Another day

 It is going well so far.  I am weighing in tomorrow.  I hope I have lost or at least stayed the same.  The last four weeks I have gained. 

About four and half years ago.  I topped the scale at 261.75.  I was able to get to 187.  Now I am back to 207.  I feel I struggle and worry more now about my weight than I did at 261.  Do we ever become comfortable about our bodies?  Coming from a family ex.( mother, grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins) that deals everyday with obesity.  I wonder if it is learned behavior or some genetics.  

I cannot give up on me.  My mother tells me I am beautiful and that I should be happy with myself.  I want to be happy.  I just can't.  Seeing my mother battle her weight all her life.  I do not want it to consume my life.  I think if I live to be 75 do I still want to worry about.  I have to Make The Lifestyle Change.