sad

I've lost a total of 35 pounds then gained 5 back.I'm upset right now and sad because my husband and I are argueing alot.It seems the more I lose and feel good about myself the more he feels threatened or something.I'm really feeling low right now.Just yesterday I was going walking and he asked me how much weight am I planning to lose he thinks I should stop now.Gosh I thought it was up to me how I wanted to look and feel.I want to get down to 150 and he is upset about that,so then I said well even if I can lose another pant size that would be great and he got mad.I don't know what to do and feel lately he is doing all he can to help me gain instead of lose weight.Has this happened to any one else and if so how did you handle it?

picture and short blog

Just a head shot but it still shows the 20 pound loss in my face,I didn't have a way to do a full body.My camera is acting retarded so this was a random picture that was taken of me by a friend recently and I got a copy.

I'll be getting camera fixed soon and will take full body pic when I lose 10 more pounds. I'm going back to work on Aug.18 and I'm a little nervous about my exercise routine be kept up but I'm focused on losing more and not slacking.It has been easy to stay on track during the summer cuz I was off work and could put all my energy into it but it's back to school job now and I'll have to stay strong and motivated. Oh and I'm also 1 pound away from being in ONEDERLAND!

OH MY GOSH

I have so far lost 20 pounds,seems like I've been here for 2 weeks now but thats ok because.........

I  went to wally world yesterday to get my meds and the pharmacy was  at lunch and closed sooo I had a little time to kill so I thought hmmm wonder what size pants I am now and I tried some different sizes on and I'm a 14 now! I use to be a 18,so wow that was really cool.I'm sure different brands will fit different but I don't care cuz I got my big butt in 14's and to me that is awesome and means even though my weight is at 20 pound lost still -heck it's all good cuz the inches are melting off.

So today I think hmm wonder how many inches I've lost and I got the measure tape out and ahhhh!The hard work has paid off indeed,I have lost 6 inches in my waist,6 inches in my hips and 5 inches in my chest.

Right now I'm feeling like my poo don't stink and I'm just to cool.

Of course I'm still wanting the scale to show progress too,I'm sooooooo close to ONEDERLAND and I want to see some more weight loss.So if anyone has suggestions on how to get that darn scale moving in the right direction I'm more than happy to take your advice,lol.

peace,love and weight loss to everyone.

depressed

I worked so hard and finally got to where I have lost 20 pounds and then in a space of 2 days I have gained 2 pounds back.I feel it's because my husband was off work and I didn't go walking maybe,he likes me to take the day off when he's on his off days..I know it's not TOM because I had a hysterectomy last year.Maybe I ate something wrong,I'm going to sit down and try to figure that one out.I just feel horrible that I went backwards.ugh!

6 week mark

Well today makes my 6 week mark on phen and exercise.

I have so far lost 16 pounds,I feel this is awesome but also feel like maybe it should have been a little more,I had hope for 20 at this point but I'm not to far off that right now so I'm staying positve. I am concerned that i have only 6 more weeks left to be on phen per doctor's order of thats all he will permit for some dumb reason.I hope that if I keep my routine up of walking everyday and exercising,eating right and drinking all the water I am will see me through to my goal weight.But I'd be lying if I said that no phen worries me a little,I even thought to try to get it some where else but have no clue where,I'll cross that bridge when I get there though.

I feel that for some reason everything is moving in slow motion all of a sudden though because my last weigh in was 6-25-08 and I was 209lbs and now I'm at 206lbs .Don't get me wrong I'm grateful for the 3 pounds but think still that it wasn't much.So someone please throw me something positive or suggestions about this.

Over all 16 pounds is great and I'm going to try for 20 more by the end of this next 6 weeks,thats my mini goal.That would put me at 36 pounds in 12 weeks,maybe it's possible.If i can lose that it will put me at the half way mark of my main goal and I will put a new pic up then.

So wish me luck for 20 more pounds in the next 6 weeks.

weigh in and measurements plus a little story

Well I weighed in today and I am 209lbs now so thats 13 pounds in 4 weeks. I'm down in a few measurements as well here are the 3 that I felt are the biggest changes in 4 weeks.

Chest: beginning was 51 now is 46

Waist: beginning was 46 now is 43

Hips : beginning was 50 now is 46

First of all I have to say that I think I messed up some by not eating much so I'm starting to graze and eat little mini meals through the day even if it's just a snack.I think my body thought it was starving and stopped and thats why I didn't lose much more than I did.I'm walking every day and I'm also going to start exercising in my living room to a work out tape,so we will see what that does.

So here's my story:

I was feeling pretty down this week because I felt like things were at a stand still and I was not losing much but after weighing today plus seeing some video's on youtube of someones weight loss success from the phen message board I feel more inspired now that I can do this.Not all of us lose weight the same way.I also feel that I have done good losing 13 pounds in 4 weeks because before I started phen I tried everything I could think of to lose weight and couldn't lose not 1 pound and thats been that way for the last 4 years.So I'm going to look at it in a more positive way and not let anyone bring me down.Which is wha I did this past weekend.My sis not meaning to I'm sure but asked me "So how much have you lost so far "and at that time it was only 11 pounds and she said"oh my gosh you should have lost alot more than that by now what are you doing ".Well I can tell you I took this so badly because inside my mind all I heard was what are you doing it all wrong and that I was failing.Now I have to say my sis is wonderful to me and I know in my heart she didn't mean to sound bad or negative so I don't hold ill feelings about the conversation.What it did make me realize though is how we all let other people pull us down in some form and that I let people have power over how I feel about myself and I'm sure alot of us are guilty of this.I know that I'm caring more weight than just physically so I now know that is something I have to lose too and I will.

I just want to look and feel healthy and I know I'm on my way now.

slow and steady

I have still been eating less and drinking water,I also have added a multi-vitamin as well.Every morning I have been walking at 6:15 am the park I go to there's alot of other walkers.I started out only 2 laps around which is 1 mile but today I made it 6 laps thats a whopping 3 miles.I wanted to try for 2 more but didn't want to push it and figure within another week I can add 2 more laps without it being such a shock on my poor out of shape body.As it was my body was screaming "hey lady are you crazy I'm not use to this much activity" and I meantally said shut up you can do it. I weighed today and that was a pleasant surprise because I lost 5 more pounds and inches as well.I'm fixing to turn on some kind of work out show on the tv and try to do this atleast 3 times a week,today being my first day.

This is my update and I hope everyone else is doing great in their efforts as well.

6 days on phen

I couldn't contain my self this morning so I weighed myself and I have lost 6 pounds,WOOHOO! I'm feeling great and over the weekend we cooked chicken breast on the grill and a veggie and I ate only half of my chicken and three bites of my veggie.This seems to be the norm now when I eat,I'm only eating half of the food and I'm using a smaller plate as well .I get full very quick .So here's my update.

Today is my first day on Phen

Today is my first day on phen and I also did my official weigh in today at 222 lbs but that number wasn't a surprise cuz I already knew I was at that number.But here I go on an adventure,I'm very excited about the prospect of finally losing weight and I also will be posting a picture of the me now  as soon as I get home tonight and get my daughter to take one for me.So if anyone has advice please feel free to give it because I am a newbie.Oh yeah I'm drinking lots of water too.