Sobering moments.....
Tonight I was watching Discovery Health Channel and there was a show on about an obesity clinic that has 75 of the most obese patients in the country.
As I looked at the bodies of these people...the people that suffer from the same disease that I do....compulsive overeating....I realize how much of the battle I have won. I am not saying anything negative in any way about the people that I was seeing on the show. I can only imagine what it is like to be in a clinic that is your last hope because there is a tumor on your leg that is life threatening, but you still are ordering take-out that is being sneeked into the clinic. I can only imagine being 750 pounds and not even being able to get out of a bed without basically what looks like a crane.
As I watched this show, it made me realize that although I struggle with this every day...and probably will for the rest of my life.....it made me see how much I am winning this battle. Today, I got on the scale and weighed 204.7...that is exactly 10 pounds that I have lost since July 11th. And although it is the same weight that I have lost before...I am making effort to continue the battle every day. And I am proud of my 5 pounds a month.
I realize that I am ABLE to get up in the morning and get on a treadmill and do a workout where I am jogging whereas there are people that can't even get out of bed. I realize that I don't eat out a lot and I am doing things to make the better choices for my home. I realize that even though this is hard, that I can do it.
Again, I am not saying anything about morbidly obese people. We all struggle with degrees of this issue. Even people who are underweight deal with the same connection to food...either too much, or lack thereof.....it is about control. It is still the same addiction.
I am not sure what the point of this post is other than to be thankful that I am able to get up every morning, put on gym clothes, get on the treadmill, take a shower and go to work. I am winning this battle more than I realize sometimes and I have to remember that always. And it is a good feeling.....but my heart just aches and goes out to the people I saw on this show. I feel their pain so much....
Onward & Downward
Karrie