Yes...there are 4 bagels in the title because that is what I have eaten today. Don't ask me why or try to get me to explain but all I have really wanted all day were bagles. 1 everything, 2 whole wheat and a raisin one. Only one had cream cheese (light....like that matters but anyway....).
The only other food that I have eaten today is an apple. And 2 cups of FF milk. Is it that bad? Not really. I mean, perhaps I am just craving carbs. It is not like the title was cookie cookie cookie cookie, right?? lol.
Tonight I will go home and get on the treadmill. And not for lack of fuel because all I have had today are bagels. lol. So can I consider this a carbo load??? lmao.
All joking aside, I am allowing myself a few more days to get this feeling of 'I don't give a shit' to remove itself from my house. And as of Saturday, I am going to be very clear with myself that I will follow WW as it is designed. NO designated 'cheat' day. I have to stay within my points. So if I use all of my flexies on the first day, then so be it. If I decide to spread them out a bit? Even better. The only way to reign it in is to take back the complete control.
The other change I am making is doing 4 days of exercise with an optional 5th day on the weekend if I want it. The truth of the matter is, I really want one night of the week to give myself an out. We are very active people. So if I want to go to dinner one night and not worry about it, then I want to be able to do that and not beat myself up over it.
Look, WW's works for me.....when I follow the program. And guess what? It is not working right now. You know why?? Because I am NOT following the program. Hmmmmm...do you think there is a direct correlation??? Yeah...I do. lol.
So here is the thing. I am allowing a few more days of this moderate freedom. Nothing too overboard of course, but no journaling, etc. I am exercising (yeay) and drinking my water (double yeay) but I am also drinking diet coke and not journaling (booooooo). So the plan is (and if you fail to plan, you plan to fail) that come Saturday, I am going to journal and be OP. I am not giving myself a timeframe BECAUSE what I find is that I am good up until the end of the timeframe and then I go HOGWILD...pun intended....and that is not working for me.
So I need to put myself back to day one. Only eat what I am able to journal and stay clear of everything else.
So for today, I will eat my bagels...and tonight at the movies I will have popcorn and redvines (after my run of course) and it will be okay and I will allow it with no guilt. But come Saturday.....the statr is fresh and new. I will follow the program, as it is designed, and finally get to where I want to be.....sooner rather than later. Whether I am on the program or off, time will pass...it is up to me to choose how I spend the time.
xoxo and I will not let almost a week go by again. Writing here keeps me honest and focused.
Thanks for listening to my ramblings. ONWARD AND DOWNWARD LADIES!!!
xoxoKBB
Posted By: agentinaction
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05/09/2007 20:24
Feet to the fire
Okay, we are going to hold your feet to the fire come Saturday! :) Bagels.....yummy.......you're making me hungry!!
I have a bagel loaded with cream cheese every once in awhile. Yummy!
I really hope you do get back on track Saturday. You've done incredibly well so far and I wouldn't want you to ruin your achievements. Please keep in touch through your blog - I miss you when you don't write.
Good luck to you with your new plan. I'm rooting for your success!
Enjoy your time until then! I'm proud that you are still doing your exercise and still drinking your water. It's not all or nothing. It's a lifetime of new habits. Sometimes we won't get them all right. And that's okay!
I was so glad to read your comment about how WWs works for you when you follow the program. I HATE to hear people say that this program or this one didn't work. Um, yes, it does. But you have to work at it too! So, you are not in denial and that's awesome. You are so sensible. I'm glad you're allowing yourself these days. And you & I both know that you will feel better come Saturday!
Ramble away. I love reading your posts. Oh, and sorry about my email this morning telling you to blog. I guess I should have checked my handy dandy Google reader first. My bad. Do you forgive me?
Here's something that might help you, before you put that bagel in your mouth, look at that size 8 dress. 4 bagels a day won't get you there. Carry that picture in your wallet if you need to and look at it before you order your food LOL. Just trying to help you get back on track because you are doing so well and I hate to see you go too far off track. We also miss you when you're not blogging, you're way too funny to be missing in action. Looking forward to seeing you get back on track on Saturday.
I myself, had a pity party last week, and gave myself the entire weekend off...and you know what? Since then...I have been strangely motivated. You can do this.
I believe in you! You have come so far now...and look at all the friends you've made here, myself included, who are cheering you on.
I cant wait to see you post a pic of yourself in the dress...because you will deserve it...and you will get there!!! (hugs)
In high school I dated a guy who worked in a bagel shop. The leftovers at the end of the day went in the trash or home with the employees. I blame him for my starting weight of 240.
Oh how I'd love a bagel. Hell, I'd love just a slice of bread right now.
Anyway, enjoy your few days of relative freedom because after Saturday we're all going to hold you to your plan!!!
We have all been there...our craving gets out of control and you can't stop because you feel like you are STARVING and you can not lose the STARVING feeling. They way to look at it is, tomorrow is another day and you will start over. I totally know what your feeling was when you said bagel bagel bagel. You were right too, at least it did not say cookie cookie cookie. You have done awesome so far...keep up the GREAT work!
