EPT what is my future?
I was absolutely CONVINCED i was pregnant today. I felt nauseous this morning (and the past few days too), my boobs are sore, I have to pee every 2 seconds, I havn't been losing any weight even though I have been working really hard on it, and I havnt had my period in 3 months.... I really thought I was a goner. I also keep having dreams that I am big and fat wearing a Moomoo with curlers in my hair (I know... weird... but i'm not even kidding). I woke up this morning and I called my boyfriend in tears and all I kept thinking about is how ryan would have to find a better job and I would have to quit school and how much it would SUCK and how my life would basicly be ruined. I went to the store and seriously bought like 5 different pregnancy tests. They all turned out negative. I really don't know what I was thinking when after 2 years I just all of a sudden decided to not take my BC anymore... but I can't keep living like this in constant fear of something happening. I am calling my Doc pronto to get me back on something.
Well, along with my psychotic meltdown, I had class all day long, had to write 2 papers, go to the bookstore, and go to a meeting, so this is the first time i have been home all day. I didn't get a chance to work out either... which i am bummed about, but i'll make up for it tomorrow. I've also been so busy I only ate 900 calories! oops... it's ok, i'll do better tomorrow.
M1 (180): protein shake w/ whey and peaches. M2 (210): small nonfat latte and citrus fruit salad (sooo yummy). M3 (220): salmon and green beans and a few bites of rice. M4 (110): EAS protein shake. M5 (200): oatmeal and cottage cheese
Total: about 910 calories
Workout: none