I've been through some stuff for the past few weeks,and let me tell you, it was rough! I've been feeling like a zombie. I went to the ER and my blood pressure was sky high. It was like 170/110. Usually, my blood pressure is normal. My pulse would be 120-140. I felt like i was loosing my mind. I was having anxiety and panic attacks all day. Well today I feel great. I finally reached my goal of 255. My next goal is 250. I know I will be there in no time. Thank god for Xanax. I feel so much better.

My last blog I talked about my eyelash bugging me so bad that I felt sick. Well, guess what happened? My sugar dropped to 34. That is severely low. I was on Metformin, which I think was the cause. I take it for PCOS, but I dont have Diabetes. My doctors don't think I need it if I don't have Diabetes.But anyways, good thing my mom was here. I was suprised I wasn't in a coma or having seizures. My blood sugar is now back to normal, but body is on edge. I still feel shaky and I'm starting to get Panic Attacks because I'm scared this is going to happen again. I just want to know when am I going to feel back to normal?? I feel much better today, but I could feel better. God was really looking after me that day.

 I'm so upset right now. I have two eyelashes on my right top eyelid that are growing the wrong way towards my eye. It is so irritating that it makes me nausea. I felt emotional all day yesterday just crying because it was almost Christmas and my family is coming down from New Mexico and I didn't want to feel this uncomfortable. I cried all last night. I don't know why. I was acting like my life was going to end. I'm just so scared because I don't want to go to the eye doctor because they will be all up in my eye and scared of the procedures that they will do. And I also have eye problems already and I don't want to lose my vision. I lost my vision before and it was so difficult it brings back bad memories. I just want it fall out and leave me alone. I have eyedrops but there only temporary. I felt really good today until now. I guess I need to pray a little harder that everything will be ok. I'm just so terrified and scared that I wont get to the eye doctor in time. But I don't want to go. I'm just all messed up today. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.

Today is the first day of restarting the process all over again. I'm excited! I took the maintenance break and started to slip back to my old habits. I'm glad that I got to experience this, because now I know that if yous slip up just a little, the weight will defintely come back. So I will need to really stay close to the plan and not fall off.

 Now, I have finally reached the maintenance cycle of the my new lifestyle. I do this for two weeks. I'm so glad that I get to take a break and start eating more of the foods I like. I like all the food I ate on the plan, but now I can start enjoying more fruit. Actually, I kind of cheated yesterday and ate two breadsticks and rice and gravy with some fried food. (Pofolk's had an economic special. I couldn't turn it down!) But I lost 1.4 lbs!  So i can indulge a little a not  feel guilty. I'm so happy that I found this book! I finally learned how to crack the code to fatloss!

 Today is not going so good. My Thanksgiving was ok, but I ate too much and fell of my program. Now I have gain 4 lbs and don't know how to get off again. I'm scared that I went back to the way I use to eat. I have more cravings for carbs and I want to eat all the time. Before Thanksgiving I was fine. I hope my body has not gone back to bad eating habits and wants to eat everything in sight. Today is my carb up day and I don't know if I should start over just keep going from where I left off. I hope by Monday I'm back to where I need to be.

BEFORE: 283                                 AFTER: 264

                            140 LBS TO GO!               

 I kind of have a idea about making my  weight loss journey more exciting, by giving my self small goals to accomplish. I won't give myself a time limit, because I would never reach the goal and just quit. My first goal is to be 255, I would have to lose 14 lbs to go to reach that goal. The next goal I would try to be 250. Just 5lb weight loss at every goal. Which isn't too bad. I might can lose that in a week or two or three. It doesn't matter. I just would be happy to get there. I want to know if this is a good idea or if I'm getting my hopes up too high?

Thanks

 This is the most weight I l have lost ever before in my life and I'm so proud of myself. Starting from the beginning with Weight Watchers I only lost 4 lbs while on the diet and I was on it for awhile. I never feel deprived while eating. I still get to eat my cake, cookies, doughnuts, french fries, pizza and my absolute favorite is Chinese Food. I can eat like this for the rest of my life and I think everyone should. Having a treat every once in awhile is key to weight loss because it speeds up your metabolism. And your body wont get adapted to what your always eating. That is why people have plateaus on diets. Also you don't have to exercise to death to get results. I only exercise 15 minutes every other day. Not bad at all, right?