again

I really seem to have a hard time doing this.

the past week Dad has been in the hospital. I have been there alot. He had a triple bypass, valve repai and a mase procedure. Has to do with fixing a fibulation in his hert. He is doing very well. I just hope he will do the things they have told him to do at home.

This week for the Kickers thread we are to journal our food and cardio etc,

Yesterday I was op, drank all the water  and rode the r bike for 30 mins.

Today, so far, I have been op, did situps and good on the water.

Its time to go ride.

new day

I had a totally UN POP day. Well the only thing I got in op was breakfast.

Today is a new day though and I am op so far.

The current thread is ending tomarrow and so far for the 6 weeks I have only lost 2 lbs. I havent been doing things like I should. I have been ricing my R. bike though. Maybe it will show tomarrow. I sure dont have much energy. All I feel like doing is sitting at the computer. I have stuff I should do but  blah. I am cooking some op chicken and rice. I should make some oat apple bread for my pre work out meals. I just dont feel like doing it.

we change to regular time tonight. I think its all bassackwards. Oh well. Nothing I can do about it.

I have been thihnking of getting this computer room claened out and start painting. I think I want to figure out something that I could do, wedding wise, to sell on ebay.  I dont know.

well I better make myself do something.

hi

Day of week:Wed

Food:8:30 2 egg whites, 1/2c oeatmeal
11:30 2 ozs chicken, 1/2 banana
2:30 2 ozs chicken,apple
5:30 2ozs turkey patty/ bbq sauce,1/2c pineapple tidbits
10:15 yuk... bisick & graick

Water:64 ozs.....32 oz diet pop

Cardio:30 mins recum bike

Toning:little bit of upper body

Mental Outlook:I was doing pretty good all day.
Then about 7 I started havin cravings. Kevin
was working late and I should have just eaten
my meal and not waited for him. By the time he
got home I was starving and those bisicks
were too much.
This was part of a post toKim.

There have been times that I have not felt like posting.Once I went for almost a week. I just wasnt even trying to stay on plan and I felt like a hipocrite. But then I realized that this program is not for the social interaction its just for me to help me take better care of myself. I enjoy the friendship and no one is there to judge me. It really does seem to help me stay a little more focused. As long as I am trying to take better care of myself I'm doing good. I dont need to be the fastest loser, thank goodness. I have had the plan for almost 3 years. It has taken that long for me just to realize that this isnt a diet and that I have to eat differently if I want to be healthy. As long as I am trying, imperfect as I am most of the time, I am moving in the right direction. It took me 30 years to get this way. I am satisfied if I just keep at it. Even during the times I really messup, I know that I am eating better than I used to. Guess I'm more of a turtle than a jack rabbit and thats ok with me.
sorry for the rambling.
guess I needed to get that out.

2 days in a row

Day of week: tuesday

Food:8:30~2 egg whites,1/2c oatmeal~
11:45~2ozs chicken,1/2 c peas/carrots&1/2 cup pineapple tidbits~
2:45~1c turkey and rice,1/2c peas/carrots
5:30~ 2 ozs chicken, 1/4 banana
9:00~ 2oz turkey burger/bbq sauce,1/2c sweet potatoes, 1c cauliflower,
tomatoe wedges
1 bite of ice ick :[

Water:42ozs 11:00~84ozs 2:45~136oz 10:00  

Cardio:30 mins recum bike 

Toning:no

Mental Outlook:2:00 feeling pretty good today. Almost ready for lunch.
Been pop so far.
I decided to journal EVERYTHING. Ended up talking to D too long and when I called Dick he said I didnt need to come in. Just kinda played around on the computer. Went and got the check and cashed it. then picked up Kev at 7:00. He had fast food and I ate OP  :) when Kev wanted a shake I stuck a spoonfull in mymouth before I even realized what I was doing . wahhhhh
All in all though I had a great day. I havent been this OP for along time.

AWWWW

I have all these greast intentions and they never materialize.Gezzz I havent even posted in here for over a month. Teresa from the forum asked if I had posted and duh!!! I'm doing 2 kinds of journaling, now One on the forum and here. I really want to do this. I dont know why I dont. Part may be that I am such a slow typer and terrible speller. It takes forever for me to get anything posted. And I have to go through everything a hundred times to make sure everything is spelled right.Maybe I wont worry so much about it here.Just try to get things down.I think I want to really start to leanr the one stroke painting.

Here is the post from yesterday on the forum. I'm going to include em cause they will eventually go away when each challenge is done. aww man its not letting me copy gonna have to figure out something

Mental Outlook:I need to feel like I'm more accountable so I am going to post my daily stats and feelings every day. Maybe if I know that someone else is reading it I will be more apt to be OP. today was crazy. Getting Mom and Dads house ready for them to come home. Its weird how I didnt want them to go and now that they are coming home I feel bad that they couldnt stay. Kinda like maybe they are leaving something undone. Guess the Lord knows where he wants them.
I really want to get back into the program, like I was at the first.

Thats good for today

day 2

Well I have 2 days OP. I really struggled with dinner tonight. I fixed mashed potaoes with melted cheese over the top. Melted cheese is one of my favs. But I did it!!!!!

I volunteered for a job with the BTB forum. I need it to keep me involved. Party planner   hehehe  Guess I will learn to do a party one way or another.

I did my situps and crunches before I even got out of bed. That really seemed to work well. someday I will be able to do them on the floor but for now that would be impossible.I even got my sculpting and cardio done today.

I"M ON A ROLL!!!!!

back to basics

Well Its Monday and I had a great day.I was op all day. My meals were not exactly on time but I got them all in. It is so hard for me to remember to eat.

b...2 egg whites with lemon pepper;1/4 cup oatmeal w/ splenda

mms...2 ozs bbq chicken 1 sm apple

lunch...2 ozs bbq chicken, 1/2 cup white rice mixed together with op bbq sauce

mas...2 ozs chicken; 1 banana

dinner. 2 oz smokey chicken; small potato/with spray butter; beets

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no cardio or sculpting

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I really want to make these changes. I keep finding recipes that look so good and I want to try them but I never do. I just keep eating the same things and then I start craving ick things. I dont know how to make myself do the things I need to do. Like getting up early, my cardio,sculpting,eating on time, etc  ect ect

Hopefully this new Back to Basics challenge will get the spark going again. 

Kevin broke his wrist Saturday. He wanted me to call and see if the Dr would give him stronger lortab. she only gave him 5s. She said she wanted himto go see a ortho surgen if its hurting that bad. We cant afford that. She is suspose to send the exrays to the surgen and have him look at them. guess we'll see what happens. He should go back in 3-4 days to get a cast. There is just a splint on it now.

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      Well here it is September and I havent used this at all. I have been on vacation the last  2 1/2 weeks. I went back to cherokee NC with my parents and stayed there with them for a bit. I had lost 5 lbs but have now gained it back.

 I cant seem to get my head in the right place to start back OP. I have tried several times. I do pretty good untill dinner and then I blow it. I am going to start strong on Monday.

starting ANEW

I found this web site today as I was trying to renew my spark for the program. The last 3 weeks I have gradually lost intrest, in not only the program but in alot of things in my life. I can see now that I have been going through a period of depression. My DD has moved to Denver this past week and she is the first of 5 to move out of state. I have watched her 2 DD's since the first was 5 weeks old. It has felt like she was taking MY babies away.The last 3 days I have come to realize that life is going to go on and I cant expect them to stay here just for my sake. I'm sure that I will still have my bad days but I cant let this rule my life.

I have been on and off the program for almost 3 years now and I have never really done it right. I have always heard that you should journal everything about this journey. I have thought several times that I probably should but could never decide on a way to do it. As I was looking through some of the boards I came upon a topic in the General Discussion called .....I am a failure. This sparked some intrest because I am feeling like that also. As I was reading I came to a post from eyeofre. As I read she said something that hit home. She said " if you have one tiny slip, you haven't ruined the whole day! You've only ruined that bite! Stop being so hard on yourself"    Isnt it funny how somethings just kind hit you in just the right way.  She also had a link to this web site and I clicked on it to see just what it was and if she had any more wonderful tidbits I could gleam.

And so here I am and tomarrow I am beginning ANEW....  Not again but Anew as is trying some new tricks.