday night, walked around the mall on Saturday with another girlfriend for a bit. Went to another mall (had to look for specific things...hence the trips to the multiple malls...lol) and walked around there for 2 hours and then Sunday walked around Laguna for a few hours as well as Babies R' Us (they are having a munchkin) for another hour at least. Did you take notes on that? There will be a test later........
So even though I did not get my smiley faces, that is only 3 out of 30 days. That is 10%. Still an A if I were in school. 90%. :)
So today is day 30...only 15 more days left of my challenge and 15 more days before I leave to Vegas. I can't wait to get there. I am so excited.
Well, nothing interesting going on tonight besides the fact that they opened a friggen GOLDEN SPOON in the parking lot which is in walking distance from my house. Have not figured out if that is bad or good yet!! That remains to be seen. And if you don't know what a Golden Spoon is...it is really good frozen yogurt that is 17 calories per ounce. And it is goooooooood stuff maynard!!!
Time to clock out for the day and go home. Going to run and then Mr. BoBerry and I are going to take Baby Bo Berry and we are going to get some dinner. I don't want him to have to cook while his back is hurting. So Yeay. :)
Talk to you all soon. Promise I will not let this long go by without blogging. As if anyone reads my blog anyway.....who the F and I apologizing to anyway....lol. ;)
So I went to WI and guess what?? I was greeted by a nice, pleasant WHAT THE F(*%^(@^&CK HOLY kinda crap is that GAIN of .4. Totally undeserved!!! lol.
HOWEVER, unlike LAST time I had a .4 gain...and went into a 2 week tail spin, I am enjoying my free day and then tomorrow on the train I go!! lol
I got in my make up exercise today and it was the bare minimum but I did it. Another happy face for me!! YEAY
I still know I RULE and that I will have a kicking loss. About 10 days before TOM I tend to have a icky bloaty gain so I am really believeing that is the culpret. :)
So there I was with SlyFox and my new friend Hottie Miss S and we were at the mall. Trying on clothes. I have not done this in a long time.
After calculating that I have lost 12.2 since the beginning of the year...and knowing that I am going to add to that total tomorrow, I felt good....confident about going and trying on clothes for my trip to Vegas.
Well....good and bad happened.
Good? I found the best pair of black poly pants that I totally love and fit me great...like a glove actually. Size 12. And I am happy that I made that purchase.
Bad? I still realized that I have a loooooooong way to go. I still have stubby chubby legs, some rolls that are going to get smaller and that I am between a size 12 and 14 which is always fun...beging in between. lol.
Clothes shopping is fun but always brings back memories of when I was younger and overweight....how I would cry in the dressing rooms with my mother who told me it would be okay (bad). It also reminds me of the last time I stepped foot into a Lane Bryant after trying on the smallest size and realizing that it swam on me (good). It also makes me happy that I can shop in Ann Taylor, Banana Republic and other 'normal' stores that I could barely slip one leg in to their clothing....and now I can always find my size.
So today was both challenging and rewarding at the same time.
And it did not hurt to have great company!!
Onward and Downward.....looking forward to seeing the scale in the morning.....
Honestly? I don't have much to write about. I am over half way done with my challenge and I have to tell you that everyday it gets easier!! lol.
Everyday that I don't drink Diet Coke? It gets easier. Every day I don't have my 3 point ice cream and have 2 cups of milk instead? It gets easier. Everyday I get home, get right in my gym clothes and get on The Judge? It gets easier. I have even started to think about what I want to do for my next challenge. What is funny is that this challenge is something that is only for 45 days. But I don't know what will happen when I don't have this list of guidelines that I have had for, well...funny enough, over 21 days!! lol. There is that old addage (sp??...when are they getting friggen spell check on here??? lol) that says that if you do anything for 21 days it becomes a habit. I am on day 23. And these things all just feel like part of who I am. lol.
So in pondering my next challenge I have to say that I know some changes that I am going to make. First of all, I am going to give myself 2 dessert days. One for something sinful and one for if I want an ice cream bar OR Golden Spoon or something. I think that is something that I could actually maintain for a lifetime without even thinking about it. So that is good. The other thing I am going to do is add strength training and start firming up some of these muscles that are going to start coming out soon. Bones have already started appearing....so muscles are bound to follow. lol. I don' t know how I am going to fit that in, really. I only want to do 10 minutes or so, 3 days a week......and so I am considering doing it either right after The Judge OR in the morning first thing. The reason it may be good after the treaddy is that my muscles will be warm. But in the morning it may be a good start to my day. However, I have my son every other week....so perhaps the weeks I don't have him, I will do it at night...because that is when I have more time. And when I do have him, I will do it in the morning before we both get ready. I am just rolling these things around to see what my new challenge will be.
But for now...I will focus on where I am at right now...and how much I can accomplish in the next 22 days. lol.
And I have to admit that having my dinners with Roadrash and Slyfox help keep me on track. I am best when I have to be accountable to someone other than myself. So it is nice to have my dinners with you!!!!
That's all for today. Sorry it was not more interesting. lol.
I posted this on WW.com too but I had to post it here cause it was HUGE to me. lol.
You know how sometimes you know your will...your strength...is being tested?? Well, today's test, ladies, came in the form of 3 extra large Kirkland (Yes....Costco) brand hot, steaming pepperoni and veggie cheezy gooey pizzas. I walked out of my office only to be ASSAULTED by the smell of the 18 points per slice (3 pizzas times 10 slices per equals a total of 30 slices...@ 18 points per totalling 540 points <only 22 days worth of poings for me> of yummy) deliciousness that is Costco Pizza. A loan rep came in to tell us about her products and she brought these monsters. When I was walking by them, I had to roll my eyes...the scent...it was like heaven. And my co-workers all know what I am doing....eating my LC everyday, etc....so they told me to just take a day off....one slice won't hurt you. Your cheat day is Saturday?? Make it today. Etc. Etc. Etc. And you know what I said???
No. NO. N-O.
My resolve is strong. Karrie? 1. Pizza? 0!!! YES!!! (hehe Jen....I am with you!!! lol)
So I am still fighting. I figured out that I have lost 12.2 pounds in 10 weeks. I am proud of that. It is an average of 1.22 per week solidly and that feels amazing. :)
Well, off to go get on The Judge for my long run today. UGH!! lol. I will survive!!! lol.
Just got done with a run that was SUPPOSED to be a walk because I just ate but I swear, I can't stop these feet!!! They wannna run!!! (lol....Roo!!) So I did 2.3 miles....36 minutes...1 minute run/1 minute walk!!! YEAY
Tonight I had dinner with two of my fave EPers...brat and lala. :) We had a great dinner as usual...talked about our issues...eating...weight loss....motivation....and all of the other things that come with the journey and we got on the subject of self talk (shut up PAULA!!!! lol).
I don't think we realize how much we beat up on ourselves internally. I have known lala a long time and pointed out to her that she is one of the worst offenders I know!!! lol. The truth is that we are our own worst critics. And if you recorded the internal monologue that we have with ourselves and played it for others, they would be appauled at how we speak to ourselves. I guess my point is, when you are saying negative things to yourself, stop and think....would I say this to a friend??? If the answer is no....then why would we say it to ourselves?? Are we that lacking of worth that we have the right to put on the mental boxing gloves and go 10 rounds because we had too much *fillintheblank"?? Does it make us bad people because sometimes we just make bad food choices?? Uh...no. Bad people kick dogs.....they don't eat chocolate cake!!! lol. So I just wanted to touch on that subject.
We are not bad people worthy of an internal beating just because of eating foods that we believe we should not eat. We are not a number on a scale. So people, be kind to yourself. If you notice, I really try not to call myself things that I hear others call themselves all the time.... fat.... bad.... stupid... etc. And I see that all the time here. I see things like, "I am so fat" "I am so stupid for eating that" "I have been baaaaaaad today". lol.
Wouldn't it behoove us to say, "I am not where I want to be" "I will make a better choice next time" or "today was an off day for me". Would you call your best friend fat, stupid or say that they are bad people when they eat pie???
Last night on the treadmill, I did 2.63 miles, 40 minutes. And the strangest thing happened...I could have probably gone another 2.63 miles without thinking about it!!!! I don't know if I was just lost in thought or day dreaming but it just seemed a mile was done in no time flat. You KNOW there are some days when getting just 30 minutes in seems like torture! But yesterday I thought I might turn into Forest Gump and just run across the country!!
Exercise is my crack. I don't want to do it but I have to. It feeds something in me. Something about the feeling of getting it done....being finished and feeling that sweat run down my spine....reaching my hand around to my back and feeling the pool of sweat in the small of it. Something about my straggling hairs from my pony tail sticking to the back of my neck. Something about the sweat dripping down my chin. Something about my arms between my wrist and elbow being covered with the shiny gloss of a good run....it is something that you can't explain.
Yes...there are days when I walk in the door and just want to flop on the couch, watch mindless TV and not have to do anything when I get home. But that will get me back to where I started. And like the saying goes, "If you do what you have always done, then you will get what you have always gotten"
Having the commitment at the beginning of the year to make this a habit is probably the best thing that I could have done for myself. I sat around and did WW for 6 months with no exercise. And you know what I got? No results. lol. So there is obviously a direct correlation, don't you think??
I am finally creating the body that I have always wanted. I am goign to have to add some strength training to get some toning in. I have free weights and if I added 10 minutes to my workout per day...and worked on some of my problem areas, that would be a good idea. So I am going to make that part of my next challenge that will start after this one....and after my trip to Vegas. SO I should start that around April 16th. :)
Today is a good day. Another day to get things right. I see more and more smiley faces on my calendar. I see that I am almost half way through the challenge. I see that I am on day 21 already. And I have to smile and I stare at this screen and read throught the thoughts of my progress. And I feel good and warm fuzzies.
Now the time is starting to fly...day 20 so soon?? lol
Well, today is another day.Another day to get it right.And I plan on it!! I look over there----------> and see all of those smiley faces on my chart...and my loss on Saturday and I feel so good!!
I feel like a million bucks.
I look in the mirror and still don’t see quite what I want to see but what I do see are parts of my body getting smaller…..bones surfacing that I have not seen in a LONG time (Saw the ole clavical last week…..I am sure my kneecaps are next…lol), parts of me changing and adjusting. So those things are all steps in the right direction.
And yesterday, I gave up my favorite pair of jeans.They are too big for me now and as much as I love them, I have to give them up. * sigh * I even had the suggestion of a bon fire (thanks Donna!! Lol).And today I put on all of my other pair of jeans….the ones that fit anyway (I have some that I have yet to get into just waiting for me…in about another 10 pounds….) and got rid of a few more pair.The pair I am wearing today are also seeing their last day on me.It is my other pair of 16s. I am not a 16 anymore…and so I am ridding my closet of them.Not to say that there is anything wrong with a size 16….I remember being a 24 and COVETING a 16.It is just not where I am at any longer.I am on the 12/14 border right now.So I am going to give a bunch of clothes to a good cause (Peggy!!I have some clothes for you at the Dawg!!!Lol.)
Today is another good daywhere I feel like I am in control.
It is day 20 already…almost half way there.I can’t even believe how quickly it is going!This has not been that bad and the results have been amazing.I am on target the whole week and I get to have anything I want on Saturdays as long as it is counted and logged.This weekend, my high point day was not bad at all…and I am pleased.
Well, I think that is just about all for me today.I am feeling great and hope that everyone is doing well today!
So...how do you know when I am excited?? Well, I will give you a hint. It involves LOTS OF CAPITAL LETTERS....lots of (@^%@ punctuation and lots of run on sentences......
What's 1 plus 1 plus 1 plus .8???? MY LOSS FOR THIS FREAKING WEEK!!! 3.8!!!!!!!!!
I got on the scale. I looked down and there I saw it. The coveted...desired...and hard worked for 179.8!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I cried. I swear!! lol.
So I am past my 'plateau' (floating around 182....)and I am in a new decade. And I am excited as hell!!
Thanks for your support!!! I will check back in soon!! But I just had to let you all know. I. Am. Stoaked.
