Confessions of a girl who just had a Golden Spoon open within walking distance
So I have to confess…..I have had Golden Spoon for the last 3 nights in a row. That means no smiley faces for me on my chart. Brat and I laughed and were excited at the prospect of a new Golden Spoon being so close to me. As a matter of fact, we had a plan, for a second, to camp out overnight the night before it opened so we could be the first customers. But then we realized that would be, well, silly. Lol. I have to admit, it has turned into my nemesis. I am sure I could be doing a lot worse damage. Actually, I know I could. With a small being only 3 points, and counting as a dairy with 20% calcium (yes…I checked), really, it is not so bad. So I did NOT go on any kind of binge at all yesterday. I am proud to say that I counted my points and ate within my totals for the day. That was a HUGE accomplishment in itself because I swore that at any moment, I was going to do some serious damage. But the damage that I did involved some GS frozen yogurt and a small amount of hot fudge for only 8 points….which I had left for the day in the first place because I did not eat a lot during the day and dinner was light. SO I counted, ate within my points and still had something to stave off the cravings of something really, really bad for me.
Before dinner, of course, I got on The Judge for 40 minutes and did a new pre-programmed workout. It was entitled “Jog”. Uh…..yeah. It could have been called, “When you do this workout you are going to feel like dying by the time you get to the middle of it but try to do everything you can to make it to the end”. Lol. It was hard and I did have to make some speed adjustments because when the incline hit 10 at a 3.5 pace, I was about to die. Lol. But I made it through so that is all good.
Today, I feel much more in control. That blog yesterday really helped me get a lot out of my mind and into the world….sometimes that just helps so much, you know?? Sometimes just putting your thoughts out there into the universe is a helpful thing. I am so happy that I can come here and have the freedom to say anything and everything, good, bad or ugly, regarding this journey and there are so many that understand me. I am sad to know that there are so many in my shoes. But, hell, if I am going to have to walk in them, then I may as well have company, right??
I would not wish this issue on my worst enemy. Feeling like I have to chain myself to this desk to keep from leaving and getting something that I should not be having. But it is a constant battle…struggle….it. is. hard. But I will not give up. I have 8 more days until I go to Vegas and I am proud to say that in the planning of this trip and during this challenge, I have lost 12 pounds and feel so great about that accomplishment. I do still have a way to go but I really believe in myself and my ability to do this. When I start my new challenge, it will be for only 30 days….a more manageable timeframe….and I will pick fewer and very specific things to focus on.
I hope you are all having a fabulous day!!
Onward and downward
Mmmmmmmuuuuuuuwwwwwwwaaaaaaaa! KBB