Yes. It really is me......
Is it really the end of August already? Man...that means that Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas holiday time will be here before we know it. The time just flies.
I am sitting here eating some microwave popcorn and I have my 60 ounce mug that I just refilled (go me) and so I thought, "Gee...it has been a looooooooong time since my last blog"....so here I am.....giving ya'll an update.
As you can see from my weight chart....which I have updated to reflect my WI of last Tuesday, I have gained a little bit.....20 pounds to be exact....from the last time I posted my weight in May.
Wow.
Isn't it amazing how hard it is to get off one little teeeeeensy pound and yet....it takes no time flat to put back on 20. 3.5 months to be exact. 3.5 months of not wanting to think about anything that is food or exercise related.....3.5 months of not counting a single point, calorie, gram of fat or how many times a day I am eating. Go me.
Well, a lot of good that did me, right? So here I am. But today, I have come back to you with a slight change in attitude. There are things I will no longer do.....like, for example, eat low fat or fat free products (except for milk). I find that deprivation is NOT the right thing for me. lol. I get wound up reeeeeeeeally tight and then BAM...the out of control monster is in the HOUSE!! lol.
I have also learned that not getting on the treadmill is a baaaaaad thing (thanks Linda for pointing that out!!). Something that I have to become one with is the fact that exercise is for HEALTH and not for just when you are on a 'diet'. Yep, ladies and gentlemen....you heard it here first!! lol. :) Exercise is something I will have to do for the rest of my freaking life. *sigh*. So sad but true.
So that leads me to where I am now......I am not doing one particular thing that is going to magically make it all disappear. I am doing a program that is perfect and right for me. I am combining all of my knowledge of points and calories and just taking the approach of weighing in every week AND making sure that the scale goes in the downward direction each time. That is my goal. Losing weekly. Even if it is .2 pounds. The fact of the matter is that I know what I need to eat on a daily basis....what the quantity of food and what kind of food.....that gets the scale to move down. It is not some low carb, fat free, food free....taste free....formula. It is about quantity. I am a quantity girl. So there is the fact. When I cut down the quantity, the weight comes off....and pretty effortless at that.
There is no time like the present to get back on the main drag. I have never left the road....I just took a pretty detour and traveled to the same place in a roundabout way. lol. That is the thing about me, though....I always end up back on the road again.....
200 pounds is my kill switch...that is the place where I say enough is enough. I wish that this time I had corrected the problem sooner....but I did not. So now I am back here again and have to start from the start. I have my first WI tomorrow so I will let everyone know how it goes.
But the other thing I am finding is that I have learned a little thing about obsession. When you constantly think about, write about, talk about something......it can hinder you from getting to your destination. When you so heavily wrap yourself up in being fat and what it takes to be fat or not be fat...or what to eat or not to eat every second of the day......I find that is part of my problem. See, skinny people don't obsess about, write about, think about food...every second of the day like we do. So wouldn't it make sense to emulate them a little bit and see if that works??? So although I will continue to share with you during this wonderful time of being on the road....it probably won't be as often.....just because for me....I really need to not focus so heavily on every bite, lick and taste that I put in my mouth....and I just need to focus on being healthy, happy and lean. :)
Thanks for listening as always!!! :)
xoxoKBB
