How did it go, you ask??? Confessions and my true plan
Well, it didn't go at all, actually. 
At least not on Saturday. Again, it is me with my bruital honesty. lol.
I am usually a person of my word...but I have not been able to keep my word to myself, let alone to anyone else. However, after reading an article in People over the weekend....where one girl in particular lost her weight on WW, on her 5th try.....I feel ready to do this. Now.
SO here is my confession, and my plan. :)
Saturday...I did exercise (good girl!!!). I ran 2 miles and did an uphill walk for the last .75 miles. So I did almost 3 miles. And then I wen to the baseball game. I had some Mexican before the game and then some Cracker Jacks at the game. Along with a little ice cream that I shared with my honey. Not too bad overall.
Sunday was mother's day. Went to my moms where I had some bacon, a bagle and a half, with light cream cheese, and some fruit. Then to lunch and had some buffalo wings and french fries. And some of my son's fish and chips. Ended the day with Golden Spoon with some reece's pb cups on it. Just 2 small scoops.
Was it not so hot? Yes. HOWEVER, it really wasn't that bad, when I look at it.
So now that the confession part is over, on to what I AM doing.
OP May. Starting today. lol. Yeah...I was supposed to start on Saturday BUT it did not happen. HOWEVER, it is happening today. SO, what does this mean? I will follow Weight Watchers. As it is set out. Count points, exercise, water. Simple. It sounds so simple but it takes everything that I am am right now to get on track. I had a good breakfast today.....and I am drinking my water. Eating my LC pizza...it is so good, actually. lol. And then, tonight, I will go home and exercise.
I remember how it felt when I first started WW and truly had that burning desire to lose weight. I am looking into myself to rekindle that fire. At this point, almost 4 years later, it seems like such a daunting task to just do the basics. But I know that if I just do the basics....and I am honest about what I eat.....then I will get on track. I will get the pounds off that I lost before Vegas and go into VFT (Virgin Fat Territory)
You see, I think I finally figured out something important. I need to motivate MYSELF. I can not depend on a certain event or something to motivate me to do well for a certain period of time....only to follow that period of time with gorging and gaining. What is the point of that?? But that is what I have done recently. Now, if I just follow the program the way it is designed....as I used to do....and exercise...and don't do anything extreme....just do what I am supposed to do, then I know the results I will get. And yet, I resist that. I have planned gorging days. Days where I have allowed myself to eat whatever I want and not count it. But you know what? That is not working for me anymore.
So back to the basics. Again. I have said this over and over and over again...but it is time to actually follow through.
And, to help with my honesty, I will blog my journal every day. Yep. You read right. If I know that I have to come here and put it out there to you guys, it will keep me more accountable. So every day I have to come here and log my food to you, the people in my blogiverse. :)
So there you have it. Today, so far so good. I know that the only way out, is up. :)
xoxo and thanks for your support. You all mean a lot to me and I love that I have my sanctuary to come to where I can talk about this stuff, not feel guilty for my sins, wash them away and start clean. Thank you all for being here. :)
Onward and downward
xoxoKBB
