06/19/2010 21:50
What's the matter with me?
It's been 18 months since I have written in this journal and looking back at my previous posts about how I am in a strong place, I am still 100+ pounds over weight. In fact even after all my positive statments in 2009 I managed to gain another 10 pounds. I have been to 12 step meetings; thereapy, Jenny Craig, and Weight Watchers. I still continue to binge on cake candy and cookies and make poor choices for meals i.e. gavy and biscuits for breakfast. What will it take to get me to a better lifestyle of eating right and exercising. I am 56 years old and time is running out. Oh my.
01/27/2009 14:49
Oh well....
With the cinnabon crisis avoided a new one surfaced the next day. I wish I could say I triumphed but alas, I caved in. Two pieces of cake later, along with some chips, I am back to square one. I had almost reached my 60 days of eating sanely (it's called abstinence in the "group"). In reflection, I saw how I did NOT work the steps and hence walked right into trouble. Learning from my mistakes is half the battle.
Today is a new day and I am strong once again. I will find a meeting today and get a shot in the arm.
Peace and love
01/26/2009 00:29
A close call...
We went to see the manatees today at Blue Springs and on the way home I had a Cinnabon attack. We were going to pass two malls in which said delicacy was available to moi.
I was all set, mouth watered, (I was realing drooling) and ready to devour one Cinnabon. Oh I had the good logic and justification for it. I hadn't had anything like that in 8 weeks-- I deserved it. I would work it off. One wouldn't hurt me. I wanted it.
Dear husband of mine wouldn't stop and said I would thank him later. I didn't think he would live to see "later."
The "I'm just going to die if I don't get a Cinnabon" attack passed. By the time I reached home I was thankful that dear one didn't stop and indulge me. I did take a long nap though!
Peace and love
