01/13/2009 14:37
Small victories.
Have made some noticeable changes in the last 2 weeks. Sort of like a mindshift. I am really trying hard not to be obsessive or have an "all or nothing" mentality this time around. Focus is on long term, sustainable change. I haven't been forcing anything, just consciously trying to make better decisions.
I've been eating JC for almost all breakfasts and lunches, and just a few dinners. So far, this is helping me to have portion and nutrition control for MOST meals. When I go out, I'm not yet (honestly) really focusing on eating well, just being aware of what I am eating. Trying not to put too much pressure on myself and turn on the "perfectionist" gene. So far, this has felt pretty good.
Have made quite a few conscious decisions to have my JC meal, and turned down a few eating out opportunities. Here are a few "small", but actually pretty big in my book, victories from the past few weeks:
Aside from snacking on almonds, I have pretty much cut out all other snack foods, ie: those that I tend to eat waaay too much of.
I have been eating sliced apples and yogurt as most snacks. Eating yogurt is an EFFORT for me. I've found a few Yoplait flavors I am liking (pineapple upside down cake, apple turnover, berries and cream) and I also like some of the plain greek yogurt with a Splenda.
I have been trying to eat something every 3 hours or so, as JC said I should be, but I have been paying more attention to when I am hungry vs. what time it is.
I have been drinking MUCH more water
I now bring my own low fat coffeemate (still can't do fat free just yet)
BIGGEST of all, I listened to my body tell me when it was hungry yesterday. This meant that I did not eat lunch until almost 2, but I was OP ALL day. Typically, I eat by 12 more because it IS lunch time vs. I am hungry for lunch.
Call me crazy, but I've noticed my pants have not seemed quite as "sausagey" tight (did I just coin a new phrase?)
I am happily surprised that I have not been hungry. I think I get hungrier when I am not on a diet...go figure...I guess that's something I'll work out in counseling! 
So, I am feeling pretty good about what I have been doing so far. Feeling encouraged definitely helps me to find the motivation that I once had so much of. Going back to a good place feels good....not all the way there by a long shot, but at least I'm on the right highway.
(Still have to do my "homework", will try to do that sometime today)
