Thoughts From My 1st Week Back on JC
Not quite a week yet, but just wanted to give a quick update. Mostly for me, as I found that updating this blog was really good structure and accountability for me in the past, but also for those who can relate to my struggles, and of course my fellow EP'ers who have recently surfaced as well!
So, I went back to Jenny last Tuesday and weighed in at an all time, and unhealthy high, of 208.8. As I am so good at, I managed to beat my previous high of 203.2 - now if only I could beat the lows. At the risk of being considered a freak, I did bring my handy weight graph (pic in below post). That has been very powerful for me in coming to terms with how unhealthy my weight swings have been. In the last 10 years, my weight has fluctuated 70 lbs. THAT is just not normal!
I have been doing a pretty good job of easing back into JC world, I am really trying not to pressure myself or put too much energy into it....since I have a tendency to be all or nothing and super strict. I really need to strike balance between being on a diet, and just plain living a healthy lifestyle. Of course, I also need to lose a significant amount of weight too. 
I've eaten JC breakfasts every day and lunches most days also. Have only eaten a few of JC dinners. However, in the GOOD NEWS column, I have definitely been more aware of my choices and have made several good choices, to avoid something off plan, or just to chooose the healthy alternative. Here's a few positive things I have done in the last week:
Things are surely going in the right direction. Of course, there were several dinners off plan, and one in particular where I didn't stop with normal portions and had too much cake....but again, I am EASING into this. Have a long way to go and want this to be as painless as possible.
I have my first appointment with a therapist tomorrow night to talk about food, weight and eating issues. I am really looking forward to this!
Hope everyone else had a great New Years and is motivated for 2009!