Long Overdue Update!
I've been away for too long! Thanks to those who checked in on me.
So, last I updated, I had just begun my new job. Its been 4 months now
and I love it. The work is challenging, diverse and I am learning a
lot. The travel is a bit more than I expected - about once per week. I
don't mind the travel per se, I really enjoy being out of the office and
the variety of meeting new people and being in new cities. However, my
DIET has definitely suffered.
If any of you travel for work you'll be able to relate to long hours in
the airport (with very few good food choices available), and catered
meetings and dinners. Of course, I COULD always go out of my way to
ensure that I have healthy choices most of the time, but I'm working
hard, tired and the chicken parm and cookies smell so good!! And the
dinners out....always at great places and very rarely healthy! I also
try to never check luggage so I am limited in what I can bring with me.
For some reason, every time I step foot into an airport, I am starving!
Got to be psychological....for some reason I fear being on the plane
with no food available and starving. (As if I would ever really
starve!)
Exercise is also down. I used to get in my 4-5 spin classes per week,
that is down to a moderately consistent 2 on the weekends (as long as we
are home). Not good. Also, my legs used to be super toned from
spinning and my stomach was approaching flat. Not so now.
Now, this is not going to be a woe is me post. Its been 4 months and I
am probably up 10-15 lbs - as all of you know, its so damn easy to
"find" the lost lbs. I am not panicing but AM acknowledging that this
behavior has to change NOW. I had a "come to Jesus" talk with myself
last night. My new size 8 Lucky Jeans that I bought in March as a
special reward to myself are just about too tight to get away with now.
My new work suits are starting to get snug. I WILL NOT do this to
myself again. I will acknowledge that the fun is over, the time of
being carefree and careless and I will start making smart decisions and
doing the things that I KNOW I need to do in order to manage my weight.
Some of those things are:
* I will not treat every meal like a celebration.
* Dessert is not a requirement, especially during lunch
* I will CHOOSE foods, not eat everything that is there
* Just because there are cookies, brownies, cake, etc, does not
mean I have to eat them
* Every dinner on the road is not a special occassion, I do not
have to order steak every time I am in a steakhouse
* I will be realistic about finding time to exercise on the road
(many times just not possible, but SOMETIMES it is)
* I will use the 2nd gym membership that I purchased near the
office
* I will eat small portions, not eat until I am full. I will
remind myself that on JC all of the portions look small (and are small)
and that I ate JC food for 60 some weeks and did just fine, did not
starve.
* I can eat yummy things, but must stop at 1 serving. There is no
need to overindulge, even if it tastes good.
DH and I had a long talk about all of this last night. It seems like I
never really allow myself to really enjoy being down in weight for a
long enough time. Its as if I get complacent, or confident and think I
can "afford" to cheat a little. It feels so good to feel good about
myself and how I look and I should be able to care enough about myself
to continue to let myeslf feel this.