What lies before us and what lies behind us are small matters compared to what lies within us.
Well, TOM finally came 2 weeks late. I swear, I was a bloaty mess for the last 21 days and that has been torture. I knew I was not pregnant so I was not worried about that. I was just frustrated at the bloat monster that I was for that time. But TOM started, like I said, and I am down on the scale today by quite a bit. I also did not eat my way through the weekend and that helped a lot. I counted my calories this weekend which is something that I have not done in a while because they have been really bad.
So there are a few steps in the right direction.
The thing that I know is that whether I make good or not so good choices in any given day...that day will still pass. Sometimes there are things that overwhelm us. But still, I have the choice to make the right decisions. I am still down from where I started in January....so things are getting better. And with the loss that I should have this week, that will just motivate me even more. I am just glad that my body can get back to normal again.
Things in my life are very overwhelming right now. I am going through a rough patch financially (more so than I think I have ever been) and we have to sell our home. I know that this too shall pass. But in the middle of that, I am planning a wedding (thank god for the loving man in my life to get through all of this with!!) that I have to try to find a way to pay for. I know that it will all work out in the end. Things in my life always do for some strange reason. But right now I am overwhelmed. I am thankful that I am not eating my way through it. The exercise helps for sure. This weekend I did deep cleaning of our house to get it ready to show so that was theraputic. I got rid of a lot of junk just hanging around. So it is kind of like a new beginning....a fresh start. So that felt good. There is not much I have left to do now so that feels good.
This journey of life is something that has so many ups and downs.
I have been doing this now for about 2 months and I have lost a grand total of 6 pounds BUT I have LOST. So I have to not rake myself over the coals because I am not perfect. I have to constantly remind myself that this is a road...and there are going to be bumps and trials. So I have to just do what I can to get through them and come out the other side. And my health can not suffer for it. When something is going on in my life that is stressful, I am the first thing that I let go. That has to stop. Today.
Today is a good day so far for eating. This weekend was much better as I said so now I can just continue on. It is hard. But isn't anything worth having something that you have to work for??
And I will leave you with this. This video is a bit long but it is something that helped me a lot today. Perhaps someone else struggling will watch this and get out of it what I did. Live for today because you do NOT know what tomorrow brings.