major venting
I have been soooo unbelievable moody the past 2 days you would think I am bipolar or something. One second i'll be crying and then the next i'll just be so mad I want to punch somebody (aka my bf) in the face. I've also been super super tired and super irritable and on edge lately.
R hasn't been acting any differently than he normally does, but for some reason, all the things that he does that bother me, I just seem to notice more, and they seem to bother me more and more. Like last night R told me (yea, told me, didn't ask me) that in the morning we were going to go to his g-ma's birthday party. So I was pissed off that he didn't tell me sooner AND I was mad because I knew I wouldnt be able to workout or sleep in in the morning so it was frustrating. Anyway, so I get to his house when he told me to be there all ready to go and he is still in bed playing video games and tells me that we arent going anymore! OMG usually this kind of stuff doesn't bother me but I was seriously SSOOOOOO mad I couldn't even control myself. I was/am just so frustrated with him right now because I am trying to live a good healthy and PRODUCTIVE lifestyle, and all he does is eat and play video games and sleep all day. He is really getting (cuz he never use to be when he use to play baseball) lazy. He has also gained a LOT of weight, which doesn't bother me about how he looks at all, but it just shows how bad his lifestyle has gotten.
I realize that everyone has different priorities, and I realize that those priorities can change, but if two people have totally different outlooks on what is really important in their lives, then how is it ever going to work?
These are his priorities right now- work, videogames/tv/leisure, softball, sleep, me.
These are what mine are (which need some adjusting but still)- sleep, ryan, exercise, school, friends
See? Two totally different sets of values. I don't know what to do. I am just really unhappy right now. Whenever I try to talk to R about it, he listens, but I don't think he gets it and I don't think he realizes that it is serious.
Anyway, this post was all over the place with my thoughts, sorry about that. So today I didn't do to well with my eating, and I wasn't able to work out until 10:30 tonight (I did a 30 minute body sculpting video even though I was suppose to do cardio, but it was the only thing I had and the gym was closed). It wasn't that bad, but tomorrow i'll do better.
M1(10:30): protein smoothie w/ banana, blueberry, strawberry, and whey. M2 (12:00): tall nonfat latte. M3 (2:30): lowfat cottage cheese and 2 WASA crackers. M4 (6:00): flax seed muffin. M5 (7:30): swordfish and 1/2 whole wheat bun