it'll be better tomorrow

I was so lazy today, too lazy to go to the caf and get some fruit and veggies... and too lazy to work out... so i just kind of ate all over the place today. I ate more calories than I wanted to and I needed to eat more veggies... but it's ok, ill do better tomorrow

Breakfast

-1 cup Honey Nut Cherrios

-8 oz nonfat milk

Lunch

-Lean Pocket

-Organic Strawberry Yogurt

Snack

-1 Bagel

-2 Tbsp Hummus

Dinner

-Burrito (I really need to stop eating them... but seriously, one the only things that tastes decent in the caf)

Total Calories: 1500 calories Total Fat: 36 grams

10K

Today was so great, my only class of today was cancelled. Cancelled on the nicest day of the year! I was so excited. I went and had a "me" day. I walked down the beach, layed in the sunshine browning up my skin (lol i am pretty much addicted to being tan), went shopping, then I went for a 10K walk/run, and since my feet were so sore after, i went and i got a foot massage and pedicure. It was amazing. I also managed to eat pretty ok too :)

Breakfast

-3 lowfat Eggo Waffles

-8 oz Apple Juice

-V8 juice

Lunch

-Lean Pocket

-V8 juice

Dinner

-Burrito

Work Out

-6K Walk/Run: 6.3miles/90minutes/750calories

Total Calories: 1270-750= 520 calores Total Fat: 23 grams

Monday Monday

So today was my first day on Alli, it is going fine, no funky side effects happened (hopefully they never will). I am back to counting calories and fat grams again. I was really contimlating taking a "day off", especially since I have been soooo strict on myself this last week, but then i decided that that would be a VERY BAD IDEA... I would just go crazy.... and plus, there are no days off in life, so why should there be a day off in my diet right?

Breakfast

-1 medium grapefruit w/ splenda

-1 Slim Fast

-1 nonfat Chai Tea Latte

Lunch

-Chicken/veggie Crepe

Snack

-2 pickles

Dinner

-Red Beans and Rice

-Veggie Soup

Total Calories- 1200 Calories Total Fat- 34 grams

3lbs and My Alli

Yay, so my super duper healthy vegan week is over and I did not once go off track (well i had 2 diet cokes actually). Honestly, I could keep going with it, I havn't been hungry all week and I have a ton of energy from it... but I just really miss my yogurt and raisin bran in the morning lol. Anyways, I had a major weight loss too! I went from 166.8 (2 weeks ago) to 164.2 (as of saturday) so that is almost 3 lbs! the thing is though, is I know for a FACT that just a week ago I was heavier then 166.8 by at least 1 or 2 lbs (after my week of emotional eating).... so technically i must have lost about 5 lbs this week! Anyway, so that makes my total weight loss to 11.3 pound, so I passed my 10 lbs mark! yay! I made an appointment to get my hair done (FINALLY!) for next saturday as my reward. I just can't wait to keep watching the scale go down.

Alright, so now that I am really on the bandwagon with this whole weight loss thing (I know I can do it!) I have decided that I going to start the MyAlli program tomorrow (actually it is today)... and im nervous. It has all these treatment effects if you eat over your recommended amount of fat per meal... things like uncontrolable bowel movements and gas (ahhhh scary! That is like everyones worst nightmare) lol i dont plan on going over my fat limits (it says i can eat up to 16 grams per meal and under 50 per day) and ive been eating really low fat since I started my diet so I know I can do it, but it still is kind of scary, i just really REALLY need to be conscious of what I am putting into my mouth from now on. lol I pray that I will have nothing but good things (and weight loss) that comes out of it. I made a support group (called myallisupport) on EP for any of ya'll who are taking it too, so you should join it if you are.

down home comfort food

so i told my hunny that i would make him lunch today and bring it to his tournament for him..... so basicly i am going to make him and a bunch of his friends fried chicken, cornbread, and red velvet cake cupcakes (lol I must have been from the south in my past life). i love to cook and I am happy to do it for him.... but this is going to be a huge temptation for me! I really just dont even want to treat myself to any of it considering I came this far on my all natural/all vegan week so i hope i have enough will power to get through today.

sooooooooo CUTE!!!!!

I just got my halloween costume in the mail and i am IN LOVE WITH IT! it is even cuter then it is in the pictures when I ordered it. the skirt is really flattering and makes me look super curvy and hot hot hot. I have to figure out what I am going to do aboout the top though. lol my boobs are way too big for it... i think i am going to put an underwire in it along with some sheer (not too sheer though) tanish/skin colored fabric with sparklies all over it (think, brittney spears circa 2000 when she preformed at the VMAs before she became a complete lunatic) to cover my tummy. This is just major incentive for me to lose even more weight by then and do lots of arm exercizes and DO ALL MY CRUNCHES.

it's a healthy life...

So, if you read my last blog you can see that this week i am eating "au natural." It is going really well, sometimes I just want "real food" but I must admit I am full of energy and I feel like it is going to pay off in the end. I treated myself and had a diet coke today.... obviously it isnt going to hurt anything, but i did want to stay away from any caffine this week... but oh well. I know I am really going to need to fight off temptation this weekend, I am also going to try to work out this weekend too so hopefully my boyfriend wont want me to go watch his softball games (haha, like that is going to happen)

Work Out

-Walk/Jog- 80minutes/5.5miles/700calories

Going Vegan! (well just for a week lol)

Well I think I am out of my funk that I got into last week, I no longer feel like eating everything in sight, crying every other second, and no more yelling at people... which is a good thing. I havnt weighed myself for 10 days... I decided to not weigh myself until the end of this week (probably sunday or monday) so hopefully I can undo whatever damage I did last week and be under 165 by then (I am really needed a haircut, but i said I wouldnt do it until I am under 165)

So I thought I would try something new this week just to mix things up a little. I thought I would not count calories this week and just focus on eating healthy, really low fat, no refined sugars, and all organic and vegan foods. I was a vegetarian for over a year and a half and I just started eating poultry again (but def. no read meat) so eating vegan isnt too hard for me, so I am pretty sure I can last a week. I've been doing pretty good with it, I started on monday and ive just been eating lots of fruits and veggies, lots of soymilk for protein, and I made this awesome veggie soup that I eat before every meal to curb my hunger. I am also filling up on lots of water and hot tea. So anyways, hopefully I can last for the week, but then it is back to counting calories so I can lose even more by halloween. Wish me luck!

thinking positive

Ok so even though I am still feeling like my hormones are controling everything I do and say and I am on the verge of an emotional breakdown every 2 seconds so this post is all about thinking postively... so here it goes....

So something good that happened today is that I got my halloween costume. I looooove halloween, it is the one day girls are allowed to look like complete sluts and no one can say anything about it lol jk, I just think it is so much fun. I am going to be a mermaid (It looks like this http://www.costumecraze.com/MRMD07.html) but I still need to make the top part so that it is a full top so my stomach isnt showing, because if I wore it just like that people might be blinded by my fat stomach. But yea, I still want to look really good so I'm really going to buckle down and get going on my weight loss.

So, as I was trying to think positively today, I was thinking about what I should do to reward myself for my weight loss (not that looking a whole lot better and being healthier isnt enough) so I could have some really good incentive...

175 lbs- Start

165 lbs (down 10 lbs)- Get hair done (cut and color)

150 lbs (down 25 lbs)- Buy 15 tanning sessions

140 lbs (down 35 lbs)- Spa Day (facial, mani, pedi, massage)

130 lbs (down 45 lbs)- New Tattoo (I want it on my lower back)

120 lba (down 55 lbs)- Belly Button peirced

115-120 maintaied for 6 months- My breast Aug. lol :)

PMS

wow, so I have seriously been on an emotional roller coaster these last few days. I have either been crying or wanting to scream at someone. I think my boyfriend is scared of me right now, lol I never act like this. Last night, I told him I wanted to bake these chocolate cookies and then he said "oh but I really want lemon bars" and then I started yelling at him about how we always do what he wants and never do what I want and "WE ARE MAKING THE FREAKING CHOCOLATE COOKIES!" and then after I said it I realized that how stupid I sounded and then I started crying. and then once I was crying I was like "why the hell am i crying" and then I was mad again. it is like an ongoing cycle, first mad, then sad, then mad again. I also yelled at him for snoring last night... the words just came out of my mouth before I even knew what I was saying. He obviously can't help snoring, I am acting like a crazy person... I really need to stop. I definately think it is time for me to change my birth control because I have never been so emotional during that TOM in my life! I know every woman like this sometimes, but I cannot stand being so out of control with my emotions.

Along with being a complete bitch to my boyfriend, I also said "shut it mother!" to my mom last night. She looked at me like she was going to rip off my head and it was really scary lol. I think "shut it" to my mom is equivalent to saying "F-you!" to anyone else. lol but in my defence, the first thing she says to me when I got home was "omg, you have the biggest pimple on the side of your nose" and then "when are you going to get your hair done, it looks awful" and then "You dont need to bake cookies, I thought you were on a diet" and I am just in such a fragile state the words "shut it mother" just came out. I should have just been like, ok, thank you mom for stating the obvious, I dont need to be reminded that I am a big fat cow with a mountain on the side of my face.

Anyway, the conclusion of my story is that 1. I am being a crazy 2. I need to stop being a crazy and 3. The chocolate cookie eating needs to stop.