So i have invested my time and money in a 12 week program and I am feeling really good about it. It includes a nutrition outline (almost exactly to the only i am doing right now), fitness instruction, and positive self affirmations. The whole positive self talk thing I thought was kind of silly, but i mean hell, why not, I think it will do me some good. So everyday I am writing down 5 things I can do to achieve my goal for that day, 2 things I can do to support and encourage others, and then at the end of the day you write 3 positive things you did and one negative (focus on the positive right!) and then you mark if you achieved your plan for that day. I really like it cuz you make new goals everyday. Also, the book I bought has a new success story for every day and Bill Phillips tells me how to love myself lol. I am actually super excited about it but like I said, I am invested in this... I dont want to start something I am not going to finish.
I've been doing the 6 meal diet plan for 2 days now but im officially going to start my 12-week plan tomorrow with the workout, meal plan, and "positiveness" lol. It is actually going to take me a little bit longer than 12 weeks to finish the program because of my surgery on May 1st.... so i wont be able to exercise for 10 days, but i will still be able to stick to the meal plan.
So tonight I took some god awful pictures of me in a bikini as my before picture (I kinda think it's part of the whole deal, you take the worst picture ever and post it in your journal so you have to look at it everyday until you reach your goal lol), weighed myself, and measured my body. Right now I'm 173lbs and, between my arm, chest, waist, stomach, hips, thighs, and calves I am a total of 218.8 inches of woman!!! (ok, everytime I freak out about how big this number is, my positive thinking tells me "it's ok, you are doing great making better choices to better your body, health, and lifestyle".... god I am good at this self talk stuff lol). So that's all I have to report for tonight... here is my food journal for today
M1 (10:00)- smoked salmon
M2 (12:30)- cottage cheese
M3 (2:00)- 2 cans V8 juice
M4 (4:00)- smoothie with 1 stalk of celery, 1 cup blueberries, and 1 banana
M5 (6:00)- spaghetti squash w/ sauce
M6 (10:00)- oatmeal
so i did the monkey thing today (read my last blog it will explain more) and it went pretty well... i wasn't hungry at all because i felt like i was constantly eating. I only got 5 out of my 6 meals in, but i also woke up at like 1 in the afternoon so i dont think it mattered too much.
Meal 1 (2:00 pm): 4 egg whites
Meal 2 (4:00 pm): fruit (pineapple, watermelon, and honeydew)
Meal 3 (5:00 pm): 2 pieces high fiber whole wheat toast
Meal 4 (7:00 pm): smoked salmon
Meal 5 (10:00 pm): 1 hard boiled egg and 1 glass soymilk
well, a while ago i've sworn off any diet that says I can't eat something.... but that's obviously not working, i need a concrete structure and I need to just go cold turkey, at least for awhile, off of the "bad" stuff. I went to the doctor the other day and he said I should try either the south beach diet or the primate diet... so that is what I am doing, I'm gonna eat like a monkey for a week and see how it goes. I still have to read a little bit more about it but basicly it is 6 small meals a day and each meal you can only have either starch, fruit and veggies (plant product), or protein, but you cant have a combination of any of them. And try to eat as much of it as you can raw. Since I'm a vegetarian (well actually a pescidarian, lol i eat fish and seafood), i get a lot of my protein from soy product, so im not sure to count that as protein or plant product. Also I get a lot of my protein from milk and eggs and cheese but... but i dont know about that either lol so im a little confused but so far today i think i am doing it right. So far I had
and then i plan on having a few plums, smoked salmon, and spaghetti squash with marinara sauce (I made it last night and it has a tiny bit of oil in it.... but i dont think it will be too bad)
If any of ya'll have heard of this diet before or you have any suggestions for me, feel free to comment, I would really appriciate it.
surprisingly I stayed at 170... i was almost positive I was going to gain after this weekend. Last night I made these swedish dumplings called crepcaca (I know that is not how you spell it, but its close enough). They are potato dumplings filled with bacon and salt pork and then covered in a butter cream sauce (well I made those for everyone else and then I made mine with soy bacon and soy meat.... they definitely did not taste as good as the real thing but they were pretty close.) But really, I had 2 and they were just so heavy and doughy they just kind of sat in my stomach and expanded and I was so full I thought I was going to die, I can't even imagine how many points they would be.
I REALLY want to lose this week so I just really have to be more strict with myself over the weekends and get to the gym a little more. I think I can do it if I keep my mind to it.
well so much for journaling everyday lol. This weekend has been kinda crazy though because of valentine's day and president's day. I had a wonderful V-day, probably the best one i've ever had. i'm gonna weigh myself tomorrow to see what kind of damage i've done.
I'm super excited for tomorrow.... ah, the day of love and the color pink, what is there not to like :) I'm taking ryan to this thing called "Woo at the Zoo" and it's this event at night where you hang out, the have appitizers, they bring in some cool animals to show you and then I guess there is a comedian that comes and talks about a bunch of different mating rituals done by different animals. lol it's cheesy I know, but i love that kind of stuff.... and if im happy, then he is happy (lol j/k).
Breakfast
2 meatless sausage lol 20 - 3
1/2 banana 17 - 1
Lunch
buttermilk biscuit 16 - 7
egg white scramble w/ feta and asparagus 9 - 4
Dinner
soy hot dog 5 - 1
bun 4 - 2
reduced fat cheddar 2 - 2
Total: 0 points (woot woot! 2 days in a row)
water: 5/8
I didn't work out today for my weekly work out minutes and crunches are the same as yesterday
hey guys, like the new layout? I couldn't stand it being plain anymore so I renewed my gold membership lol.
anyways, so a few months ago when I went to have a regular check up my doc told me he felt a lump in my throat and I should go see an endocronologist. So I went and they did some ultra sounds and a biopsy (the biopsy was seriously the most traumatic event in my life and never ever want to go though it again) and they said it was just a benign cyst on my thyroid. He said that I should just come in every year and get it checked and it wasnt a big deal.
Then, I noticed it was getting bigger and it's really starting to look like an adam's apple lol (a small one, but still lol) and every time there was pressure on it I would like go into a coughing fit. He said that there is only a 1% chance it is cancerous (but hey, 1% counts for something) and I really just didnt want to have to keep checking it (with scary biopsies) for the rest of my life so I decided I wanted to get it removed. The good news is is that it is right in the front of my throat so he said that is the place with the least amount of complications because it is no where near the vocal cords. It's a really simple procedure with a really short recovery time (10 days before any strenuous activity and i'll only miss one day of school) so we set the date for May 1st which is exciting (lol I dont know if exciting is the right word to use, but whatever, you get the gist )
I lost a pound this week, I wasnt expecting it so it was a pleasant surprise.
So i've been having minor sleeping problems again (at one point about a year ago it got really bad) so I went to the doc to get some more lunesta just to get things back on track before it gets any worse. He asked me about school and I told him I transfered to a JC and I am really trying for a 4.0 so I could bring my GPA up before I transfer again to a university in a year. Anyway he told me he thought I should try using provigil (a stimulant/stay awake pill) because I told him that after an hour of class my brain kind of just shuts off... and most of my classes are 3 hours long. He also told me one of it's good side affects for me would be that it supresses hunger (pretty cool if you ask me). Anyways, he told me to take one, a half of one, or dont take it at all when I wake up in the morning depending on what I have to do that day. So this morning I took a whole one because I had three classes. Then, without thinking and out of habit, I went to starbucks and got myself a soy latte with 3 shots of expresso! I seriously could not sit still and my heart was beating for fast it felt like it was going to jump out of my chest and fly away. It was NOT a cool feeling, however, I got tons of reading done, I cleaned my car, I did pay attention the whole class, I wasn't hungry at all today, and I went to the gym and ran a 10 minute mile (while is pretty fast for me). So I think I am just going to stick to 1/2 of one and NO caffine from now on.
ok so im just checking in cuz i havnt in awhile, i am not sticking to my goals very well but im not doing too horrible either. it's been really nice out (finally!) so ive been going for lots of walks but nothing really strenuous, but it's better then nothing. I am suppose to weigh in tomorrow but i'm not sure if i'll make it to the gym or not. I went out to dinner with my b/f's family last night and his dad says he can tell i've lost some weight.... i really hardly lost anything but i've been working out so it really does make a difference. Hearing that from him really gives me incentive not to keep losing and REALLY gives me incentive not to gain again. I've only journaled 3/7 days this week so my goal is to journal every single day starting tomorrow.
My classes are all over the place this semester, I go to school tuesday and thursday from 11am - 2pm and then mon, tues, wed, night from about 7-10 (LOOONG CLASSES) so basicly my lunchtime is blocked by classes and my dinner time is blocked by classes so I dont even know what to do with myself. What i;ve been doing is eating in the morning around 10 and then having a big "linner" or "dunch" (lol whatever you want to call it) around 4, but then by the time I get out of class at night I am hungry again, and instead of eating a healthy snack, ill eat a whole other meal since I missed one during the day at like 11 o'clock at night! I really dont like snacking (i'd rather save my calories for big meals) or doing mini meals, but I think that is what I am going to have to do, I was thinking something like.....
Breakfast at 10 am (4-5 points)
mini meal at 2 pm (5-6 points)
snack at 4 pm (2-3 points)
mini meal at 6 pm(5-6 points)
snack at 10 pm (2-3 points)
I dunno... I'll try it but I dont know if it is going to work out for me so i'm not going to stress over it.
Today was my long day at school. My bf got a second job (he already works a night shift from 3am-9am) during the day so it sucks when I cant see him as much. He knows I was feeling bummed about it so we spent all afternoon together and he took me to dinner before I had to go to night class. We went to mexican food and of course I could not stay away from the chips and salsa (and earlier in the day I already had a bunch of chips and crackers too) but I counted and I only ate 15 or so. Then, I came home from my night class and my mom made flan for my brother's birthday and I couldnt resist that either! I went over my points for the day but tomorrow my plan is to not use any flexi points to make up for it.
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