Ponderings of a lost girl.....
Yes. I know. It has been 5 loooooong days since I have written. My fans have been waiting. *insert ‘whatever’ eye roll here*. I know….I know….that’s a long time for me too. But it is just one of those things. Life. So strange how it plays with you sometimes. How it gets in the way of the things that matter. Like blogging. And eating right. lmao.
I had a great time in Vegas. Did not quite turn out how I wanted it to (there was a little drama with my friend who I have not seen in 13 years because his girlfriend was 12 <okay….24…but still a child in my book based on her behavior> and does not understand that we have not seen one another in 13. fing. years. But that’s another story). I did have fun nonetheless. Not withstanding this girl….I made the best of things. And hey, I was at my best friends house….got to see her kiddies for the weekend and that is always great!! And another set of friends were in town too so got to have dinner with them. So it was all good.
But really, now that my challenge was over, I went on a liiiiiiiittle bit of an eating frenzy. Lol. I mean, it is okay…because I know that I will reel it in sooner rather than later….sooner being by Saturday. Because, hey, I figure I already have a gain waiting for me at the scale on Saturday so since that is the case, why pull it in now, right? lol. Of course, this is fat girl logic at it’s best, isn’t it??? I know…I know…but the truth of the matter is that we are all fat girls in our mind even though our bodies are in some state of not reflecting who we USED to be…we still see our before picture…am I making sense?? Am I making someone mad? I hope not. Even when I hit 150 pounds…my goal…I will still be a fat girl in my head seeing the girl in the purple Grimace shirt (aka, me in my before picture…you know Grimace, right?? The big purple gumdrop looking guy in the old McDonald’s commercials???). ANYWAY……I digress. I have not gotten on the treadmill in a week. 7 days. That is not normal for me so I am feeling a little out of it. But. That. Stops. Today. I will get on The Judge when I get home for 40 minutes and get back to that NOW.
So the question is where do I go?? Where do I go now….where do I go……(insert Axle Rose moan here….). Mmmmmmmmmmm-oh….sorry. I burst into song sometimes….bad habit. lmao. What’s a girl to do? But seriously, what now? I lost 15 pounds in 3.5 months. Hard work. Determination. So I need to set up something new….a new goal. Yes…I have the dress and goal weight overall but I need something else. Something new to aspire to. I have a pair of jeans that I was in close to my lowest weight. So maybe that’s it?? I don’t know. I am feeling a little b-l-a-h. I need to get my mojo back. So I am working on that. SO one thing for sure, I am going to now focus on aspiring towards VFT. Yes, ladies, Virgin Fat Territory. I have not been there since 2004…my all time lowest of 170.8. So there is really no better time than now. As of when I left for my trip, it was about 8.something pounds away. But by the time I get on the scale, I am sure it will be more ….but probably not by much. So I am going to think about what I want to do for the next 30 days and what I want to accomplish.
And now, to get my friend Ang off of my back (hehe)….here are the 10 things I like about myself:
1. I am a fiercely loyal friend
2. I am a great and fun mother
3. I have long natural nails that look great with a French Manicure
4. I am a good runner
5. I like my hair (when I actually do it)
6. I have a great smile
7. Once I put my mind to something, there is no stopping me. I just have to put my mind to it. Lol.
8. I love unconditionally
9. I have a great shoe and purse collection
10. I know that deep down inside, I am good at the core of who I am.
Okay….there you go. Are you all happy now?? Hehe. I am happy to be back and to be feeling almost normal again. 5 days away….not again for a long time…..
Onward and downward!!!!
xoxoKBB